What precisely are you struggling with in regards to being HIV Positive; is it money, shame, access to opportunities what exactly? I'm confused a bit as to your disdain for your status, and yet your screen name/handle says quite the contrary.
Drugs/ ART(antiretroviral therapy) can cost, but depending on where you're living, there are support structures available for those who cannot afford it and thus provide your ART for free. Being Infected with a Sexually transmitted infection isn't a glorifying thing. However, as a coping mechanism people (read each of us as an individual) may choose to embrace this with any form of emotional/psychological solace they may need. So, if someone feels pride in it, in order to accept or cope with their situation, then is that not a good thing?
As for glorification, well, that depends on each user's reason for being on this particular website - just wanna get off or learn something about themselves, or others....
I think you're hurting and you've every right in being upset. You cannot wish what cannot be put back in time. Time only moves forward. If it did go backwards, I'd be constantly changing my underwear....
Human Immune Virus is a virus, not unlike covid-19 just needs a bridge to pass from one host to another whether it be intentional or not. You may have made some unconscious decisions or you made some conscious decisions. You cannot change them, but don't hate yourself for these decisions. Maybe you didn't have enough information before this outcome, and that's unfortunate. It's good that you felt safe enough here on this site to vent your frustrations. I have a general disdain for non-centrist conservatives /republicans and Trump-minded folks. I vent it elsewhere. Everyone's response is going to be subjective based on their experience with this STI. Maybe some day in the future, this won't be a subject for discussion. For now, it still is.
I hope that you can hang around and share/elaborate more on your experience.