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What are your experiences once your realize your a HIV Positive?

the day you get your test results, POSITIVE! 

That emotional feeling?

whether or not to tell your primary physician?

when do you decide to go on meds?

How do you tell your family?

 

 

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in the back of my mind i knew,I had been sick off and on for a while. It hit me really hard because i have been married for 32 years, with 2 great kids. I cant tell them,  my wife would leave me my kids would freak. 

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I was on PrEP for some time and stopped.  No doubt was certain I would eventually convert.   Night sweats were my first indication of being infected.    Tested POZ a couple days later.

i have been open about status.   Family knows. Social group knows.  All medical folks know.   Always disclose in one on one sex sessions.  Let my POZ tats tell the story in most group/anon sessions

have not had any real issues at all.  But then, I was prepared for this likelyhood. 

I do make certain no “innocents” are at risk due to my choices.  But keep in mind, guys who have anon sex without protection are NOT innocent.    

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I was devastated. I wasn’t even barebacking at the time so it was a complete shock. 

My primary physician is who told me. He is gay and is also an HIV specialist so it made things somewhat easier. 

I had bee poz for years without knowing it so I wound up going on meds right away. I was lucky that while my Initial CD4 and VL were horrible I had never gotten sick. Been on meds for 15 years.

I’ve never told family or friends—just fuck partners and medical providers. Disclosure is tricky.  Once it’s out there it can never be taken back.  Best pieces of advice my doctor gave me was to be careful about disclosing and not to panic.  I’m healthy and horny all these years later:

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Thanks for all your feed-back,  Just tested HIV negative after knowingly taking my first viral load, mixed feelings.  I feel  I am getting to where I am no longer going to chase. Yet at the same time, I am not going take measures to stay NEG either, such as prep, or god forbid condoms; I am going to put myself at the mercy of nature. Meanwhile, I would like to enjoy the freedom of bareback sex

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4 hours ago, BiAthlete4You said:

Thanks for all your feed-back,  Just tested HIV negative after knowingly taking my first viral load, mixed feelings.  I feel  I am getting to where I am no longer going to chase. Yet at the same time, I am not going take measures to stay NEG either, such as prep, or god forbid condoms; I am going to put myself at the mercy of nature. Meanwhile, I would like to enjoy the freedom of bareback sex

Seems the situation that most of us have gone through. I completely opened up and began taking any and all that wanted to fuck back at the beginning of 2016 with no questions asked, really figured I'd get pozzed right away from the strangers and by anonymous at the baths or ABS, but tested neg back in Oct/Nov of this last year. I didn't have any encounters during Dec, due to the holidays and other things getting in the way. The first week in Jan, i hooked up with an old partner from a couple of years back and he began using me again. At the end of jan and the first week of Feb, I began having sweats and the onset of flu with aches and pains of the joints and muscles. I still haven't tested yet to be 100% sure, but all the signs are there that he stealth pozzed me. I haven't confirmed it from him yet either, but I'm sure it's a done deal.  Am going to do a in home test first, but am not going to go to any of the local clinics fro testing if the in home does indicate poz, as I have a lot of friends and relation working in the medical fields near my location. Am not going to tell them or take the chance until absolutely necessary.

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On 4/16/2019 at 8:26 AM, ballerva said:

I was devastated. I wasn’t even barebacking at the time so it was a complete shock. 

My primary physician is who told me. He is gay and is also an HIV specialist so it made things somewhat easier. 

I had bee poz for years without knowing it so I wound up going on meds right away. I was lucky that while my Initial CD4 and VL were horrible I had never gotten sick. Been on meds for 15 years.

I’ve never told family or friends—just fuck partners and medical providers. Disclosure is tricky.  Once it’s out there it can never be taken back.  Best pieces of advice my doctor gave me was to be careful about disclosing and not to panic.  I’m healthy and horny all these years later:

I think this is where guys that chase might have their moment. Once it’s done, it’s over. Sure you can celebrate it but that same thrill will never be there again. 

Disclosure is something that I’ve very much changed my mind on. I used to always think that if you were hiv+ you should disclose. Now if you’re undetectable I’d says it’s your business. With that said the law might still disagree depending on your location. 

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