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HIV meds and erectile dysfunction
rPup replied to smallcocksissyboi's topic in What's It Like To Be Poz?
I know that your Norvir or Cobicistat boosting your Protease Inhibitor (or in your Genvoya) will also provide a major boost to Viagra too. -
In 2018 I tested positive on July 24 with a 4th generation antibody test. Confirmation test was Negative, and the second confirmation was also negative. Tested positive ultimately in September when they retested the sample done at the same time as the other two. (Was in a Research study) Ask your doctor for one of these. Indeed, they are also called HIV 1 RNA Test. These are accurate with less than a week of time after exposure.
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I’m generally in agreement with what you all are saying but I want to make a further point that this iteration of San Francisco will not last. I won’t deny that the “scene” is on life support, in need of serious care to be sustained at a level we expect, and enjoy - especially in the fetishes we enjoy. San Francisco was able to be sustained miraculously before and during the pandemic, until yes - Mpx struck. But it wasn’t just that, it also was a large number of minor things that f’ed up everything: 1. Opportunities. Since the cost of living in the Bay Area remained high throughout the pandemic compared with other North American cities - many people, especially queer people working in Hospitality, Retail, Tourism, and Travel had hours cut or made substantially less money; ultimately choosing to move away. 2. Events…. And places to have them. It got boring. Many LGBT+ venues closed down permanently, from Watergarden to The Stud, and the rest remained shut down for a lot longer than anywhere else in the Western world. 3. Retirement. Quite a few longtime promoters and venue operators threw in the towel. Time to retire. All who is left need to step up to put in the work, or if time is not a possibility- provide oversight, and financial assistance to make it happen. If anyone has any good ideas, I am happy to help do some of the work on this. It takes a village quite a long time before results happen; and San Franciscans generally accept nothing but the best from the get-go. This is a town where first impressions make or break you. 4. Tourism to events we have doesn’t happen when we have few events. We have Folsom / Dore, we’d be anemic without it. Did anyone go tho the Castro Street Fair? Did Frameline happen this year? How was this past weekend with Halloween events? I honestly don’t know. What’s the draw for tourism when it is impossible to get here and then have little to do once here? Gay Tourism is a huge part of our hedonistic lifestyle and culture. San Francisco was the best sex tourism pilgrimage this side of the Mississippi, now maybe more like this side of the Sacramento River Delta. What is unfortunate is that our Queer nonprofits and City tourism agencies are not doing enough to stop the decline of Queer tourism, or marketing our assets like before. If, in 2024, the BOS expect us to rubber stamp their reelection efforts they are going to be in for a rude awakening. 5. AFFORDABILITY 55K in San Francisco left during the pandemic, but really, how many were queer? How many of us are forced to live outside of San Francisco due to high housing costs? How many times can you remember that “BART Ride of Fame” on a Monday Afternoon, sweaty and gross because it was 97° during the walk from your weekend mess to South Hayward, Walnut Creek BART; or worse, the trip from East Palo Alto - on University nonetheless - to sneak on Caltrain but hide in the bathroom from the fare inspectors, cause you lost your wallet (stolen) and had no way of getting back to SF, or possibly Oakland, and Uber wasn’t invented yet. Maybe this shit was unique to me, but the 55K number was also *only* unique to San Francisco. Hundreds of thousands of people left the Bay Area. Its too unaffordable for LGBT+ that were already here, and Generation Z doesn’t seem too willing to give SF a shot, save for some who don’t mind a good bit of work. 6. Crime. I moved from the westside of SF to live alone downtown and I have to say, it’s essentially a bit overblown. Lower Nob Hill gives one all of the downtown experience. In this area some affectionately call the Tenderloin annex, crime is unfortunate but rare; mostly limited to theft of property, not violent acts. Still, it could be better and safer. I tend to avoid the walk alone at night when I’m needing to go south of O’farrell and much of the TL East of Larkin to about Jones and McAllister. San Francisco has always been a boom and bust town, but each time people step up and start over. This has to happen or else we will have our own queer SF doom loop.
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They must tread lightly and carefully with this kind of activity going forward. The constitution of California does protect the right to privacy, and this sort of activity is illegal under the CPRA if the user has opted out. If a California resident has opted out of having their data shared, this would be a blatant violation of the rights afforded to them by the California Privacy Rights Act, which is now fully in force. The Act, which was formerly known as California Proposition 24 (2020) specifies the types of information that we can block businesses from sharing, including everything from health, genetics, race, ethnicity, sexual orientation, sex life, union membership, religion, philosophical beliefs, and also precise geolocation data. This law expanded the previous law, and went into effect on January 1, 2023, applying to personal data collected on or after January 1, 2022. The intentions of the Act, according to Wikipedia (because I am lazy) are to provide California residents with the right to: Know who is collecting their and their children's personal information, how it is being used, and to whom it is disclosed. Control the use of their personal information, including limiting the use of their sensitive personal information. Have access to their personal information and the ability to correct, delete, and transfer their personal information. Exercise their privacy rights through easily accessible self-serve tools. Exercise their privacy rights without being penalized. Hold businesses accountable for failing to take reasonable information security precautions. Benefit from businesses' use of their personal information. Have their privacy interests protected even as employees and independent contractors. California residents, take advantage of your CPRA rights! I routinely request that companies that track me, data brokers such as LexisNexis, and advertisers delete all of my personal information.
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I had resistant shigella a few years back and it was the worst thing I’ve ever had to endure. 105° fever and no antibiotics were working. I almost died, and was rushed into the ER without wait. My immune system literally had no help. They tried several IV pouches of antibiotics and none of them worked. The antibiotic resistance testing in Petri dishes had little activity on the shigella strain. I was admitted for two days. The second time I had it, fighting it off was a little better. Miraculously I still had some T cells floating around with a memory of it.
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Those in Suicidal ideation
I have a 0% success rate in helping people get whole. I love you. I am rooting for you. I don’t think you understand how much it hurts me to say this…. but I can’t save you from yourself.
I care about everyone. It may seem hypocritical that an AIDS+ Barebacker would be an advocate for taking care of mental health. (Especially when mine is not exactly perfect and healthy.) Literally and figuratively - stay with me though.
I know the world is tough, and sometimes continuing on with life is hard to do. You are loved, and you have options that are available to you; some that may not be known right now.
I would love to see you get all the emotional support you need. You can find the contentment, happiness, and love that is missing in your life if you stay with us.
But please talk to a professional. Talk to the Trevor Project at 988, anywhere in the U.S. They are equipped to help you in ways that I am not able to.
A brief background. I come in contact with a good deal of HIV chasers who are interested in getting together. I don’t discriminate based on HIV/AIDS status so I defer to what you are comfortable with. I have determined that two types of chasers exist, and while the lines might blur on many aspects, one is certain: some are interested in connecting with others in a deeper way that is not possible with same sex biology. Others may see it as a means to an end.
If I am either seen as your means to an end of your life or as the answer to freeing yourself from your suicidal ideation in any way, I have to wholeheartedly and respectfully decline to be apart of that.
I have a severe case of PTSD trying to save a successful chaser from himself. I gave my heart and soul and everything else I had to try to keep him alive to no avail. I cannot explain how scary it can be every single day as the only one who has the power to talk an individual down from their ledge.
To those who care for someone who is in the same situation, words of advice: When it seems like their life is getting better, it potentially just might be an illusion.
The results of two years of unconditional love and care at the expense of my own health resulted in the most painful gut-wrenching phone call I’ve ever had to endure. I am still unable to move on from the loss of him.
I could be called a hypocrite based on my status as AIDS positive. You may say that I am not taking care of myself the way I should, if I am interested in prolonging my life. You would be correct. I failed at a number of different things centered in maintaining my health. Side effects that were unbearable, lack of mental health care by Kaiser Permanente, easily lost health care coverage and multiple levels of CA government bureaucracy to regain it, and I am finding myself in the last stages of AIDS infection. Sure, my reasons might be excuses, but a combination of depression and grief while managing a chronic condition which generally had no noticeable effects until things got really bad.
What is done is done. I would like to prolong my life, if possible, but I know that my days could be shorter than I would like. I may die within 2 years. I may have live with it regardless if I decide to re-consider HAART, and find out that it is not providing me with the results I need to get back to a healthy place.
While I have made mistakes myself, I am still grateful for whatever time I have left here on Earth. Knowing how much I never really had the desire or the reason to complete suicide, having failed at saving my own love from suicide, I don’t know what to say to help… but I am keenly aware how I am not professionally trained to know what is best for ensuring your longevity. I don’t want to be seen as a monster, but as a person who is on the spectrum and has the same love in his heart for you as always. I have to be mindful of how much emotional bandwidth I have left in my life to be sure that you will have the support you need from someone who can help you at full strength.
I hate to be so direct, but I am going to have to take care of myself and politely decline - but only until we get you back to loving yourself again.
There is help - call 988. Love yourself.
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From your post i feel you are a great person and if i met you id be able to be open and let my feelings out. Im glad you can be true to yourself and im hoping you can smile and be happy again. Im rarely mentally good due to being treated like trash by everyone and always used for everything. Ive always felt like no one wants to be with me due to my looks i never felt sexy. Life is hard but I want to make what i can of it and still be myself even if others dont like me
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Eros is closing up shop and moving out of the Castro. I’m foolishly optimistic. [think before following links] https://brokeassstuart.com/2021/11/15/after-30-years-sfs-only-gay-sex-club-is-moving-eros/
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Never can go wrong with a Nasty Pig baseball cap. Discrete but very obvious for the right person…
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SF is suffering. I wanted to mention the state of things as a whole in relation to the LGBTQ community; to give everyone an idea about what is causing SF’s woes. Its quiet here lately. Our COVID-19 response was aggressive and saved lives, but at the expense of everything that makes SF fun. Canceling or gutting Pride (two years running), Dore, Folsom, Keeping bars closed for an eternity, cancelling all large block parties and club events… If you can think of it, it’s been cancelled. Gentrification has been flipping the City into a very sterile version of itself. Many LGBT Businesses or venues that host LGBT events and parties are gone forever- The Stud, Mezzanine, Sound Factory, Lucky 13. We lost sex clubs 442 Natoma, Blow Buddies, and one of the very few Bay Area bathhouses - The Watergarten in San Jose. There’s Steamworks Berkeley, but lately leave disappointed every time I visit.* Feels like all thats left is Catalyst, Folsom Gulch Eros, and Buena Vista Park. We can still shop Mr. S. There’s a genuine effort to save some what’s left, preserve historical sites, improve existing ones, erect monuments. Other than the fact we might get a bathhouse in SF, everything is about preservation - as if there is no chance in hell we’re getting anything new. This is a hostile town for younger LGBTs as its increasingly out of reach for most who want to move here. Even having the title with the largest drop in the US from pre-covid rental prices, we’re still the most expensive major U.S. city to rent an apartment. It is as if SF doesn’t register on Generation Z’s radar. No influx of younger non tech LGBTQ to replinish retirees, especially in the creative arts, Government, NGOs, or for tourism and hospitality. Enrollment is down at our universities. Why does this matter? With a lack of diverse, fresh opinions and talents, SF loses its appeal. Its not Edwardian painted ladies’, the hills, the fog, that make SF special. It’s our people. People of all ages are leaving. Even tech workers who generally can afford it here are choosing a different path. If people are able to work remotely, theyre likely to be leaving or have left. Even so, rent prices are still too high and nothing has changed that. Where’s everyone going? A few of my friends and acquaintences are moving to Palm Springs, or an hour north into Sonoma County, while the majority are mostly high tailing it to Los Angeles. Other places I have heard Include Chicago, DC, Pittsburgh, Berlin. One area that bucks these trends; what SF has been long known for, for better, for worse - recreational things. There’s absolutely zero chance of the District Attorney prosecuting individuals caught with drugs. With low costs to obtain; this is key because one is holding quite a lot more here for the same amount of cash elsewhere; and obtained with relative ease. SF remains an economically affordable place for a “Methventure.” It’ll be interesting to see a few years removed from the pandemic what SF will be like. Will younger, kinkier, sleazier, LGBTQ flock once again to SF? Will SOMA get a bathhouse? Will the Eagle survive long enough for the leather monument out front to stay relevant? What about Powerhouse? Badlands is now Sadlands - Will Castro be on life support or thriving? Will we house the homeless? Right now, theres still fun to be had; but I get this eery feeling SF’s best days are behind us.
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or if the condom does break, what’s to say you don’t get accused of tampering? This will limit the effect. For one, Plaintiffs will need to secure a lawyer. Unless they come from money, it is limited to NGO Legal Defense Nonprofits or volunteer attorneys. “Sucking blood from a stone. ”The bigger issue is one has to have assets to take away. It would be a waste of time to sue someone flat broke. Sure there are wage garnishments and bank garnisments; but those can’t take all the defendants money. If one has nothing, he’s got nothing to lose.
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An unmedicated HIV+ ENTJ’s follow up note to today’s sex
rPup replied to rPup's topic in Bug Chasing & Gift Giving FICTION
Thanks guys. I was inspired yesterday to write this after I “played the tapes back from the beginning.” As I generally have “Positive”* on my profile, I always wonder if people look at that when they decide to spread open for my poz spunk. I considered the various outcomes if I relied on only web profile disclosure, if I bred this hot early 20something who only has only “Negative” on his BBRTS. This is a likely scenario. I probably will disclose again to him; as I have a medium viral load around 50,000cp/mL. I will usually also just flat out ask if they are bugchasing. I also like to practice writing. A piece like this I bet has been done, but its rare. The postscript was trying to imitate BBRTS Messaging; the way they thread messages is not conducive to storylines, itd have given the ending away. *(or Poz+Hepx whenever I catch a nice strain) -
What a great day. We didn’t discuss it beforehand, but I noticed your profile said “Negative” when I got your initial message. I assumed you also saw my Positive status when you viewed mine. This passed muster for HIV disclosure, at least I believed. Before I get into it, It’s comforting to know that we both understand how desirable HIV is to enlightened men. The fear I have is living in fear about the thing that actually (quite literally) forms a permanent bond between men; one of many connected bonds which form a chain of men engaging in natural uninhibited bareback breeding inbpursuit of ecstasy. We achieved this goal today. Literally our HIV represents both a tragic consequence of, and a living tribute to, the history of legalized pure unadulterated male hedonism. As I started to get close, I loved that no words were said. I think poz talk is odd; seems you feel the same. The nonverbal nature of pozzing just is not conducive to spoken word. We may be in the minority here. I flipped you back to missionary just in time for me to look into your eyes out of respect, as my poz cum flows into you. There was an intense rush of frightened euphoria through your body when I started to ejaculate in your HIV negative fuckhole. Your hole tightened; I came into you harder.. Pulse after strong pulse of cum, a magnanimous feeling of being in full ownership and in control of you overcame me, as I thought about being your Alpha Gifter. As I near climax I reflexively close my eyes tightly from the ecstatic pleasure shock in all extremities. We then locked eyes; this time with more intensity and clarity. I felt as if they were a portal allowing me to gaze deep into your soul. As I stared I was overwhelmed by, and rewarded with another simultaneous wave of complete nirvana; from an unexpected deep empathy for you eminatting from a dark and twisted place of love in my heart. I realized in this moment in time, I was you, and I am you. As the cum entering you broke your inhibitions, you had the same feeling. Like my hands did at your throat per your earlier request, It took your breath away. My strong empathetic emotions combined with my complete domination of you undeniably created the most intense feeling I have ever felt at once. These are the kinds of intensities Christians try to warn about in the book of Genesis. I may be agnostic but believe it - these are too powerful and too superhuman. Us humans are not supposed to feel like this. Then it occurred to me. I was God. Or maybe it was the Methamphetamine creating a “god complex.” Whatever It was, it always will be my apex of self actualization. As I pozzed you, it was evident you saw this feeling of self actualization overcome me. This may seem like a selfish observation to point out, so let me explain. These emotions during infection sex are the most beautiful emotions a HIV+ Giver is himself rewarded with. That was your gift to me, thank you. This is why we exchange a life of good health to be positive. It may be the drugs that make me feel this way, but it is definitley the sex that broke us. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Bottompup wrote: Ummm… I wasn’t bugchasing… oh dear. I mustv’e switched the profiles up when I made more than one plan for today, in the event one of you was a flake. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ sleazypoztop86 wrote: That is the most San Francisco explanation i’ve ever heard.
