It won’t go away

[Aaron87]

The urge to suck cock has been with me as long as I can remember. I’ve always identified as straight probably because I grew up in the 80’s when boys weren’t allowed to cry and showing the slightest bit of sensitivity got you labeled a queer or something g derogatory. It really started when I was out on my own and discovered porn. I quickly gravitated to facials and cumshots and would imagine I was the female though I could never face what that really meant about my sexuality. Then about 6 years ago I discovered sissy porn and craigslist. I kinda went down that rabbit hole. The first cock i sucked was arranged through Craigslist. We met at midnight and I hopped in his Jeep. We went to a side street with no lighting. I can still hear him saying “are you ready for this hot load” right before he started filling my mouth with his cum. I loved every second of sucking his cock. I’ve have a few other partners since then. The thing is I could never date a guy. I don’t find men attractive at all but I can’t ever stop thinking about sucking cock. I’m not into random sex so I don’t get to hookup often. Is anyone else like this. It’s confusing and often feelings of shame are associated with it. I love sucking cock but feel guilty about it and have a hard time being able to be submissive and on my knees for other men despite how much I love it. The urge to suck cock and swallow cum is always there and I really want to indulge more. Idk. Any thought?

[DomAbuser]

I have used lots of married guys who have dealt with the same issues.  They are wired to crave cock and cum, but not the guy attached to it.  You are not alone .  From my experience with these guys.  you will go through cycles of shame and then indulgence.  Most guys keep going further and further each time they come back from trying to stop taking cock.  Eventually turning into total sissy cum sluts.   If you are a single guy. you are better off since you have more control over your choices.  If you  dont want to date, but want to be used by a regular guy.  That hardest part will be just owning the fact your a sub and find a dom top who just wants to use with no strings and make yourself available and hope for repeats.

[Breedthisslut]

4 hours ago, DomAbuser said:

I have used lots of married guys who have dealt with the same issues.  They are wired to crave cock and cum, but not the guy attached to it.  You are not alone .  From my experience with these guys.  you will go through cycles of shame and then indulgence.  Most guys keep going further and further each time they come back from trying to stop taking cock.  Eventually turning into total sissy cum sluts.   If you are a single guy. you are better off since you have more control over your choices.  If you  dont want to date, but want to be used by a regular guy.  That hardest part will be just owning the fact your a sub and find a dom top who just wants to use with no strings and make yourself available and hope for repeats.

That is me over the last 22 years. Cocksucker extraordinaire for many years and hundreds of cocks sucked and  cumloads swallowed. Now I have opened and honed my expertise in taking cock of all lengths and widths so you can call me a size queen too. I found early that i am submissive sissy cumslut and I’m not only loving it, but I’m not afraid to admit it.

In the last two years, I have had the pleasure of taking poz loads and I find myself searching for and contacting poz guys as potential new fuckbuds. 

Edited May 10, 2020 by Breedthisslut

[Bicuriousfckr]

7 hours ago, DomAbuser said:

I have used lots of married guys who have dealt with the same issues.  They are wired to crave cock and cum, but not the guy attached to it.  You are not alone .  From my experience with these guys.  you will go through cycles of shame and then indulgence.  Most guys keep going further and further each time they come back from trying to stop taking cock.  Eventually turning into total sissy cum sluts.   If you are a single guy. you are better off since you have more control over your choices.  If you  dont want to date, but want to be used by a regular guy.  That hardest part will be just owning the fact your a sub and find a dom top who just wants to use with no strings and make yourself available and hope for repeats.

I am that slut

[Aaron87]

8 hours ago, DomAbuser said:you will go through cycles of shame and then indulgence.  Most guys keep going further and further each time they come back from trying to stop taking cock.  Eventually turning into total sissy cum sluts.   

This makes a ton of sense. I go through cycles for sure and after every break I tend to come back that much more slutty and cock hungry than before. The urges to suck cock and swallow cum are so intense right now I can’t stand it. I’ve been on Grindr trying to find someone to come over tonight to get a load. I don’t care so much right now. This is what I love to do. I love sucking cock and feeling a guy nut in my mouth. Also you guys love us cock sucking sissy’s anyways so why should I be ashamed. I’m a cocksucker and I love it!

[Aaron87]

I couldn’t resist it any longer. I just got home from sucking off a guy I found on Grindr. Thank god for apps and sites like that. I’m 37 and he was 53. A little older than I prefer but he took care of himself well. We didn’t waste anytime. I knocked on the door and he let me in and led me straight to the bedroom. He took his pants off and laid on the bed. He wasn’t hard at all and I kinda like that. Knowing I can make a guy hard. He had a roughly 7 1/2 inch cock that wasn’t too thick. I got him hard and started swallowing it as far as I could to get that thick slimy saliva all over it. God I fucking love how a warm, spongy cock head feels in my mouth. I couldn’t believe how fast he was though. Literally within five minutes his cock was hard as a rock and I could feel him squirming and tensing up. I deepthroated him a couple times and then bobbed on his head at a nice pace until he started shooting his cum into my mouth. I’m not gonna lie his was acidic and really not good at all but I’m a cocksucker and we swallow so once he finished I got up and gulped it down. All I can think about it swallowing more cum now. He seems like a normal guy and I think this could be a steady hookup. Just gotta have him eat some fruit or something. I really thought scratching this itch would help but I still can’t think about anything but sucking more cock. 

[Guest Tom52Bi]

Gave my first blowjob to my friend the day after Valentines day.
Loved it.

Spent that whole week just sucking him off.

Haven’t stopped thinking about him since.

My wife loves hearing me tell about sucking him.

[coastalbender]

Find a regular or small group of regulars. They just want to use you and forget you.

[tallslenderguy]

my theory (totally speculative and unsubstantiated) is that sucking cock fulfills a need in you.  The culturally conditioned response of having a hard time being submissive and your feeling guilty aren't enough to overcome the need/desire that sucking cock fills, so you refine it down, but find a way to do it. 

i think it's all about need, There are guys who need their cocks sucked by guys and there are guys who need to suck those cocks.  It's a wonderful, symbiotic relationship. If you don't do it, there will be another guy who will and you will just be frustrated without your needs satisfied.

Now, go suck some cock like you know you need to.

[cyberdolphnow]

On 5/10/2020 at 3:39 PM, Aaron87 said:

This makes a ton of sense. I go through cycles for sure and after every break I tend to come back that much more slutty and cock hungry than before. The urges to suck cock and swallow cum are so intense right now I can’t stand it. I’ve been on Grindr trying to find someone to come over tonight to get a load. I don’t care so much right now. This is what I love to do. I love sucking cock and feeling a guy nut in my mouth. Also you guys love us cock sucking sissy’s anyways so why should I be ashamed. I’m a cocksucker and I love it!

Aaron 87,

There's absolutely nothing wrong about being a cock sucker. It's how some guys are wired including some who are otherwise in hetrosexual lifestyles.  There's even at least one focused forum for cock suckers (MenWhoSwallow) where cock sucker (eaters) discuss the activities along with the men who appreciate theiron skills and service (feeders).  Plus all of the XTube, etc video posting private glory hole hosting cock suckers showing off their oral skills.   

Don't ever be ashamed of your knowledge and feelings about this but embrace them and be sure to try to be the best cock sucker you can be. 

[bivergent]

I am also this way, I am not attracted to guys but I crave submitting to a guy and be on my knees giving him oral. I used to go to a local adult store and suck guys at a glory hole. Felt guilty and would stop but would eventually go back. Then I meet a guy that I got together with every few weeks but then he moved away. Then I met the girl I am with and haven't given oral to a guy since but my desire to just keeps growing.

[suck&swallow]

Wanting to suck a hard, beautiful, cum filled cock is a feeling I never want to go away. I never have even thought about trying to stop sucking cocks. I am wired to suck all the cocks I can and I never stop looking for more to suck. I just love it when at glory holes there is a steady supply of cocks to suck on, same for XXX theaters and bars where you suck a guy in the back room and all of a sudden there are ten guys in a line waiting for their cocks to be sucked. The bath houses in my area, Or cruising an area and sucking cocks all night. Visiting the local truck stop and sucking truckers cocks or visiting the rest areas and finding cocks to suck. I try to make sure I suck at least one cock everyday and multiple cocks are perfect. I just live for all that delicious cum and different flavors.

[Newtothis74]

I’m super happy to know I am not alone in feeling this way. I am not at all attracted to the guy, just the cock. A cut cock is what does it for me. I have been to gloryholes because I like that no one will ever know. I get urges from time to time and go to adult stores to feed my urges. 
 

I kept this secret and feels good to know there are people out there just like me. 

[camelblue]

Is there anything better than the sensation of wrapping your lips around the big meaty head of a penis? Feeling the weight of a thick schlong slapping against your tongue, slapping against your face, really makes you admire the power of cock. And what better way to appreciate that power than to make hot salty sperm shoot out of that penis head into your mouth.

[Guest ballsucker]

On 11/14/2020 at 12:57 AM, camelblue said:

Is there anything better than the sensation of wrapping your lips around the big meaty head of a penis? Feeling the weight of a thick schlong slapping against your tongue, slapping against your face, really makes you admire the power of cock. And what better way to appreciate that power than to make hot salty sperm shoot out of that penis head into your mouth.

Yeah, it feels amazing. My alpha haven't yet finished in my mouth - I can't wait to taste and swallow his load. 😛