Submissives: when did you know?

[Guest]

when i was seven in my first year of school in an all boys school that i attended i found myself at play time being raped along with another boy we were the entertainment of other boys who liked to get us naked for fun as children. at 14 i was on my knees sucking cock and on my stomach with cock fucking my tight ass and enjoying it;

[Jimmi]

i always knew i was a bottom from the time i knew i was gay. As a boy whenever Robin got tied up in a Batman episode i found it indescribably hot and wanted to be Robin. But when i first came out i thought i was very vanilla and wanted a hearts and flowers relationship (even as my taste in porn was getting more and more kinky). my teacher at university spotted the sub in me and told other students in my class that i was more than gay, but also a sub.  When you friends told me that i pretended to be outraged. But in actual fact i found myself wondering how he knew. And wishing he’d use me. It took me another 20 years to act on my desires.  People often call the act of living out Y/your kink fantasies the “second coming out.”

[bivergent]

I have just recently accepted that I am a submissive male and bi after fighting the urges and trying to be in charge within my relationships. I should have realized it when I was younger and accepted it then.  When I was younger I used to put on my sisters panties and lingerie.

[PowerTopper]

I know a granny tranny that was trained and controlled by every male in her family to be a good little girl since she was 5. She's 63 and only wants cock and abuse, the whores life is only slavery

[LittleCumSewer]

I always knew I was born to be a submissive cumdumpster. I started blowing guys in middle school and had already been fantasizing about being a submissive little cocksucker and fucktoy for boys. I was even thinking about how hot it would be to suck off big groups of guys while the rest watched and waited for their turns. by the time I got to high school I was a gangbang fucktoy.  I have never turned down any guy that wanted me to suck their cock or wanted to fuck me, cum on me, cum in me, piss on me or pass me around. I was literally born a submissive faggot

[PowerTopper]

5 minutes ago, LittleCumSewer said:

I always knew I was born to be a submissive cumdumpster. I started blowing guys in middle school and had already been fantasizing about being a submissive little cocksucker and fucktoy for boys. I was even thinking about how hot it would be to suck off big groups of guys while the rest watched and waited for their turns. by the time I got to high school I was a gangbang fucktoy.  I have never turned down any guy that wanted me to suck their cock or wanted to fuck me, cum on me, cum in me, piss on me or pass me around. I was literally born a submissive faggot

This is why I'm your daddy and your my tranny son 

[Antonythecumslut95]

I remember during gym class. I was 16 and there was this hung jock type of guy in my class. He was packing a big fucking dick and it was the first time I realized I was into that and wanted to play with it.

I noticed it again later when my bestfriend clocked me that I acted very submissive around hot (straight) guys everywhere we went. Always trying to please them and flirting with them. My submissiveness was showing already. And the blowjobs I’d been giving here and there were also a fine indication haha. 

[Guest deepthroatkiss]

I kinda stumbled into it I knew I liked to please but it wasn’t until after a few sessions with vers men that I knew I liked being a bottom. I then tried progressively kinkier things.

[subbytch]

14. I desired to be carried off, controlled, and used by the guys around me. But really understanding and accepting that was decades away. I scribbled notes about it. Imagined it. Twisted TV and books into 69 shaped knots around my secret, deepest places to give it some kind of hold. But it was the 80s. Homosexuality was still "wrong." AIDS was everywhere. Fearful faggots like me paid my secrets in shame.

It's taken decades to unwind that shame and embrace what I always knew.

[Kimberley]

When i was younger (begin puberty) i used to put on the panties, lingerie and high heels from my mom, when i found her vibrators and dildos, things get out of control. when used her sextoys i was fantasize about men that fuck me so damn hard in my ass and loaded me with al their cum. that was the moment i knew i was a bi-sexual bottom slut that needed real cocks

[hotguy02]

At 20 yrs old I was seduced by a 50 yr old daddy. He took all the masculinity out of me the day he first took my virginity and bred me.    Ever since I became completely submissive as a gay boy exclusive to him.   I'm 37 now and he's like 67.    He still breeds me 

[ErosWired]

When did I know? What a complicated, complicated question, for me. I think part of my psyche knew from the very beginning of puberty - I had thoughts of being overpowered by masculine figures (even a gorilla at one point(!)) and had thoughts of being manhandled by the much older boy who lived next door.

The trouble was, I was a laaaaaaaaate bloomer. So late. So late that, and I shit you not, I didn’t fully understand what homosexuality meant until I got to college. Imagine that for a second - imagine going through all of middle and high school with every other kid around you swimming in hormones and becoming very much sexually aware of themselves and each other, and being almost completely oblivious to all of it. One of my very best friends was gay and I had no idea. I did have a girlfriend, kind of, but he went FtM trans later in life so clearly what the hell did I know.

 I do know that certain types of guys, mainly jocks, called me a fag in high school. I had no idea what they were talking about, just that it was something I probably didn’t want to be. (In the 80s in Appalachia, it most certainly wasn’t.) maybe they could see something buried in me so deeply I wasn’t even conscious of it. I still didn’t become conscious of it in college, even though on a few occasions I would get random calls to my dorm room asking if I was gay. I always hung up on them.

Only at 37, after my marriage ended, did I acknowledge to myself that I was same-sex attracted. On my first fuck I bottomed. It wasn’t discussed, he just fucked me and I took it. And I absolutely loved it.

 I loved it so much that it shakes me a little to speculate what my life would have been like had some aggressive male introduced me to it as a teen. I feel pretty certain that I would have quickly become aware of my sub nature and probably would have acted on it heavily in college. That would have led to me being a veteran of thousands more fucks than I’ve experienced so far... or I might be dead from HIV. Impossible to know.

All I can be certain of is that at my core I believe I was born this way, meant to fill a role in submission to men who need to dominate a man like me.

[kinkysuBB]

3 hours ago, ErosWired said:

When did I know? What a complicated, complicated question, for me. I think part of my psyche knew from the very beginning of puberty - I had thoughts of being overpowered by masculine figures (even a gorilla at one point(!)) and had thoughts of being manhandled by the much older boy who lived next door.

The trouble was, I was a laaaaaaaaate bloomer. So late. So late that, and I shit you not, I didn’t fully understand what homosexuality meant until I got to college. Imagine that for a second - imagine going through all of middle and high school with every other kid around you swimming in hormones and becoming very much sexually aware of themselves and each other, and being almost completely oblivious to all of it. One of my very best friends was gay and I had no idea. I did have a girlfriend, kind of, but he went FtM trans later in life so clearly what the hell did I know.

 I do know that certain types of guys, mainly jocks, called me a fag in high school. I had no idea what they were talking about, just that it was something I probably didn’t want to be. (In the 80s in Appalachia, it most certainly wasn’t.) maybe they could see something buried in me so deeply I wasn’t even conscious of it. I still didn’t become conscious of it in college, even though on a few occasions I would get random calls to my dorm room asking if I was gay. I always hung up on them.

Only at 37, after my marriage ended, did I acknowledge to myself that I was same-sex attracted. On my first fuck I bottomed. It wasn’t discussed, he just fucked me and I took it. And I absolutely loved it.

 I loved it so much that it shakes me a little to speculate what my life would have been like had some aggressive male introduced me to it as a teen. I feel pretty certain that I would have quickly become aware of my sub nature and probably would have acted on it heavily in college. That would have led to me being a veteran of thousands more fucks than I’ve experienced so far... or I might be dead from HIV. Impossible to know.

All I can be certain of is that at my core I believe I was born this way, meant to fill a role in submission to men who need to dominate a man like me.

Thank you for sharing. That was incredibly honest and deep. As someone who’s trying to learn more about being the same way, I appreciate it.

[baldwin]

I knew the first time I had man to man sex.  I was in my early twenties when my best friend and I had sex.  He was the dominate one and lead me into getting naked and letting him have me.  I just did whatever he wanted.  I realized I liked being lead and not having to make an effort just let it happen.  He and I went on for a long time, I eventually became his "pet".  He passed away much too young but ever since I have been a submissive bottom.

[ErosWired]

48 minutes ago, subBottomKink said:

Thank you for sharing. That was incredibly honest and deep. As someone who’s trying to learn more about being the same way, I appreciate it.

The way you say that - “learn more about being the same way” - makes it sound as if I were further ahead along a path than you are. I’ve actually only been having same-sex contact for less than 17 years now. I wouldn’t say I’ve been actually consciously aware of my nature as a submissive (certainly in a BDSM sense) for more than 12. I didn’t truly understand my inherent role as a cumdump service bottom until four years ago.

 I constantly have a nagging feeling that I need to make up for lost time, that there were so many men I was supposed to have serviced in my 20s and 30s, and I have a deep deficit I need to try to correct. Rationally I know that’s nonsense, but I can’t shake the feeling deep inside that part of me is very much unfinished.

 I can feel that deep part of me very clearly sometimes, a core submissive drive. I use the word ‘drive’ because it drives me to do things I wouldn’t otherwise do, like go slut myself to anonymous men in hotels. I feel very distinctly that that part if me is incomplete - that it very, very much needs to be taken to a deeper level, used harder, devolved further. Sometimes I’m frightened to think what would happen if an aggressive, dominant man who revels in power were to discover my need, and command my service - I doubt I could resist.

And at the same time, I’m terrified that no such man ever will.