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My totals so far this year… Asses Fucked: 3 Load Given: 3 Dicks Taken: 5 Loads Received: 2

I only had two loads for the whole of 2021 with covid and all that. But so far this year I've had 5 guy's loads and given to two. So steady progress for my new raw adventures. Once I get to visit a big city I'm gonna really bump up that tally.

Personally I think number 1 should be the only factor for true cumdumps. But then I feel the same way about relationships too.

Update - I've taken my first anon load! My cum slut credentials are no longer theoretical. Yesterday, on a whim, I went to sit and enjoy the sun with a book near a cruising area. It felt better to have no expectations and to not freak myself out. I'd go and have a chill Sunday and if anything happened that's a bonus. I was over thinking and stressing myself out so didn't make eye contact or follow any of the guys who sometimes walked past. After an hour or so a guy came by but didn't walk past. He crouched down to me and said "come suck me off". I said "ok" and packed up my stuff. I figured I would at least leave with cum in my belly if not in my arse. We walked through ferns to a clearing under a tree that was hidden from the outside. He was in his late 50s and on the chubby side of chunky. I clocked a wedding ring. He stood with his back to the trunk and dropped his shorts. "I don't have long" he said. I put my stuff down and took down my shorts (leaving my arseless briefs on). I thought if he felt my hole was already lubed he might go for it. I started sucking him off. His hands went straight for his own nipples and he stared down at me. I got in to cock sucker zone. Instead of bending over so that he could feel for my hole I squatted on the balls of my feet. My hands on his hips as I took his shaft down my throat.. then.... suddenly there was a hand cupping my balls! I hadn't heard anyone approach. As the hand cupped my balls his forearm was pressed hard against my hole. I made a muffled noise. The stranger's hands were now exploring me. He tapped a finger on my hole and slipped a finger in. The guy behind me said something I couldn't hear. But the guy I was sucking said "go for it". For the first time the guy I was sucking left his nipples and held my head and moved the head of his cock slightly in and out just beyond my lips. The guy behind me grabbed my hips and got me to straighten my legs bent over with the cock still in my mouth. My cheeks were parted and a tongue jabbed in to me. No rimming just a tongue fuck with lots of spitting in my hole. Then came his cock. He moved in slowly. At that moment the guy at my mouth pushed his cock down my throat and shot his wad. This shocked me and distracted me from the cock sliding deep in me. He then pulled up his shorts. "Enjoy yourselves guys, wish I could stay". With that he left. I'm now under a tree getting fucked (I assume bare) by someone who I have never seen. I'm not going to lie. I suddenly freaked out a bit. But his fucking felt so good and not knowing what he looked like, or knowing if he was bare or not, was incredible. I felt validated that what has only ever existed in my brain, is right for me in reality. He moved me forward so that I could lean on the tree trunk the other guy had been standing against. He fucked me for a while ending roughly pumping deep. "I'm cumming" is the only words he said to me. He lingered inside me stroking my back. He eventually pulled out and was using tissues or something. I didn't turn round. I pulled my shorts up and started fiddling with my bag getting out my water bottle. From behind he slapped my arse and said "cheers". I heard him walking through the ferns behind me and was gone. I felt my hole and his cum was there. I went home and felt euphoric. I kept that stranger's cum in me for as long as I could. I felt happy and unlocked. But this morning that feeling has been tarnished by some doubts and fears. I need to work on my internalised stigmas about what I am and what I like. I envy all you guys who are so free to express yourself. I think guys who can lay in a sling in a sauna taking loads without feeling self conscious or shame are heroes. I have a lot to work on to get to that place.

Only 3 different guys. 1st was a shag in Highbury Fields when I was a closet case in my teens. 2nd time I have no memory of at all. A one night stand I met in a pub "did me" when I had passed out after we had already fucked safe. I only knew cos of the cum in me. 3rd a FWB who got me to go bare during lockdown. He nutted 14 wads in me over a few months before he went back to Spain - yes I kept a tally 😁 That means 3 blokes and 16 loads in my lifetime. I aim to at least double that before the year is out.

@Manmilker2

Double checked, cos I was expecting a higher score, but I'm only 96. I need homeless married twins to rape my hole in a library restroom while felching and cum kissing me... that would double my score 😜

The rank thing makes sense now. Thanks for explaining. I thought I was being a Luddite! Your advance congrats on my coming out as a wannabe cumslut is appreciated too. You're right, I'm not a chaser. Even though bio-hazard tattoos are hot! In fact I've got the ball rolling proper, as I've already made an appointment to hopefully get on PrEP. I heard if you say you have a positive partner you get it. I'm planning on a weekend in London when it's sorted. Check out the Vault or somewhere. I should start out as I mean to go on 😜

16-18 lots of cruising and cottaging (safe bttm) 18-21 with an open bf in his 50s (safe bttm with him but top with other lads we had together) 20s in dating mode but with secret visits to saunas and cruising - which I felt ashamed about (safe vers/top) 30's monogomy partnered (safe top) Now 40s starting out as a cum dump trainee after living in denial for years. I still need to work on being out and proud about it as that is holding me back from ever graduating

My first love at 18 was a 52 year old bloke. We met in a park near my Uni and dated for 3 years until I graduated and moved away. He was a dirty horny bugger who, over time, got me to expand my pre-conceived ideas about sex and relationships. When you are starting out, an experienced older man does wonders for unlocking your potential.

Dick size isn't something that bothers me. They can all feel good in different ways. I do have a preference for uncut. But that night be cos it's what I'm used to being a Brit.

I would "like" your post but have no idea how to do it. To be honest it's this kind of thing that makes me nervous about bottoming. I admit I can like it rough but it needs some kind of build up to get me in the zone.

Wise words. Thank you!

Thanks for the encouragement and tips guys. I'm going to go on prep - at least at first. I also need to try topping bare. Maybe that's as good too. Cheers!

A roller-coaster year. At the end of last year, in-between lockdowns, I took my first load. This has changed my life so much that I'm pretty freaked out about it. I've been hooking up with a married guy for about 5 years. He lives in Spain (me the UK) but comes to my area about once a year as his Mum is in a care home here. I was a safe sex only versatile whereas he is a top. So he always fucks me. We never talked about BB and he would automatically put on a condom. Fast forward to Sept 2020. He came back to the UK to stay during covid without his wife. So rather than a meet up for a couple of hours I stayed the night. Our first fuck was as normal, so with a condom. In the early hours I woke to him laying on my back rubbing his cock against my hole. Obviously I got in the zone straight away and started to wake up. But he whispered "can you pretend to be asleep for me". So I did. He moved his face down to my hole and rimmed and tongue fucked me. Spitting up my hole and getting me proper wet. He then laid on my back directing his cock to my hole and his hands held my wrists. I could feel his head sliding in. I immediately said "whoa you didn't put a condom on". He said, "you're asleep!". Usually I would have no problem with saying no put one on. But by now his head was inside me and I could feel the sigh of relief of cock in my already tongue fucked hole. So I said "okay but don't cum in me". He passed me poppers and said "you'll need to remind me if I get carried away". By now he was almost balls deep and paused for me to sniff poppers. As I did I remember clearly thinking this feels different. His cock feels different in me. How I feel about it feels different too. We fucked. A lot. He had me on my back snogging me and thrusting deep. His breathing changed and his pounding more rapid. I knew he was getting close. In that moment I knew the last thing I wanted was for him to pull out. I felt ashamed at this feeling but knew I was too far gone to edit myself. So as I flexed my hole muscles around his cock, I said "cum in me". He grinned and piston fucked me until he shot deep inside. He then fingered me and wanked me off. When home I was freaked out and scared. I had never had cum in my ass before. It wasn't just the cum that scared me. It was also how right it felt. I kept going back to meet him - sex without loads seemed empty after. Also the fucking itself is better. He has now gone back to Spain and I feel lost. His is the only cum I've had and I want more. I want many. I'm not good at taking the leap as I'm in that "I want to, but should I" stage. If it wasn't for lockdown I'd probably have gone to a sauna. I worry all this time alone is going to make me get cold feet. I can't see how a shy newbie can become a cum slut. Doesn't help I live in a small place. Sorry if that's boring. I just wanted to share the journey I'm on, that's still new and building. If anyone has any words of wisdom that would be great.