MackyJay

Feel of a condom is terrible

I'm for it.

No I don't and really don't care about status. I just want fucked.

Level 6 for at least last 7-8 yrs. Still neg but I am chasing.

Used to only want a hand and no more than 6 inches of arm but now, I'm a lot more kinky pervy so as far as guy doing me wants to take us. Looking for a guy to restart me as it's been a few years since last time but I miss that feeling and want to feel it again.

It is to me

I'm ok with it

Love it

To me it is.

Hell yes

The time I got my 'anal cherry' popped it was bareback and magnificent. Have been fucked by three guys using condoms but last time was about 6 years ago. Did not like the feeling all three times and after the last time I decided NO MORE and banned condoms being used in me. I never turn down any kind, size nor status of a cock as long as it is bareback only. If a guy insists on using a condom I just tell them no thanks and goodbye. Fuck me BAREBACK only, no condoms allowed (will make an exception for a cruel condom as I'm curious how one feels) and cum is to be deposited in me, no pull outs. For the last several months, I've also posted on every site I use that I'm HIV neg but am now officially on the chaser list looking to get pozzed. I'm ready willing and almost desperate to be pozzed.

One thing to remember for sure: NO SUCH THING AS TOO MUCH LUBE. Better lots than too little as too little can lead to damages.

I am just like that too. I've ridden cock a couple of times but just not as good to me. I'd rather just be tipped almost upside down and have my top drive into me like a pile-driver.

Mine is actually on my back, legs well spread with pillow under my ass to lift me up more so I can watch the expression on his face as he eases his hand slowly in me opening me up little by little till he gets his hand in completely. Then just enjoying the sensations it causes as he works his hand around, pulling out and back in, getting a little deeper each time in. Unfortunately, it's now been close to five years since my last time. The wonderful guy, who 'trained' me for fisting, died suddenly and tragically of a heart attack. Miss him a lot. We'd discussed how far I wanted him to go. After talking it over, I went home from this session (think it was like our third or fourth) got online and watched several vids of guys getting fisted. Then next time we met up, we talked for about a half hour and it was decided that I wanted him to get his hand in me and then no more than 6 inches up his arm plus he was to work on stretching my hole wider as I kind of wanted to have him get both hands in at same time just to feel that at least one time lol. He also brought up at this time another issue, he told me he'd not brought this up with me yet but usually when with a new guy it was said by second session. He said he liked some more satisfaction from fisting and would fist a guy then take, what he called his 'dick break' and would fuck a guy bareback till he would cum in them, then take a real break lol and then if we wanted he'd fist more. He said I could let him know by our next session about that. That really gave me something to think about as I knew he HIV POSITIVE but on meds and undetectable, but I didn't know a lot about it so did a lot of research before our next session and came up with a deal for him lol. So, next session came and I informed him that his HIV POZ UD status kind of had me a bit scared but was willing to gamble with it if he was game. I told him of my plan, that I'd flip a coin for it, if it came up heads two out of three flips he'd get his 'dick break' bareback but he had to pull out before cumming not in me but if two out of three came up tails he could fuck me bareback and go ahead and cum in me. He said he was a bit disappointed but it sounded fair and agreed to it. I got out a quarter and flipped it, but a bit nervous and OMG dropped coin on floor and it bounced under bed lol. I asked him if he wanted to count this flip or start over. He said might as well count it. So we both got on floor and coin was only a couple inches under bed so well able to see it and it was heads, whew. Got coin and flipped it again and caught it this time and slapped it on my wrist, lifted hand and it was another head, so this time he'd get his break but had to pull out before cumming. Still had a great session. He was taking me along slowly and gently so I would enjoy it more. From this point onward our sessions went like this: He'd take a good 10-15 minutes just loading me up with lots of lube, then start slowly getting his hand in me and fisting would last a good hour, getting his hand in and out of me gently and also trying to stretch my hole bigger, then he'd pull out his hand and lift my legs way up and apart to insert his very nice 7 1/2" long nicely fat cock into me for his 'dick break' and fuck me bateback for close to another 45 minutes. Felt so damn good to me that I had a hard time to not just wrap my legs around him tight so he couldn't pull out when he was ready to cum but was barely able to let him out and let him cum all over my chest, then a real break of approx 15 minutes, then he'd fist me again for a half hour up to an hour before we were done. Three sessions in a row after this one, so four total, coin favored me and came up two of three flips heads (he fucked so good though that each time it was harder for me to not lock my legs around him to cum in me but my fear of his HIV POZ UD is all that stopped me). Then inevitably it happened, coin flip finally favored him and came up two of three flips tails. I'm a man of his word and he asked me if I was sure and I replied I wasn't sure but this coin flip was my idea and he'd agreed to it so I felt I had no choice otherwise it would mean my word was useless. We had a very nice time with the fisting then time for his break. He took his time entering me with his cock and then he fucked me really great and when he was ready to cum, told me he was going to cum and to get ready and about 4 or 5 hard deep thrusts later he rammed as deep as he could and I could actually feel his cock throbbing as he filled me with his cum. OMG did it feel great to finally feel that. Then rest and then another hour of fisting. Next time I showed up for session, we got naked and I laid down on bed, he asked me what was up, wasn't I going to flip coin. I told him I'd thought about it since last session and since I'd already let him cum in me, if his UD status didn't hold up it was probably too late for me now so why flip anymore, when time for break came just go ahead and fuck me silly and cum in me. So that was our routine from then on, fisting for approx an hour floored by bareback fucking till he filled me with his cum and then real break followed by more fisting. Unfortunately, it seems, all good things come to an end. Our 11th session proved to be our last one. During this one, as he neared the end of fisting, before pulling his hand out, he used a marker to put a dot on his arm. Then pulled most of way out of me but not all out for some more stretching trying to get both his hands in me at once. This went on for another approx 15 minutes. When doing stretching he always had a mirror so I could watch. Very hot to me to be able to watch my hole being used. He got so very close this last time to getting them both in together, couldn't have needed hardly more than maybe a quarter of an inch more and both would have been in and oh did I want it as the feeling was fantastic. But both just wouldn't quite fit so he pulled out (forgot to mention that his hands could probably be described as medium sized). When out he got a ruler and measured to dot on arm. Remember I'd said I only wanted his hand in me and no more than 6 inches up his arm and measurement showed 5 5/8 inches, so close again only 3/8 inch more to go. I was slightly disappointed but he said to not worry as we were so close he figured that we'd hit both targets the next session or no more than the one after that. Unfortunately, I had to travel out of state for work for next six weeks and when I got back was still too busy for another month ugh. Then tried to get ahold of him but no luck. He lived in another town about fifty miles away so after trying to get ahold of him by phone for another coupe of weeks I had some other business in his town and when done went to his house and rang the bell. I was really hoping he was home because he always answered the door nude lol. Door opened but wasn't him. It was a boy who looked to be like 13-14 years old and Latino. I asked if my friend was home and boy answered he didn't know him. I said but this is his home. Boy said not that he knew of as his parents owned it. Huh? I said hold on a sec and stepped back and looked around and having been to this house at least 15 times (was there for talks about fisting with one of those to watch him fist another guy plus our 11 sessions) I knew I wasn't at wrong place. Then the boy's mom came to door and I asked about my friend. She also said she didn't know him and she and her husband had purchased this house through a real estate agent and owner had same lady name as my friend but different first name. Whew, what the hell? I apologized for bothering them and left. Ugh, did not know hardly any of his other friends, like a total of three. One a past boyfriend he'd just broken up with when I met him but knew he'd moved out of state so pretty sure he'd know nothing as was a very nasty breakup. Other two were a couple and I soon found out that one of them had recently passed away. Took me almost another month before I was able to finally get ahold of him. Asked about friend and was informed of the bad news about his sudden heart attack and it was his brother that was his only close relative and inherited everything but was also a complete asshole and did not approve of his brother's life style. Just came and actually only kept a very very few of his brother's things and had a dumpster placed there and probably close to 95% of belongings were thrown out, which included almost every bit of furniture, kitchen appliances including stove, refrigerator and deep freezer (all three of those had been less than a year old) but that brother didn't care about that as all he really wanted was the money he got. My friend was a very frugal man and he was very very good at saving and then investing his money, some stocks but mostly in CDs and had even once shown me how he was doing and it was really good. He clearly had cash on hand in bank of around $150,000 and his other investments and CDs were a little over $500,000. So he was doing great. He'd been the head counselor at a community college and around our 8th session had taken early retirement and this part really sad as when he died he was only 56 yrs old. I was really turn up about his death. Mainly because he was just such a really nice and gentle soul but not because of fisting so much. Well that's the story of my start of fisting but since then I've not been fisted but I sure am really starting to miss it as I still remember how great it felt. I'm now trying hard to find another guy to restart me again. One thing about it is since that last session, I've become a huge amount more kinky pervy than then lol, so when I find a new guy to do me, the limits from back then are out and new guy I will give permission for him to go as far as he wants to go.

I wouldn't be, I'd be very very happy.