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Negative on PrEP (I take it daily).

I wonder if Christopher is going to become a versatile Tina slut and end up fucking Reese (and maybe even dominant Brad, too?).

@rawTOP I think you’ll find these interesting: First link is a really great interview with David Stuart, who coined the word “chem sex”. Second link is a documentary, the best documentary ever made about Chemsex, I strongly recommend it. It will cost only a couple or so dollars to rent or buy via YouTube.

The term “Chemsex” was coined by David Stuart, who worked at 56 Dean Street in London, the largest and busiest sexual health clinic in Europe. He noticed a trend that started in the early 2000s (he was actually part of it at that time) where growing numbers of gay men were starting to use certain drugs in an exclusively sexual context. These drugs were crystal meth (tina or “T”), GBL/GHB (G) and mephedrone. By 2010 it had really grown into a large subculture within the gay world - guys attending sex sessions and sex parties across London (but also many other major world cities, too) getting high on one or any combination of these three drugs (T, G and Mephedrone) staying awake for days on end just having non-stop sex. People can take other drugs in a sexual context, such as MDMA/ecstasy, cocaine, cannabis, whatever…. But these drugs being used in a sexual context don’t have a very specific subculture built around them where gay men will use these drugs only and fuck for days on end, no longer be able to have sex at all without using them after frequent use, develop very serious problems in their life as a result of this sex. “Chemsex” is the use of very specific drugs (T, G, mephedrone also known as “M-cat”) for long sex sessions.

I couldn't get an erection with condoms involved - like, even if my cock was rock solid hard, the moment I tried to put a condom on or the moment a guy even mentioned the word "condom", my cock would go soft and it would all be over, I wouldn't be able to get hard again. So the only way I could fuck was bareback.

Darren owes you a load, huh? Haha. Okay, I will private message you with regards to a meet up on the Heath. Better not continue the discussion here as it's taken the post off topic. I'll hit you up shortly!

Oh, I've been to Vault a few times - cruising around the place naked and wearing my shoes 😂 very fun place, do you know if it will re-open soon? I went to Greenhouse Luton a few times too (I used to love the jacuzzi there), and I had sex with one of the guys who worked there - a hot lad of Bangladeshi heritage. I also used to sometimes drive with a friend to Greenhouse Darlaston (in the West Midlands, near Birmingham). That was a good place too, on three floors if I remember correctly - but not as big as Chariots Shoreditch (that was my favourite!). Last time I went cruising on Hampstead Heath was, I think, one night in the summer of 2019 (I met a hot mixed race guy there who was smoking Tina and getting fucked raw taking anonymous loads... so I gave him mine, too). I'll have to hit you up sometime, friend!

I bet you've been a right cumdump in the darkrooms at Chariots !

Did you tell the sexual health worker who told you that you are poz, that you'd been taking PrEP on an event-based basis? If so, what did they say? I have been to 56 Dean Street many times. I had my Hep B vaccinations done there. But most of the time I go to Mortimer Market Centre Clinic (near Warren Street tube station), which is the clinic who started me on the PrEP Impact Trial in 2019. I actually love both clinics, the staff at both clinics are great and very friendly and non-judgmental.

Imagine it. You wake up tomorrow morning and in the news headlines you read: "New mysterious illness observed in sexually active gay men. Mortality rate 100%. Doctors baffled but suspect infectious agent, sexually transmitted". Imagine nothing is known about this new illness, except that lots of gay and bisexual men are dying and the common link seems to be that all those affected are (or have been) very sexually active and engaged in bareback sex on a regular basis. It would be like traveling back in time to the very beginning of the AIDS epidemic, in 1981. Only this time, it's not HIV. It's something new and unknown ....the only thing we know is that it's going to take doctors and medical scientists a while before they discover the cause; if it is a virus or a bacteria; if it is spread through oral or anal sex or both; how long the incubation period is; etc. Now try to imagine this actually happening at some point in the future. The overwhelming majority of us on Breeding Zone are, I assume, frequent barebackers. We love raw sex and we have lots of it, on a regular basis. We are sluts. We love to dump and take hot loads. In the gay world, PrEP has been a game-changer. PrEP's widespread availability, increasing popularity and encouragement has resulted in thousands and thousands of sexually active gay men across the Western world to start barebacking with peace of mind; without fear. Now imagine a new disease puts an end to that brief period of safety and embracing a post-condom world. Unprotected sex, particularly unprotected anal sex, suddenly becomes terrifying - and those of us who have had and continue to have plenty of it, start to become frightened that we may have this new disease running through our veins. Do any of you here reading this right now choose not to bareback or to let guys cum inside you because of this kind of scenario potentially happening in the future? Does the aforementioned imaginary scenario affect your decision of whether or not to bareback? Does anyone here wonder about this at all? Do any of you here who, like myself, do choose to bareback with lots of random strangers, sometimes worry that there could already be or that there might be in the future a deadly disease spreading very silently through gay men, just like HIV must have surely been silently spreading within the gay community all throughout the 1970s, before people started falling sick in the very early 80s?

I forgot to ask, would I have eventually become Poz sooner or later, had a just carried on bareback topping random, anon strangers and never got on PrEP? Or is it possible I could have barebacked my way through to this day without being on PrEP and still remained neg?

For five years (between 2013 and 2018), I was a bareback top who fucked literally so many random, anonymous strangers (I have no idea how many, but I'd say between 100 and 250) in a variety of places including cruising areas, gay bathhouses ("saunas" as we call them in the UK), sex clubs, darkrooms, hotel rooms and in people's own homes such as private apartments and houses. I literally did not go to a sexual health clinic for a test once during those five years of plentiful random, anon, bareback fucking. I had an immense and overwhelming fear of going for a test, because I didn't think I would be able to cope with a HIV positive result. I was so convinced that I most likely had HIV and I didn't want to know. I was scared. I was terrified. So I decided to just not know my status and I continued to fuck raw with lots of random strangers I met through Grindr, at the cruising grounds, the saunas, sex clubs, etc. When I did one day in 2018 finally decide to go and get tested, the result for HIV came back negative. I was blown away. I just simply couldn't believe it. Just how was it possible that I had fucked so many people raw, and managed to avoid HIV ? Just how was that possible? I thought it must have been a mistake. Maybe the result was a false negative or maybe someone in the lab got my results mixed up with someone else's .... I had to be HIV positive, surely? There was no way I could be negative - I'd fucked so many people, and I am uncut which would increase my risk significantly. It took me a while to accept that the result was correct. So even though I had barebacked for five years with hundreds of random anon guys, and despite being uncut, I had managed to swerve out the way of HIV somehow. Not only that, but I didn't have any other STI. Everything came back clear. After this test, I decided to get tested regularly and in 2019 I went onto daily PrEP through the PrEP Impact Trial that had been rolled out in the UK. I would test every 3 months. I did end up getting positive test results for gonorrhea (on several occasions!), chlamydia (also on more than one occasion) and also Syphilis. To this day I have managed to avoid HIV thanks to PrEP, but I will never understand how I managed to avoid it during those five years of barebacking so many people between 2013 and 2018. Does anyone here know enough about HIV and HIV transmission to be able to explain to me how I managed to avoid infection during that time, despite engaging (on hundreds of occasions) in very high-risk behaviour? I am genuinely so curious as to how I avoided HIV during that time. I should add that during those five years when I barebacked and didn't get tested, PrEP was not yet available (at least not widely) in the UK as it is now. So hardly anybody would have been on PrEP then, which makes it even more surprising that when I got tested at the end of the five years my result for HIV and all STIs was negative.

PART 3 Marwa went further up onto the bed and lied down on her back, with her legs spread wide open, as though she was waiting to be fucked missionary style. She was rubbing her gorgeous clit, and Tom could hear the wet, sloppy sound from her pussy as she rubbed the clit - he figured she must have been very aroused and this in turn aroused Tom. Just looking at Marwa with her massive melon-sized tits and beautiful pussy all exposed, his cock was leaking so much pre-cum. Charaf too was weeping pre-cum from his thick 10-inch monster - which was standing up so hard, pointing straight up to the ceiling and ticking back and forth (throbbing). Tom and Charaf got on the bed with Marwa and Tom started to eat Marwa's hot cunt while Charaf put his impressive cock into Marwa's mouth. While Tom was eating Marwa's pussy, and sucking on her clit, he would occasionally look up at Marwa's pretty little face and he was very surprised at just how easily she was able to gobble and swallow Charaf's huge fat cock. "Fuck, your pussy tastes exactly like a juicy peach" Tom told Marwa. "You like my Moroccan pussy, English boy, huh?" Marwa asked him, as she took Charaf's cock out of her mouth and started licking his thick shaft up and down. "Yes. Oh, yes. I really do Marwa. I really, really do. This is such a good pussy." She threw her head back and moaned in ecstasy. "Ooooh, it feels so good. You really know how to eat pussy", she moaned. Tom was so excited, like never before in any of his sexual experiences and conquests. He got back up onto his knees and said, "I wanna fuck you now, babe. I can't stand it any longer. I need my cock in your pussy." Without saying a word she got on all fours and turned around into the doggy position. "Guys, it's good you don't have condoms. Because I don't want them tonight. I hate that shit." That was exactly what Tom wanted to hear. And what a treat. How many women would willingly want two guys to fuck her raw? What a good little slut, Tom thought. Tom slowly inserted his cock into Marwa's pussy and the first thing he noticed was how hot it felt in temperature. It was also very, very soft and extremely wet. This was, in actual fact, the BEST pussy he had ever had the pleasure of being inside. "Oh, Marwa! Your pussy is so hot! I mean it actually feels so hot in there! So hot and wet! Oh, baby, your pussy is amazing, I fucking love this Arabian pussy!" He started giving her really deep strokes and thrusts. He would go slow, then he would speed up, then slow down again. Then speed up again. "She likes me bro," Tom said to Charaf, who was in front of Marwa still getting his massive tool sucked and his fat, low-hanging balls licked and sucked, too. "Yes, brudda. She like very much you. Look how much she like have me and you at the same time. And you like her clitoris? I told you she have nice one." Tom smiled and chuckled with excitement as he continued plowing Marwa's pussy: "Yeah Charaf bro. She likes having two cocks, don't you?" Marwa just moaned with sensory overload. The feeling of Tom's big cock in her pussy from behind and the taste of Charaf's big, beautiful cock inside her mouth was just so wonderful. She couldn't have imagined ever experiencing such pleasure before. Charaf looked at Tom intently, and said: "Brudda, you know what I want?" "What's that Charaf bro?" "I want her ass." Tom grinned. "You don't want her pink first bro?" "Her pink?" "Hahahaha. Yeah, her pussy bro!" "Oh no. I already try her pussy before, brudda. Remember I fuck Marwa before. I already had her pussy. Now I want to fuck her in the anus." The Moroccan and the Englishman swapped places, and Tom enjoyed Marwa's wonderful, wet mouth around his cock while Charaf started to anally penetrate Marwa from behind, still in the doggy position. Tom loved the feeling of Marwa's lips over his cock. She was doing a cycle where she would deepthroat him and suck him, then take his cock out her mouth and lick his shaft running her tongue up and down it, suck on his balls and then take his cock back in her mouth. Tom loved it. He thought to himself, so many girls give such boring head, but this is fantastic. Charaf pulled some KY jelly lube out from underneath the bed and applied loads of it to both his big sausage and to Marwa's tight little asshole. He started to very slowly push himself inside. He instantly noticed how tighter the anus was in comparison to the pussy.... so much tighter. And even how much better it felt. "Oooooh, fuck yeah man" Charaf moaned as he pushed himself further and further inside until he was all the way in. Marwa moaned with a mixture of pain, discomfort and pleasure. "Charaf! Stop. Hold still for a moment. It's hurting." Charaf stopped. Marwa continued orally pleasuring Tom. "Okay," she said after about 10 seconds, "now you can move but please, very slowly." Charaf was literally shaking and trembling with sexual excitement and energy. His dopamine levels were going through the roof. This was such a [banned word]. Here he was, a Muslim guy who was brought up with very conservative Islamic morals, attending the local mosque every week for prayers and Koranic instruction, with his dick up a non-married woman's rectum. The whole [banned word] and immoral aspect of the situation excited him almost as much as the physical pleasure he was feeling from Marwa's tight little shithole. He started picking up the pace. Damn did her ass feel sooooooo good. He began thrusting hard. Marwa moaned. She SCREAMED. "You like that baby, huh? You fucking like my big cock in your ass!? You love my big cock in the ass, huh!?" Charaf roared, and then gritted his teeth whilst staring intently at the back of Marwa's head with a sexually aggressive expression as she licked Tom's ball sack. "She's loving you in her little butthole, bro." Tom said. Charaf could feel his orgasm coming on already. But it was too soon. He stopped thrusting into Marwa's shitbox just in time. All three of them - Tom, Marwa and Charaf laughed out loud together. "Hahaha," Marwa chuckled. "You were close there, Charaf baby." "Yes, your asshole feel so good." Marwa suddenly grinned and bolted upright, in a lightbulb moment. An incredible, horny, slutty idea had occurred to her. "Guys....Tom, Charaf.... do you want to fuck me in both my holes at the same time?" Tom's facial expression was a picture. His mouth opened wide and his eyes lit up. "You mean, double penetration? One in the pink, one in the stink?" "Yes, exactly." She said. Tom looked at Charaf, his heart racing at the thought of a DP: "Charaf, bro. What do you think?" "Yes, brudda. This is good idea. This is fucking good idea man. I wanna do it so much." Tom's heart was pounding with excitement and his cock was dripping with so much pre-cum. "Charaf, do you wanna take her ass while I take her pussy?" The Moroccan nodded and grinned: "Brudda, of course." Tom laid down on his back while Marwa mounted him, and slipped his cock with such ease into her piping hot, now dripping wet, pussy. She rode him for about half a minute before she was ready to have Charaf's massive junk back in her shitter. Charaf, from behind, started pushing very slowly into Marwa's asshole. Tom's cock in her pussy acted as an 'anchor', so-to-speak, so that Marwa didn't move or lose balance as Charaf forced his way into her incredibly, super tight butthole. As Charaf forced his way into her ass , Tom noticed how tight Marwa's pussy became. And he could feel Charaf's massive cock against his. This was very interesting. Tom, being totally straight - with not a single gay bone in his body and with no bisexual tendencies at all whatsoever - was surprised by just how pleasurable this feeling was and how much he was enjoying it. This feeling is fucking amazing, he thought. He loved it. Tom suddenly realised that there is just a very thin wall that separated Marwa's pussy from her anus, and he was able to feel all of Charaf's 10-inch monster right through that thin wall. As Charaf started pumping and sliding back and forth in Marwa's tight butthole, Tom could feel every single stroke that Charaf's cock made: Man, that wall is so thin, Tom thought to himself. And that wall is so thin, I can feel Charaf's cock right through it. It was as though he and Charaf were rubbing their cocks together through Marwa. That's basically what was happening. And it felt so good. Again, as a straight man, Tom was so surprised at the fact that he was enjoying this. Tom started pumping Marwa's pussy at the same time as Charaf was pumping her asshole, and then they started to both work up a good rhythm...... The feeling was just out of this world. It was the most intense and insane pleasure that Tom had actually ever felt in any sexual situation. Feeling Charaf's cock constantly moving and rubbing against his own cock through that wafer-thin wall was just too much. He was certain that Charaf must be able to feel his cock too, and must be enjoying the rubbing sensation as much as Tom was enjoying it, but Tom didn't know if he should openly acknowledge it. Would doing so make him sound gay or bisexual or something? As they both continued to thrust her, Tom couldn't handle it anymore, and he smiled with such joy and pleasure while looking at Marwa's face - her eyes closed and moaning in pure ecstasy - and said: "Charaf bro, I can feel you. It's so awesome, bro." The biggest grin you could possibly imagine struck Charaf's face. He pulled Marwa's beautiful, long black flowing hair, and said: "Yeeeaaaah brudda, I feel you too. It is so fucking good man". Tom smiled and put leaned his head forward and started sucking on Marwa's big melons which had been bouncing in his face just demanding attention. God, he thought, those nipples taste so good. But it was hard for Tom to concentrate his mind on anything else other than the feeling of Charaf's really massive cock moving against his through Marwa's vaginal-butthole wall. The feeling was making him want to cum. As they fucked her in motion, with a good rhythm going on.... Charaf's cock continued to glide over Tom's cock and Tom could feel the orgasm coming already. They'd only been doing the DP for about a minute or two at the most. He grabbed Marwa's head, pull it towards his and said "I'm gonna cum, baby. I'm gonna cum so much right up your pussy!" and he kissed her so passionately.

I'll get it typed up by the weekend 👍 It's gonna be wild 😈

You'll have to wait and see guys.....