My First Year as a BB'er

[Hotload84]

I can’t remember when I started reading bbxchange.net, but I got hooked on it. Nor can I remember where I found the link for the site. But whenever I did start here, it turned me on big time. As I started reading the stories, I would jack off pretending that I was the bottom getting converted, especially if it were a gang bang or bath house. At first I didn’t see myself getting the gift. As a few have asked on the site “why would you want to get AIDS.” I wondered that myself. But I still kept reading and jacking off to the stories. Then as I was hooking up with guys, I realized that I wasn’t asking for condoms any more. I realized that maybe I was chasing the gift. But, I live in North Dakota, how many POZ guys are there up here anyway.

Well, anyway about a year ago, I got the flu. Tired, fever, you know the drill. Figured it was just an early case of the flu. Well then it didn’t go away. Went to the doc a couple of times. They couldn’t find anything. Then some intern who I could barely understand asks me "have you had any homosexual contact?" "Umm…Yes." "Unprotected?" "Umm…Yes." So she runs the HIV test. I had a follow up visit the next Monday. That was the longest week of my life. Couldn’t sleep. Couldn’t think straight. Did I actually get pozzed? What will I do now with my life.

So the next Monday, I go back into the doc. The intern and the real doc both show up. I knew right away, what they were going to say. ‘I’m sorry, but you are HIV positive’. They talked a whole bunch more. But I have no clue what they said. My world was turned upside down. They ordered more tests. Referred me to a specialist. But I still went back to work and finished out the day.

Those first couple of weeks were rough. I was getting depressed. Wondering if I should just quit work and let HIV win. Wondering if I would die by 50. So much to think about. Though I finally just accepted the fact that I was POZ and that there was jack shit to do about it. So I quit playing with others. I didn’t want to spread this. I mean, HIV is a bad thing, right? But yet I still kept reading bbxchange. But now from a different view. Now from a gifter, rather than a chaser. I realized that my life had changed.

So I went back out and found a guy. He asked if I would top him and if I bb’ed. I said sure. He didn’t ask me my status, so I figured if Clinton can use “don’t ask, don’t tell”, then I could as well. So I fucked him. And damn, dropping that load of charged cum up his ass was so fucking hot. I’d been turned into a gifter. There was no doubt about that. I fucked him a couple more times. Usually once I shoot my load I come down really fast. But one time, I was so horny I shot in his ass after 5 minutes, but kept fucking for another five. As I looked down at my cock, I noticed that the cum and spit being used as lube had turned pink. Guess I bloodied his ass. I still fuck him now. Don’t know his status. He doesn’t know mine. And I know he gets other cock as well.

So I found another guy as well who asked me to top him and fuck him. Sure. Said I only bb’ed. He said HOT. So I fucked him. Great ass. Have no clue if he is poz now or not. He still hasn’t asked my status. I won’t tell him anyway. So I have gone after a couple other guys. But the two above are the only two regulars. Or at least they were. Remember I’m in ND. Where until last year it was illegal for a man and women to live together if they were not married.

Well, there has been this guy who’s profile I’ve seen on many sites. Really hot looking. Into some kinky stuff. But I had always been afraid of him. He was POZ and only fucked bare. There is no way I wanted to take that risk. Well, life has changed. I’m POZ now so why not take a chance. I did. I hooked up with him. And he hasn’t updated his profile. He now has AIDS. Damn, is he great is bed. And what is great, we don’t have to worry about stopping to put on a condom to fuck. If the mood hits you to fuck, you just roll him over and go in.

He has done other things to me as well. He has introduced me to meth. Got my first slam last Saturday. He was gentle and gave me a small slam. He didn’t know how it would affect me. About 10 minutes in, I was said…we can do more next time. He just smiled.

Tuesday is the one year celebration of me being given the gift. He is stopping over. I’m going to fuck him. And he is going to give me a blood slam. Make damn sure that he is in me forever. So this year has seen a lot of changes. I went from being someone who just jacked off to protect others to a stealther. I’ve been chatting with a lot of neg guys who want the gift. Been working on setting some times up. See if I can for sure pass on the gift.

My only regret—I got stealthed. I didn’t know when it happened. I narrowed it to three guys who could have done it. My fantasy was to have a party with poz guys. Last time the new guy was over, we chatted about that. So he has to go to Chicago in February for grad school interviews. I may tag along. I will probably end up in a room, with the door open, ass up waiting for a guy to fuck me. No questions asked. No cock turned down.

To all the guys on the fence, just do it. The freedom is so much better. You don’t have to worry anymore. Take control of your life and make the decision as to when and how you are going to convert. We all know that bareback sex is the best, so at some point you know you are going to get it. So plan your conversion party now and have fun. I know that I have changed my outlook on life during my first year.

[ChicagoCumDump]

very hot story.....can relate to your buddy

[mike43]

Thanks so much for that it makes my decision to convert easier