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The Strange Intimacy of the Anonymous Load


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This was when I first embraced being a bareback bottom. I would go to the Club Z in Seattle weekly. I was in my late 20's and looked like, well, to be honest I looked like sexy Jesus. People often remarked on my looks that way. I had long dark hair sometimes a trim beard, slim body, tall (6'2") with a pleasing dusting of chest hair. When I would walk up the stairs at the club in a towel I would see my reflection in the long mirror at the top of the stairs, gay Jesus coming to fuck away all your sins. On your knees and pray or suck the cock in front of you.

Sometimes seeing my image like that I would feel sexy. It gave me the confidence to offer my body to the men at the club that day. I was not everybody's type but more than enough men wanted me and I liked that feeling. No, I loved it and I loved making them feel good. The smile a man gives you as he fucks you when he is really into you is such a mind trip. Many of my fucks start out completely anonymous but some end up as a face to face encounter that can be every bit as satisfying as the faceless, nameless fucks that leave you loaded and dripping with cum.

I was feeling great, good hair day (long hair can be such a pain), no zits, horny as 15 year old boy with a stolen Playgirl hidden under his hoodie. I checked in and discovered I was in my favorite room, number 211. Yeah, I went there so often I had a favorite room. You will find out why in a minute.

Going into my room and shutting the door is one of my favorite parts of my time at a bathhouse. I get to shut away the world. I have my tiny haven away from all the troubles and trauma of the outside world. Here I can be myself among men who are like me, won't judge me for who and what I am. The anticipation of what is beyond the door or what will come through it excites me. My cock begins to harden. Who knows, it might be a dead night and I will end up jerking off in the porn room or I might take load after load from raw cock all night. Usually it is something in between the two.

I am prepared. I had already done a thorough cleaning out so deep I will be able to fuck for several hours without a whisper of taint. I get out my supplies: lube (two kinds), poppers, cock ring and a bottle of rum. Rum first to heat me up, loosen my muscles give me a bit of a buzz. Booze makes me hornier. I take my time putting on my ring and lubing up my hole. I am not a natural born bottom. I have learned to take cock like a trooper but I need plenty of lube and a top who takes a few seconds to enter my ass. First I apply a small amount of Vaseline and then plenty of Elbow Grease. Isn't that a great name. I even take a tiny huff of poppers. That really makes my cock take notice. I love poppers more than I can express. Sigh. The new poppers today are shit. R.I.P. poppers high.

I want to get to the fucking but for some reason I decide to make a tour, see what is happening, who is there. Its early and not terribly busy. That is okay I only need one cock for now. Later I will want one in each hole. Making my way back to my room I remember the man who passed me on the stairs after I checked in. He me 'gives me 'that look'. You know what I am talking about. The look that says, "I am interested, wanna find out what my cock tastes like." I can be very shy at times like this. I don't ignore him and I don't encourage him either. I don't know how to handle situations like that, at least not sober with my clothes on.

Back in my room I dim the lights and toss the towel up near the head so I can bury my face in it once I open the door. I use the pillow like a wedge under my hips to elevate my ass and make it obvious I am offering my hole up for fucking. Burying my face in the towel, clutching the little brown bottle of heaven I slowly grind my cock into the pillow trying to be inviting and seductive.

It is a weird and self-conscious position to be in. Offering your body to anyone with a hard-on seems to me to be pathetic, heroic, humiliating, dangerous, adventurous and somewhat arrogant. Who am I to think Joe Schmoe is going to want to stick his dick into my body? Do I think I am so hot that I can just put myself out there like that and expect to get fucked? Mostly I feel embarrassed because I don't feel worthy of the cock I crave. I feel like I don't deserve to get fucked exactly for the reason I want to get fucked, because I am total cum hungry cock whore. A cum dump who will let anybody fuck him. It also makes me feel soooo horny and sleazy but in a good way.

The anticipation of this situation can be excruciating and thrilling. The wait is mind blowing. Your ears become attuned to every noise. It drives me crazy when a noisy neighbor arrives, some twink with a friend who makes ten trips back and forth from his room each time passing the open door framing my lubed up ass, an obvious invitation to be used by any Tom, Dick or Harry. Why do I care what he thinks. I don't care about him, unless he stops by to drop a load.

I like this room because it is close to a hallway but not in plain view of a passerby. To see into my room you have to be looking, you have to be on the prowl for cock or ass. As I wait I listen and imagine. I listen for the tell-tale creak of a floor board. This room has a loose board at the threshold so if you step close or just inside the room I will hear that faint creak. It is a squeak that sends chills down my spine and makes my nuts churn. It might only be a gawker, which is fine but frustrating but then again I might feel a hand on my ankle.

Of course I never know what to expect. My favorite are the men who get right down to business, the ones who upon discovering my lubed up hole mount up and begin fucking. I hate being fingered. It makes me tense up but I will endure it for a minute if I think it turns my top on and get him hard enough to want to fuck me. I enjoy being rimmed but a devoted rimmer will ream all the lube out of me. Not such a big deal, especially in my room where it is close at hand but its still a delay in what I really want, raw cock unloading in my eager hole.

This night I do not have to wait long. There is the creak and then nothing. Silence, no touching but I am sure he is still there. I can sense him watching me. I continue to grind my hips. Slowly I reach down and push my hard cock into view between my legs and to the side of my balls. I have big balls. Its no boast just passing on what men have told me over the years. Still nothing. I wait...and wait. Finally it comes. A hand slides up my calf and grazes my ass to the small of my back. He caresses me for a while. He is enjoying the feel of me, the sight of my prone and naked body offered up for his use. I shiver. The club is cool tonight and I am going mad with anticipation of what this man might do to me.

The mystery ends when he straddles my ass and pushes his cock into me. Just like that I am getting fucked and I could not be happier. My anonymous top stretches out on top of me and I luxuriate in the feel of his skin and the pressure of his weight on me. I want him to fill me and fuck me and crush me to the mattress with the exertion of his thrusts. I want to be drenched in his sweat and I want him to take ownership of me by breeding my ass with his DNA.

I use the poppers liberally and so does he after I hold them out to him. My eyes are still closed. All I know of the man is from sound, smell and feel. He feels awesome. He has a Goldilocks cock, not too big, not too small.....just right. High on lust and poppers I am in love with this man who is giving me the gift of his body, the joy of his manhood and I know in my heart his seed. He will breed me when he is done taking his pleasure.

Eventually he flips me. At this point is seems ridiculous to keep my eyes close. I open the and see the man from the stairs grinning down at me. He is wearing a baseball cap. I find that both weird and boyishly sexy. I can tell he is immeasurably happy to be fucking me. This makes me happy to be alive and at that moment there is no other place I would rather be. His boning is energetic and enthusiastic. He discovers the full length mirror which gives us a great view of the action and is enthralled by watching his cock pound my ass. I get caught up in it too and our eyes are glued to the mirror like we are watching a feature film. It's a beautiful sight I have to admit.

The guy can't get enough of the scene. He pushes and pulls me into different positions all the while keeping his eyes glued to the mirror. He cums like that, watching live porn of his own making. When his tremors subside but his cock is still in me he looms for a moment smiling down on me with a satisfaction that warms my heart. His load is already warming my guts. And then he is gone leaving the door open and me to ponder what just happened. I am feeling fucking great, goddamn fantastic, on top of the world. What do I do next? Roll over of course and wait for the next top to breed me.

I don't remember specifics of the rest of the night. That first top stands out but I know I got several more loads, all anonymous. I feel very close and grateful to all those men who fucked me. I realize I might be nothing more to them than a warm wet hole to sink their dick into and unload. That's not just fine with me its what I want. If they are fucking me I know they are getting what they want. They didn't have to choose me. I have not pressured them in any way. They want to fuck me. When I know a guy is getting his nut while in my ass I am in love with him, I am desperate with need and desire for him. His particulars don't interest me. I don't want to know his name or see his face. All I want is to feel his hard cock breeding my cum hungry ass and when he does I love him for it. Like I said its a strange kind of intimacy when you get anonymous loads.

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Anonymous sex is the best sex.  I know that feeling of intimacy with another man without ever seeing his face, sometimes without touching his body if it's through a glory hole.  I've pushed my ass up to a glory hole to entice a man who has just pulled his cock back after I sucked it hard, and gotten him to fuck me.  And sometimes I would see their faces after they pumped their seed into my body.  More than once it was the face of a man who hadn't expected to do that when he came into the bookstore arcade, who surprised himself, and is trying to deal with the intimacy he just shared with me.  I assume their sense of their own sexual identity was being challenged.  It's the way a bottom brings a man over to our side.

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4 hours ago, cumhole1919 said:

Anonymous sex is the best sex.  I know that feeling of intimacy with another man without ever seeing his face, sometimes without touching his body if it's through a glory hole.  I've pushed my ass up to a glory hole to entice a man who has just pulled his cock back after I sucked it hard, and gotten him to fuck me.  And sometimes I would see their faces after they pumped their seed into my body.  More than once it was the face of a man who hadn't expected to do that when he came into the bookstore arcade, who surprised himself, and is trying to deal with the intimacy he just shared with me.  I assume their sense of their own sexual identity was being challenged.  It's the way a bottom brings a man over to our side.

Yeah anonymous sex is the best, so much less baggage. The intimacy is a lot purer. Now you make me wonder what some of the other guys were feeling especially the ones who fucked me through a glory hole. I'd love to think I brought a few over to our side that way. The world needs more glory holes.

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I love anonymous sex as well. I find it so exciting and intense to focus only on the feel of the cock in my ass. Never knowing who it was that was inside me. Never seeing the face of the guy who's cum is now deposited inside of my ass. 

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It's pure heaven. No drama. No baggage. No small talk. Just sex. The give and take of pleasure and the reward at the end. I LIVE for that reward. I earn it.  That's why I love gloryholes an ddark rooms and blindfolds. It's my hole and their cock. Nothing else matters.

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1 hour ago, travelingbi said:

I love anonymous sex as well. I find it so exciting and intense to focus only on the feel of the cock in my ass. Never knowing who it was that was inside me. Never seeing the face of the guy who's cum is now deposited inside of my ass. 

I see a lot of posts from bareback bottoms who love anonymous fucking but less so from tops who like the same. I wonder if there are less tops who love it or if us bottoms are just more enthusiastic and vocal about it. 

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32 minutes ago, Treehugger said:

I see a lot of posts from bareback bottoms who love anonymous fucking but less so from tops who like the same. I wonder if there are less tops who love it or if us bottoms are just more enthusiastic and vocal about it. 

perhaps it's married and download guys who like it 

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59 minutes ago, cumhole1919 said:

Yeah, I love sex with married and down low men.  I'm sure we've all had the experience of sucking a man's cock, or letting him breed you, then having him be so grateful that you let him do all that to you.  I think they must have to beg women to get that kind of treatment.

If all men understood not only how easy it is to get their rocks off with a dedicated bottom but how happy and eager we are to do it we might get a lot more dick. No begging involved on their part, no dinner, no foreplay, they do not even have to ask! Just do it.

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On 10/25/2017 at 5:45 PM, travelingbi said:

I love anonymous sex as well. I find it so exciting and intense to focus only on the feel of the cock in my ass. Never knowing who it was that was inside me. Never seeing the face of the guy who's cum is now deposited inside of my ass. 

That is one of my favorite Parts. The thought of strangers cum deep in my faggot hole. And the thought of How  nasty and degrading I am treating myself. I'd much rather The Strangers do that for me. My favorite is when you can smell their breath and you can tell that they don't take care of themselves very much for all I know they could be homeless. Sometimes I fantasize they are for the hell of it because it's so fucking nasty and I fucken love it. Having strangers come in my hole makes me feel complete and I can never get enough of it.

I wear these to the park at night and have a shirt tied around my waist to cover until I see you a man, any man turn around I lift it up and expose my public cumdump hole, then when I said I'm turning around I walk ahead of them and turn where they can see me and I just bend over with my face away from them exposed and open for them. Found Used condoms that a full of cum are definitely always pushed into my ass on the spot. That's the same with the garbage in the bookstore boots. There's more, the bottom of those bags than there are in the condoms and I make sure I take it all in my Faggot ass

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On ‎10‎/‎27‎/‎2017 at 4:34 AM, cumdumpSD said:

 

That is one of my favorite Parts. The thought of strangers cum deep in my faggot hole. And the thought of How  nasty and degrading I am treating myself. I'd much rather The Strangers do that for me. My favorite is when you can smell their breath and you can tell that they don't take care of themselves very much for all I know they could be homeless. Sometimes I fantasize they are for the hell of it because it's so fucking nasty and I fucken love it. Having strangers come in my hole makes me feel complete and I can never get enough of it.

I wear these to the park at night and have a shirt tied around my waist to cover until I see you a man, any man turn around I lift it up and expose my public cumdump hole, then when I said I'm turning around I walk ahead of them and turn where they can see me and I just bend over with my face away from them exposed and open for them. Found Used condoms that a full of cum are definitely always pushed into my ass on the spot. That's the same with the garbage in the bookstore boots. There's more, the bottom of those bags than there are in the condoms and I make sure I take it all in my Faggot ass

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So hard core man! I love it. You are fucking hot. I bet you have no trouble getting strange men to breed you. If I saw that sweet hairy hole yours through those torn jeans I would not be able to resist pounding a load into you. 

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On 10/26/2017 at 10:13 PM, Treehugger said:

If all men understood not only how easy it is to get their rocks off with a dedicated bottom but how happy and eager we are to do it we might get a lot more dick. No begging involved on their part, no dinner, no foreplay, they do not even have to ask! Just do it.

No worries about knocking us up either.  But that wouldn't be for lack of trying.

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Great story! The anonymity is very much a turn on, I agree. It's usually way hotter than a regular hookup from online. Much sluttier. Sadly, where I live we have one really lame abs, and the health department recently made them cover the glory holes. 

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