FFistFetish
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I was nervous becauae he told me he is detectable and we had a chat that was tapping into parts of my psyche which i had not since completing derpession counceling sessions. I did not meet him. But I had raw sex with other guys now - one claiming to be undetectable and this was a very good and relieving experience. I do trust PrEP medication. Its just that my nerves went wild. I started this thread to talk to you guys and come to terms with my actual feelings based on it. So thanks for your suggestion, but I will continue with bareback sex and eventually fight that last bit of anxiety off.
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Yes, this is my plan. Take more loads and eventually don't care about who/how/when/where.
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That is awesome. I will just need a bit mor time to develop the 100% trust. But the great experiences last week helped allot already to know it is how I want sex to be in my live - don't care, just take every drop of sperm thats offered.
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Yes, I am feeling proud at the moment because of all that happened this weekend after my nervous break down last week. And I feel sure that I really want to live this lifestyle which will eventually lead me to sorting allot of things in my live also with the gained self confidence.
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Hey guys, thanks a ton for all your messages and the encouragement and perspectives to review. In the meantime, I have met with two guys, one neg and one undetectable and had a fabulous time. The sex with the undetectable guy was very intimate and it kind of calms me down that when the time has come, I can let my mind wander to enjoying a very intimate moment rather than listening to my self doubts. Great advice thanks and will take this to my heart. Just don't assume that actual age also means maturity in all facets of a human being. Yes, I am living my kinky side since 12 years or so. Still barebacking and admitting to want to receive POZ loads is some new aspect that I am seeking out in my live now. So that's why I asked and thanks to your and the others comments, I can grow into accepting what I really want inside of me after a live of being told that these desires are wrong.
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I cannot know his actual virus level since he did not react to this question. He only told me he ist on a break between switching meds due to severe side effects. So it could be in any range now. We came to this topic after he disclosed that he is detectable atm - or maybe because of it. You are right, maybe he is toying with my fantasy, or maybe it is kind of a revenge because I had already asked for cancelling a date when not on prep. the only thing i know is, that he is and was acting like he understands my thoughts and hesitation then and now about cancelling.
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Thanks so much for the assurance and comfort. I think your boys are lucky to have such a great relationship to you. My nerves are still down. I think I will wait with the date for now until i have solved these feelings inside of me.
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Yes you are right and I should take the chance now with a guy that i seem to connect with also on other levels than just being a next shag...
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Yes you are right and my head is aware of the risk... it just fucks so hard with what i have jekred off to in the last years vs. what i allowed me to actually do...
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Hey guys, 33 yrs chubby bottom guy on PrEP here. I am on this site for some years now reading and following all the talk on prep, pozzing etc. and thought I would be comfortable with finally barebacking fearlessly since I'm on PrEP now... Now I am visiting my hometown and am writing with a guy that the last time we talked was undetectable. So I contacted him wanting to hook up, to which he happily aggreed... after some talking and horny chats he told me that he is at the moment detectable and would love to share his load with me. Now I am both hard, conflicted and scared... I'm on PrEP but this knowingly taking a poz load totally fucks with my mind? Do I really want this? Do I want it if he has a resistant strain? Did I contact him because I knew he had it even if undetectable? Will my safe-sex-only BF that finally agreed to let me BB on PrEP leave ne if he gets to know this? I just don't if I should or want to go through with it. How did you experience taking you first knowingly detectable load? Any advice on making my decision? PS: we are texting now... he made me say that I want it from him 🙈
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Wao, this is just fantastic filthy writing! Love it and hope the campaing progresses to Astor becoming the Fallen Paladin of Dirty Seed he is meant to be 😈💦😈
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My poppers craving led me to my best holiday ever
FFistFetish replied to ComputerScientist's topic in Chem Sex FICTION
Totally hard reading this. Love the slutty popper slut! -
Conversion Therapy Institute (CTI)
FFistFetish replied to pozpuppy's topic in Bug Chasing & Gift Giving FICTION
Oink! Hot story and nice take on using a Poz Popper Training to turn him to cumslut. -
Cumtastic start with chapter one. Though I am kind of confused with chapter two. Why had part two to evolve so quickly into poz craving, drugs and incest all at once. It kind of spoils the corruption of the naive virgin that you spend so much good work on building in chapter one and start of chapter two. Dont get me wrong, its still a good story to shoot a load to and I enjoyed it so far!
