It sounds like you’ve already made up your mind if you’ve been chatting up guys and fantasizing about it for this long, so I say go for it😤 ! Feels like it should go without saying on a site like this in particular, but I’ll say it anyway: As long as you acknowledge what the possible worst-case scenario could be and are still okay with taking those risks, then do it.
Personally, I think it’s a shame there’s so little gay cheating and cuckolding porn compared to how popular the hetero versions have become, especially because a lot of gay guys DO cheat or are open to sharing their partners.
My situation is different than yours since my bf is also turned on by cheating/cuckolding and even though we aren’t officially in an open relationship, the idea definitely floats around when we’re horny. I also think it would be just as hot to find out he was cheating on me as it is to think about cheating on him, so make of that what you will. I’d still think it’s hot even if he wasn’t okay with it.
I haven’t been fucked by anyone besides my bf in years (looking to change that though! 😈 ), but I did cheat on him in the first couple months we started dating (will add story in another post)