unfittinglizard

Sorry for the very long post but you'll see why if you read the whole thing. I am planning on creating a very unique video/documentary about breeding/pozzing with myself as the subject. Here is the back story I've been bi for about 10 years. Always terrified every time i'm with a man that i'm going to catch something. I would go through phases of getting fucked then once I was happy , not have any more sex for months ( even years ) I have never barebacked. I have never let a man cum in me ( even into a condom just in case). I had been to a few saunas, but never really played as was terrified from all the stories I would hear. I did enjoy watching though, especially guys similar to me taking loads of cum in the sling About 3 years ago my female mistress started using toys on me ( unknowing I had taking cock before) and encouraged me to stretch and play. She would buy me increasingly bigger toys , lube and lots of poppers. I went from barely taking a cock to taking a fist with ease. As I played and watched porn my tastes turned to fisting, prolaspes and general anal wreckage. I also got more and more turned on by bare backing porn and eventually breeding. As I would ride my toys and get high on poppers I would imagine taking raw cock in a group and all the guys were all egging me on to take the big cock and the load. I soon got a squirting dildo, though not large, I would heat up lots of J Lube and pump it into me , I loved the mock feeling of seed. I also got into watching cum eating , bukakke and glory holes. I would hook up the cock to spray me with load after load. And I loved it. After not being with any men for some years I got back into doing just oral only , and after enough practice ( and poppers) started swallowing cum, where as before I would just wipe it off my face. This is where my whole cum/seed fetish brewed. Even on my own stag weekend in Cardiff I planned to man a glory hole for an hour or two at a sauna, but I couldn't slip away from my stag party, Once I was married I vowed to put my toys away and not touch poppers or another man. I honestly don't know how I got into the whole POZ fetish but there was one event which I think inadvertently put me on course for what I am planning October 2016. My brothers stag do in Bristol , UK. As a gym goer Had been taking some testosterone boosters which were causing my libido to sky rocket. All I could think about was having a weekend away from the wife where I could do what I want, but not with a women, but by sneaking off to a sauna and swallowing dozens of loads. I knew I had promised to myself not to toy or play anymore but I wanted it so bad, Hetero porn /sex just wasn't working anymore.I even spent some time looking online and found a sauna within walking distance of my hotel. In my head i didn't think I would to do it and that it was just the "libido talking". But as we went between clubs I managed to slip away. It was like auto pilot, nothing in my head was telling me to stop I WANTED THIS, I NEEDED THIS . I went to the sauna and found my way to a glory hole. I must have been there a good half hour with not so much as a single cock to feast on. I went to the movie room and played a little. I went to some other glory holes where I had much better luck and as I was leaving bumped into a hung guy. Couldnt even remember his face but his cock was amazing. It wasn't long till I was bent over taking it. I couldn't stop smiling at what I was doing again. It had been years but I took the whole thing with ease due to my toy play. Even so I was making sure he kept his condom on. Afterwards I went into the sling room to chill out as I had hit the poppers pretty hard. I laid down on one of the sofa beds and used the towel as a blanket. I must have dropped off because I awoke to a guy fucking me , RAW !!! I totally freaked out, especially as he looked physically wasted away . Even though I was drunk and high on poppers I knew Icouldn't be there.I left. Horny that I had been smashed by a massive dick but terrified of this stealthy rapist. He hadn't cum in me, but I knew that wasn't necessary to knock me up. The next day I was at hospital being put onto PEP and having all the tests done. To say the next few weeks were the most terrifying ever, was an understatement. I spent ages reading about it, I would weight myself, do my temperature, check all my lymp glands for a sign of infection . I got sick and thought that this must be the fuck flu. In my head I was POZ but the tests would be another 4 weeks before I would know. I came to accept it as best as I could. Whilst reading online about HIV, I came across fetish site. I read about neg guys getting knocked up on purpose and the freedom that came with it. I watched conversion videos and read lots of blogs on folks stealthing missions. Soon worry turned into pleasure. It dawned on me that this could be the gift to release me from being safe and sensible I dont know why but knowing that I could just go to any sauna and offer my hole and take any load I wish just turned me on so bad. That I could meet all the hung tops that I had chatted to but chickened out of meeting.All the years I had played with men and I just wanted to take it RAW and feel their sperm impregnante my hole. I would finally be free to do it. In the weeks leading to my test I dusted off the old toys and got back into opening my hole. It was different , I had a purpose now. I was preparing to take loads. My verbal talk changed when I was playing . I would watch myself in the mirror and beg to be charged up as I rode my oversized toys. I would shout out things like "poz my cunt", "give me ur death seed" , "breed me". My thoughts turned to sleazy meets with wasted aids types , hunting for men with bio-hazard tattoos and chemsex. I had even looked into a flat , knowing I would have to leave the wife once it was confirmed. I set aside money for a sling and extreme toys, designed the layout and which door could be cut for an anon breeding hole. The night before "POZ" day I had removed all my hair and pre-douched. Packed my lube, blindfold and extreme strength poppers. I planned to go straight from the clinic to the Greenhouse Sauna in Darlaston and just spend the weekend being a total poz pig whore. Well, come test day , i was sat waiting for the inevitable but I was shocked when it came back NEGATIVE. I even got them to do it twice. My sickness was down to a winter virus and also stress ( and extreme popper usage it would seem} All that preparation , both mental and physical was for nothing. The bag in my car with the douche, poppers and a blindfold were to go unused. I sat in the car for ages. Half wanting to carry out my plan of going to the sauna , but then an idea came to me, This plan I want to document my journey to being poz. I am a photographer and seemed the ultimate pet project. I will be poz but on my terms and in a way I can watch for years to come. It will involve me being interviewed about what bought me here , why I want it and what I plan on doing once I have it. It will then document the conversion and the aftermath. I want this to the the standard to which all pozzing videos will be compared too. Something for thousands of curious bottoms to watch and start their own journeys for decades to come. What do I need? At least 10 poz tops, Decently hung Clean shaven ( just looks better on video) And toxic !! if your undetectable, sorry but I need toxic loads for this. I have a videographer who will film it all. He knows what I want and how to get it. You will all be required to take a finger prick test to prove your status.This will be filmed and will make a cool video shot. All the poz tests will be lined up, next to my negative test ( will be a really cool shot ) All the tops will be provided with balaclava style face mask so all the pozzing is anonymous I will be filmed getting my ass ready and my pre conversion thoughts in separate room. I have never done chem sex but to add to the film I want to get slammed too. So I will need someone who can slam me and get me really high. I have watched vids of folk slamming and watching them beg for "death seed" is so hot. I am a whore on poppers, fuck knows how sluttish ill be on meth. Ill then be led to the conversion room by my mistress who also wants this to happen to me . Not sure if ill be in swing or bent over. To be decided by my videographer ( there will be multiple cameras filming) To make it fair all tops will pick a number from a hat, who ever gets no 1 has the honor of impregnating me first then no 2 etc etc There will be shots of the tops coming in to inspect the "meat" , getting hard and lubing my hole. Also some "anonymous" interviews with poz tops as to why they like doing what they do etc Then the conversion will begin. I want it verbal and loud. I hope ill be so high on meth that Ill just be a dumb cock sleeve for the night I will also have fisting lube, plugs and tooth brushes to ensure impregnation. I will keep getting slammed until I have taken every single load that can be given Following that night I will be interviewed about my thoughts etc. Hopefully a few weeks later Ill get sick and again Ill do a video on that and how I feel Then the crescendo , I will film myself getting tested again and getting a poz result. I will then document my feelings and my plans to spread the seed and take as much sperm as I can The video will end with me stealthing a young twink and passing on my DNA onto the next generation. I am looking for poz unmediated men who wont let me down. I need to ensure conversion on this evening. I want some visibly AIDS wasted types to join in, who knows they may get first dibs on my NEG hole. I want it nasty, drug fuelled and something that will become legend. I dont do piss or scat but everything else is fine. No blood pozzing until ive had at least a dozen loads in me first ( I want pozzing by seed not blood) I am planning it being in London just due to the sheer number of poz cock down there and places I have scouted for the shoot ( have to look at each location from a video point of view) Only apply if your serious. I am expecting a June shoot date for reasons I wont go into here. Not to be a douche but I am only interested in decent cock. I toy alot and frankly I want to feel the cock in me. Would be hot to get some international seed in me too. Ideas are welcome but I hope I will start a trend and in turn I can myself document others taking the journey

Bump6

Whats app me. 07747148148 Wanna talk to some REAL poz daddies for future conversion. Dont want an anon conversion. Want to arrange a proper conversion . Ideally want multiple daddies to breed me (never had anyone cum in be before, EVER) want it filmed and want some Tina in me too (never done either) So please message and lets talk. Would love some pics of ur poz cocks too. I need hung daddies. I toy alot and can handle alot.

I do think he will love to do it if i tell him. From the nasty shit be told me this isnt the sickest dtuff hes done

Ok so this is a little fucked up and it started off as a tiny popper wank fantasy but has grown and grown until its close to reality. I'm 30 years old, and have been with men over last 10 years - on and off. I love fucking and enjoy sucking and swallowing. I have never done bareback or had a load in my ass, but love how dirty the whole pozzing and chemsez scene is, and often read pozzing stories and watched pozzing videos while using poppers. Now, I should explain I'm bi, and recently married to a lovely women. My marriage, however, opened a HUGE can of worms when, filling out the marriage application and going through the supporting documents, such as my birth birth certificate, I learned the man I've known my whole life as my father actually isn't. Well, when I got over the initial shock, I spoke with my mom to find-out to get the background. She explained that my biological father had been an abusive man, and that she left him when I was very young. Armed with the information my mom provided I did my own digging and uncovered information that my mother and father divorced because my biological father was (like me), bisexual and had been caught several times having sex with younger men whilst his wife, (my mother) was at work. Now, I've long had a thing for older, daddy types, particularly when thinking about fucking, and this was likely the basis for the first seed which sprouted in my brain, which was that I met-up with my biological father, and he fucked me, without (at least initially) knowing I was his son, but not to worry, even when he did learn, he didn't pause, but rather fucked me regardless. Eventually the fantasy evolved into an arrangement where he wouldn't himself fuck me, but instead got his gay friends around to take turns abusing my ass. The fantasy was a hugely exciting, dirty turn-on, and I enjoyed many a wank session (enhanced with poppers), which evolved directly from the fantasy. Then one night, when definitely drunk, I messaged him on Facebook under a false name and started a conversation with him. It didn't take long for the chat to turn dirty, and he even sent me a few cock pics. He has an amazing thick cock, not massively long but really thick, and as he is now 59, I was utterly fuckin' wild at the prospect of playing with him. But that was when the bombshell landed: he informed me he was poz, and more to the point he has a group of seven poz tops who liked to breed at pozzing parties for cum tributes. The filth he spewed out was such a turn on. I was raw from wanking over it his description. We talked about the prospects of me making the trip down to his place for a weekend, and, after I had gotten enough meth into my system, my spending two full days betting bred. What the fuck do I do?