M4mnow2
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Not bring politics into the answer …. Your not allowed!
M4mnow2 posted a topic in General Discussion
Reading all the posts, guys wanting, wishing, preying, trying to convert, converting. Has anyone actually thought this out? Fantasy is one thing, reality is real. Has anyone asked themselves what happens if the rules change? Meds are stopped, priced incredibly high etc, will seeking treatment be allowed? provided or banned? Then what? This is NOT a political discussion, no figure pointing allowed. I’m asking YOU the question, it’s your thoughts and feelings, nobody else’s. I guess moving to a country where theses services are and do not look like to be stopped. Have you considered moving? Filled out that application? Planned your exit? Husbands who are not poz, will they stick around to look after you? Purchased a home, car etc together? Can your other half take on the financial responsibility and do they want to? Clearly we are being driven back into the closet, alas, that won’t stop what each state might do. I’m on the outside looking in, I did live in the states and moved when my husband and I divorced. Don’t get me wrong, I love America, in fact my daughter, just returned there to work, yes, I’m concerned and will pull her out if I see things not looking balanced. -
Your 27, why would you want to convert? Just a pill a day, you say ... for the rest of your life! This site talks about poz being a great thing, visit some other sites and read what they have to say. I too am on Prep, will stay on it until I want to come off, not because I want to convert either. There is a huge stigma behind being poz and I don’t mean to be disrespectful. It’s not as accepted as we are to believe. Read about all the stealth breedings on here, you really want to trust them? Think of your future, job prospects etc. keep taking Prep, be the pig you want to be, none of us know what the future holds!
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Yes, they explained it to me, only challenge is planning it out, knowing when you are going to be active etc.
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I’ve just gone through the same thing. I had a number of escalations in my kidney, blood etc. was suggested I stop PrEP and go “on demand”, I wasnt comfortable doing that. I increased my fluid consumption and at my recent check up, last week, everything had returned to normal! Don’t worry about it, do a little resource and increase fluids!
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Totally! It’s getting depressing, all these tops around and they are playing “hard to get bitches”. Grindr, squirt, Bbrt, tried them all and nothing. Had a guy lined up for Friday, he never responded ... nothing. Cum Union wasn’t great either, got 1 load and that’s about it. If you or someone can tell me what’s happening, I’d appreciate it!
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Are the baths any place for a neg guy?
M4mnow2 replied to smoothbottom's topic in HIV Risk & Risk Reduction
I recently visited my first bath house, scared to death walking in, didn’t know what to expect. Loved it! Will go back, just need to find the time. In truth thou, I was disappointed, I managed to get one load in 5 hours! I went because I’ve always wanted to go, one guy fucked my wearing a condom, the rest was all raw. I went on PrEP because I don’t want to convert but I want to take raw dick! Reading other comments, I don’t know who was poz and who wasn’t, I didn’t ask! If you want raw dick and don’t want to convert then get protection, it was a simple choice for me. Tested a week later, test all came back neg. -
I started PrEP and haven’t looked back. There was always the question, guilt etc, now I have none of that. As for STDs, as everyone mentions, curable or you can manage them, I’d rather catch that then becoming poz, not saying it might never happen, if it does I will personally know that I did everything I could to protect myself. as for Steamworks, I adventured to Seattle’s one, I had the desire to leave with cum dripping out my ass. Unfortunately that didn’t happen. I did get fucked by 6 different guys, only one dumped his load in me. The rest pounded my hole and moved on, not saying I didn’t enjoy every minute, I did. Even had one guy start taking he was going to dump his load in me, didn’t know his stats, did I want it? Loved telling him to give it to me! Had my 3 month check Shortly after my big adventure, all clean and neg. I can share that once on PrEP it is freedom, I never ask anymore, not that I have a great selection where I live, but knowing that I can have a load in my ass by someone I don’t know, magic!
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I’m heading to Seattle in a few weeks, I want to get fucked and used as much as I can. This is a fantasy of mine and I’m going to fulfill it! Can you guys please tell the best way to live out the fantasy, I want my cunt used and dripping when I’m done! I understand leaving the door open and remaining on my stomach is an indication, alas, anyone who can tell me how and what I should do would be greatly appreciated. Im also planning on hitting the bookstores, want to get fucked there too. I’ve visit a few over the years, but have always been offered BJs. Backing my ass up to a hole .... does it work, will I get fucked, or will I get nothing? Again, any help and guidance would be appreciated?
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How much of a risk is it to bottom 4 a undetectable top
M4mnow2 replied to billy's topic in HIV/AIDS & Sexual Health Issues
I’m not in disagreement to the “Poz and undetectable”. Where I’m challenged is the one statement you make about getting onto PrEP ... “can’t afford it”, can you afford meds should you become poz? Perhaps they are free and your covered, currently, who knows when those will come with a price tag. My huge challenge is the whole store “on meds and undetectable”, respectfully there are guys out there who are exactly that, my challenge is the ones who lie. Happened twice to me, stealth fucked! I love raw sex, breeding etc, it’s the one who lie, just to convert us. Check on on this site, there’s a whole section of guys who lie just to infect others, who want another “notch” in their belt and who don’t give a crap about others views and concerns. Respectfully, I’m on PrEP, there may come a day where I turn up poz, my last 2 fucks, I didn’t ask their status and they didn’t offer. At least I know that I did what I could to look after myself. -
50 is a great age, 60 good too, perhaps 75 is an age you are enjoying life. You ever stop and look at your parents? I’ve lost one already, the remaining has health challenges. They raised me to think long term, they lead healthy lives. Fact remains that as we age we also start to develop health challenges. I too was once a super fit freak, running, gym etc. developed challenges with my knees, running had to go etc. I’m still fortunate, my health is still relatively good. I’m also watching around me and seeing people age, some say they don’t understand why they don’t have their health, they looked after themselves. guess what I’m trying to say is that everything changes, you’ve spent your life looking after yourself, why toss it away? Not going on meds? What happens if your health takes a downwards spirals? Saved enough money? What happens if we find ourselves with no medical coverage for meds? There’s recently talk about a vaccine, years out perhaps, that to me would be ideal. You could have your cake and eat it too. look after yourself, don’t toss it all away.
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I’m reading about all these guys converting and a question came to mind ... but first ... I’ve read about guys who say they have to convert, need to be poz ... I’ve read about the guys who are poz who wish that they could go back and change things, I’ve read the comments from the poz guys who discuss, cost, challenges traveling, insurance challenges etc ... I’ve read the comments from the poz guys who want us neg bottoms to convert, yes, I’m neg and on PrEP. I recently read the thread from the poz guys complaining that the guys on PrEP should stop and accept their “true-selves”. accepting that we all have the right to do our own thing, my question is this ... when the chasers convert ... because they want or need to ... why do you turn around and go on meds? What’s the point? You wanted to convert, why not truly experience being poz and all that it brings with it? Our world is so messed up right now, with everything ever changing, government changing/eliminating medical coverage, people restricted travel etc. why wouould any one of us potential take chances that could be fatal in the future.
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Wow, some great view points and heated conversations! For those of us who have elected, or have it available to us to take, do so because we want to continue barebacking at a lower risk. I started 5 weeks ago, after my 7 days I wanted to get fucked ... 5 weeks later I’m still searching for a top!. in the end I went to a free health clinic, my doctor was totally unaware and I decided I needed to manage my own health. It took guts to walk to the clinic and ask, but easier than having a conversation with my doctor that I was hiv positive. I am confused regarding protection thou, at the clinic they tell me it’s around 85%, everything else I read says it’s higher, alas, should I convert, at least I know that I did what I could to protect myself. For those guys who say they can’t get it in their country, do as others have commented, check around, you can get it, and it’s cheap, you just have to spend some time searching. All weekend I’ve been reading about guys wanting to convert and tops converting unaware guys. It has, admittingly, pissed me off, especially the poz guys not being honest, that said, perhaps I should be thanking you, for you are one of the reasons I’m on PrEP. For the guys who want to convert ... wow. There’s conversation in this thread about longevity of being on meds, damage etc. at least for those of us on PrEP we can decide when we want to stop and I’m not implying to convert! To the poz guys who take meds ... a huge THANK YOU, you are looking out for yourself and others. I admittingly have stayed away from guys like you, due to fear, yes I read and yes my understanding is greater and today wouldn’t question having one of you top me. Think my opinion of tops on meds has elevated, I now think of you guys as in control, huge turn on for me!
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I was planning my weekend getaway to the states, then discovered CL and the recent ruling. Not sure it would work, tell if I’m crazy or not, but .... If you live in the states close to the boarder, post in the town closest to you in Canada. I’m in Victoria, I’m planning on posting in Victoria for Bellingham, Seattle etc, not sure where I’ll end up staying yet. Mapquest it, whatever you need to do to find the closest town. Don’t forget to write down the “postal code” (zip code), you’ll need that to complete your posting! I imagine that it will take awhile to catch on, but surely you guys sitting in the states must check out CL Canada, I know I did, bored, I’d scroll the men closest to me. Don’t forget to write down the zip code aka.
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I’ve used the shower method and it’s great ... when you have “plans”, not so much when you didn’t expect it.. I’ve also used those pills for diarrhea, they work great. Yes, been told not to use them, but sometimes a boy has to do, what a boy has to do! My ex fucked me morning and night for over 2 years, he was cool with “whatever” I wasn’t you. I turned to the natural health food store. Now I take something to keep me shit nice, tight and clean when it passes. I’ve also made adjustments to what I eat, in my case, some foods encourage the “flow”, ie. Chocolate, booze etc. a combo of both natural and adjustments I don’t worry about anything anymore. One way I keep fresh and ready. now finding a top .... that’s a bigger challenge.
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A couple of questions come to mind .... 1. You stop PrEP, chase, you finally test poz. Then what? What will you want then? 2. With our changing views in government, who’s to say that suddenly our coverage changes and we find ourselves without, then what? Having to pay the whole monthly cost out of pocket. I, for one couldn’t afford to pay my script without assistance. As everyone says ... you have to make up your own mind and you do. Might want to think about the “what if’s” before hand thou. Who’s to say that you remain negative even on PrEP, I was told it could still happen.
