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My only regret was finding out that my test result was a false positive. I’m out to be pozzed  for real this time. One of the saddest day of my life. I was depressed for a month. 

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15 minutes ago, lovetobefucked said:

Anybody that says they want to be pozzed is fucking stupid.

I did not become poz because I wanted the virus. I did it to get a man that was poz and thought that if I was poz also he would want me. I was 19 at the time and yes very stupid. Now having the virus for more than half my life I would say that if I had the choice to do it again I would not. But I don’t live my life with regrets. I also do not judge others for their decisions. 

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17 hours ago, lovetobefucked said:

Anybody that says they want to be pozzed is fucking stupid.

Find a less rude and confrontational way to express yourself. 

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20 hours ago, lovetobefucked said:

Anybody that says they want to be pozzed is fucking stupid.

I used to think like you when I got infected. That they are ruining their own health and don't know what they are doing. But then I began to think, who am I to choose how they choose to live their own life? Sure I still wouldn't advocate chasing HIV, for obvious reasons, but as long as they aren't hurting anyone, and they're having sex with people who are willing to risk it with them, I can't judge them. Just putting it out there.

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No regrets. I knew the risks when i decided i only wanted to bareback. Didn't chase but knew one day i more than likely would become poz. 

I live my life just as normal as a negative guy..

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On 1/23/2020 at 5:26 AM, Shooter_099 said:

No regrets. I knew the risks when i decided i only wanted to bareback. Didn't chase but knew one day i more than likely would become poz. 

I live my life just as normal as a negative guy..

Couldn't agree more. Didn't chase either but knew one day I become poz since I love barebacking. Nothing has changed now I take a pill one a day and can be the poz cum pig I was meant to be

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On 1/23/2020 at 12:30 AM, hornycumslut91 said:

I used to think like you when I got infected. That they are ruining their own health and don't know what they are doing. But then I began to think, who am I to choose how they choose to live their own life? Sure I still wouldn't advocate chasing HIV, for obvious reasons, but as long as they aren't hurting anyone, and they're having sex with people who are willing to risk it with them, I can't judge them. Just putting it out there.

I totally agree with this and I never criticize chasers. But be aware that HIV drugs currently cost about $3,000 a month ($100 per pill) in the USA. I guarantee someone somewhere is fixin to jerk the rug out from under us. The price could be attacked,  as the cost in Canada is $600/mo, or $20 per pill. However I expect both to happen, with price controls on all drugs, and criminalization of gifting HIV to anyone including the willing. 

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Just now, Pozlover1 said:

I totally agree with this and I never criticize chasers. But be aware that HIV drugs currently cost about $3,000 a month ($100 per pill) in the USA. I guarantee someone somewhere is fixin to jerk the rug out from under us. The price could be attacked,  as the cost in Canada is $600/mo, or $20 per pill. However I expect both to happen, with price controls on all drugs, and criminalization of gifting HIV to anyone including the willing. 

Still reading? Nobody I know pays $100 per pill. Insurance plus Copay Assistance for people who have good jobs, ADAP in most states and State programs in others for people making under a certain amount. But you can be sure that number is collected, or written off taxes. We are a cash cow, a license to print money, for some people with some pull. This is the only reason we are not bulldozed into ditches (yet).

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Regrets?  I try to live without them..One cant go back and pining for the road not traveled is a sure way to get stuck in the mud ? neither moving forward or back.

But I'm human

There are things I wish I could change and choices I made that haunt me when I am at my lowest, and realities I am forced to deal with today that I might not have had to if I wasnt Poz.

The biggest is that I wish it hadn't happened for my Mom's sake. My Mom is my world. and the only person I put above my darkest desires  and th things  I long for.  I was a baby in the Early days.  She was a Fag Hag and a Dominatrix then. All mybyoung life I watched those people... the family she created because hers wasnt shit,  Day Week after week, year after year until she was the last one standing  Finding Out I was Poz broke ne because I felt like I failed her somehow knowing that if something happened to me, shed be one of those frail old forgotten ladies with no one to love and no one to care for them.

Late last year, those feelings intensified when she had a massive brain injury that nearly killed her. and I knew I couldnt give her blood. 

I regretted and hated myself.

I do regret the financial cost of being stuck on ARV's for the rest of my life.  And not being able to take them or not at my own discretion, without judgment or needing to answer to a disapproving doctor. 

I regret being Judged for being gay and Poz as if it was my choice. ( as if homosexuality and being poz go hand in hand)

I also regret the way I got knocked up and that I spent 17 years not knowing.  I got stung when I was in the hospital after an appendectomy that went wrong. hospital negligence exposed me. and  there I was. 

Now I'm not here to imply that anyone "Deserves" the gift,  but I spent my teens doing things that were almost certain to catch me out there. By the time the hospital happened to me, Inhad curbed my ways and played by the rules all the time.  The regret is that Innever felt as if I "earned " my gift because it was an fluke? rather than something I actively had a hand in. 

lastly, if I had any regrets, I guess that certain themes Found in certain areas of this site( I dont want to get reprimanded again) Strongly appeal to me the older I get. and that took a combination of Class Comics, Certain Bara Doushins and Triple 6 comics to open my eyes to just how much of a pervert In truly am. And I wish I knew or understood this about myself when I was younger and dumber. 

its probably seems like I'm a rambling fool or nonsensical  but if I subscribed to regret... this would be my package

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On 1/26/2020 at 10:23 PM, Pozlover1 said:

Still reading? Nobody I know pays $100 per pill. Insurance plus Copay Assistance for people who have good jobs, ADAP in most states and State programs in others for people making under a certain amount. But you can be sure that number is collected, or written off taxes. We are a cash cow, a license to print money, for some people with some pull. This is the only reason we are not bulldozed into ditches (yet).

For me all the pills à free 100% I have to pay 400$ a years but the meds company 

pay for me 

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I have recently been diagnosed and the doctors seemed to think i was laid back and quite stoic about it all. I wasn't really any of that... with the large number of men i have had unprotected sex with it was probably inevitable and what is done is done - i can't change it so best to go forward and adapt to any necessary changes.

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I delayed my chase many times over 7-8 years as I worked to understand my reasons.  But once I was certain, I had a short and successful chase.   In the 30 months since I converted I can say that I have had NO reasons to second guess my choice.  That may change but right now I would repeat my choice without hesitation.

Two notes:

I am not on meds.  I determined that I wanted to experience living as a POZ man and deferred meds until I saw something different in my needs.

The other was imagined but not certain.  I have made a large change in my choice of partners.  I do not enjoy vanilla hookups after converting.  My choices have been to move towards more extreme and interesting connections.  I find that my status is no an issue and in some cases preferred.  This was not a major element in my decision to chase, but it is very real after the breeding.

As a point of context, I just turned 65 and have the most intense sex life of 50+ years of taking dick.  My b-day was last week and every dick since then has been POZ, most of them unplanned but simply encountered.   Perhaps that clouds over possible regrets, but seems to be more the norm.   

 

 

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