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Rape is a wonderful thing. I've had the pleasure of raping a few twinks in my time... both conscious and unconscious unwilling boys. Only been legitimately raped once.... In fact, as I write I realise that, firstly, this is the first time I admit that I WAS RAPED TERRIBLY, RUTHLESSLY, no lube, no mercy. Secondly, this is why I am a moral-less rapist mself. My asaulting abuser was hard as a rock, raw, pierced, poz,.. i was handcuffed and very, deeply unwiling. I was not in consent of any single moment of the encounter once I was taken and he started using me ... Of course, it goes without saying that I very much wanted his diseased seed... but not him or his desired method of impregnation..... I despised, hated, feared and loathed every second of it: Screaming no, being slapped around, told to shut the fuck up and torn asunder until destroyed. Afterward I was truly greatful and horny as a beast for literally weeks. For a time I contemplated suicide. I a actually thankful for these thoughts, but also thankful that they diminished. I gained a grewt perspective on life, on sex, on bareback and on AIDS et al by staring death in the face an embracing pasionately and lustfully the corrupt, destructive facts of nature, especially human nature. I now subject myself very often to the most filthy, unspeakable and revolting fetishes and abuse: real time sexual (and other physical) encounters, totally void of any slef respect. A truly BEAUTIFUL AND ATRFUL RAPE is devoid of any respect neither party can have any sef respect and neither rapist nor victim could possibly hold any respect for the other, certainly not after the horror or rape. This lack of respect is tantamount to the ethical void from which rape emerges: a depraved void that is it in turn, often, creates in its deserving victim. A rapist (specifically a barebqck rapist) is deemed righteous simply by choosing to rape, a rightousness that exponentially increases if he is diseased and or poz, especialy viral, as this increases his damge and decreases the respect of himself and the victim. Similarly a victim is deserving of rape purely by the virtue of being abvailable and vulenerable to the sordid abuse of the rapist. I am very happy about these facts all. ... I've suffered many tragedies in life but none as physically, emotionally and mentally destructive and irreversible as the act of being taken in rape. In spite of this, and i some sick twisted way, BECAUSE of this., I utterly condone you and refain from any immediate judgement if your desire is to rape. I hope i is something you can/will feel open to discuss the practice of often. Welcome are your replies, especially condoning my attitude, dispespecting or even hating me. Hate me and disrespect me so I may keep my self respect as low as possible and my vulnerability as high as possible to degrade myselr embarqssingly, leaving myselr open to the utterly beautiful horror or rape. With disrespect, Cunt4loads

Decided to have a little fun one weekend and let loose. Contacted my dealer and got some molly... can't trust just any person nowadays lol. Thankfully he tests and caps my shit. Logged on to all my favorite apps and sites to see where i'd be able to drum up some action. BBRT, SCRUFF, ADAM and OF COURSE GRINDR! Checked in to one of my favorite hotels in Vegas(Caesar's Palace) , which doesn't require a keycard for entry. Decided to bullshit for a little and gamble as it was a bit early from my flight. Followed by grabbing a light snack. Once I was back in my room I turned on my iPad for my (bareback grindr profile) and left my iPhone on... sometimes when you're TOO direct about BB fucking guys get scared off lol. Hopped in the shower and cleaned out REAL good... when I'm rollin I don't know my fuck limit and think I can take 12" like it's 6"! As soon as I finished I proceeded to drop and listen to music to get myself in the mood. While scrolling the apps and sites a cute latino hit me up and we began to speak... normal chit chat... what you into blah blah... lucky for me he was driving near my hotel and decided to come up for some fun... he asked for me to be ass up when he arrived which I obliged. He walks in to my dimly lit suite and begins to eat my ass while he is getting undressed. By now I'm rollin and of course it feels like heaven and I am hitting my poppers moaning with pleasure. He then spins me around and slides his very above average leaking uncut dick into my mouth which got super wet once his precum mixed with my spit. He grabs my poppers and takes a hit and tells me to come to the edge of the bed. I tend to listen to almost anything when im fucked up ha ha. He sucks on my hole again and grabbed the lube from the nightstand and coated his big dick. He slaps it against my ass and pushes the tip in... I pushed back on it and hit the poppers again. Now im flying and he sinks in BALLS DEEP! He just holds himself there and moans... I caught a glimpse of him in the mirror and he had his cap backwards and looked so hot fucking me doggy style. We fucked in several different positions (from what I remember) and then he made me get on my back and he folded my legs sorta like a pretzel. He was really going to town on my hole which was super wet now and open but still tight. Without warning he slams into me and unfolds my legs and looks me dead in my eyes while he announces that he is breeding me.... That was SUPER hot! he stayed in me for a little bit longer before withdrawing. He cleaned up and out the door he went. I immediately hopped back on GRINDR and was able to find a hot European / spaniard guy who was a few floors below me. He was VERY direct and asked if I took any loads yet. I couldn't lie and confessed I had a fresh load and was looking for more. That sent him over the edge and within less than 2 min he was at my door. He comes in and I lead him to the bed. He spins me around and dives in my ass and tastes the other guys load. Followed by spitting on his fairly long but skinny dick to lube himself up. He asks if I have poppers suggesting i'll need it. I take two big hits and he takes one small one and lets it out quickly. I arch my back and he begins going to town on hole. I'm meeting his thrusts and loving all of it... then I feel the molly start to kick in again.. ya know the waves lol... and then I kinda blacked out for a bit. When I came to I was holding my popper bottle tight in hand while his forearm was around my neck and he was moaning and spasming into my now VERY full asshole. This guy got dressed in record time tho.. thanked me and was out the door. Still craving cock I logged on to A4A and had quite a few messages on there. A very handsome black guy around my age had hit me up and left his cell #. I like that.. shows they're serious about meeting haha! Being fucked up I sent him a text and thankfully he had an iPhone and I could see he was replying instantly! I already saw his dick which was a good 9.5-10" and thick like a red bull can. He decides to call me and we chat for a bit... by now I am pretty fucked up and had taken a few hits off my 420 vape pen. I let him know I am rollin and hi... which he's cool with. He shows up to my room tall AF. I must have missed that lol. I'm 5'6-5'7 and he was at least 6'3-6'4 and pretty muscular. Turns out he was a kisser.. which I normally DO NOT participate in lol... but he had nice teeth and very soft big lips. He slides a finger into my ass and begins to finger fuck me while his tongue is down my throat basically. Next thing I know im on my knees as he sits on the edge of the bed and he's feeding me poppers while he's undoing his fly exposing his big black dick. I take the whole thing in my mouth and slick it up with my spit. He starts taking off the rest of his clothes revealing his very decent body. His height really turned me on as he was standing tall and I was on my knees deep throating his big black cock. He seemed to really enjoy feeding me poppers... to which he notices my eyes are almost blacked out haha! He leans in and says we're gonna have some REAL fun tonight. Music playing in the background since the 1st guy off of my Mac.. and it finally switches to a mellow playlist which I hate when im fucking or rollin lol. I go to change the song and im bending over the desk with my knees on the chair cushion. He takes that opportunity to slide his big ass cock in my already lubbed ass. Even while rolling I felt that shit haha but it sure did feel good. I switched to a way better play list and repositioned myself on the edge of the bend on my hands and knees with my back arched. He takes the time to slick up his BBC with the Wet platinum lube that made it's way to the floor and was slightly leaking. He then applied a generous amount the my hole and tossed the poppers to me hinting for me to take a hit. Two deep hits and I feel him positioning to slide in again... my body gets warm and tingly. He must have fucked me like that for a good 30-45 min with the occasional withdraw and ass to mouth routine lol. Finally he tells me he's getting close and I tell him to breed me deep (thinking he would be my last fuck of the night) I start matching his thrusts and hitting the poppers again followed by my 420 pen. He grips my ass checks and begins slamming into me and taking it out very fast. I love that feeling bc it allows me to tighten my hole upon reentry and exiting obviously lol. That must have did the trick bc the next thing I knew he starts whimpering im cumming im cumming baby and my hole clamped down and his rock hard BBC. I swear he probably could have fucked for another hour but he had to head home for whatever reason ( I don't remember or care lol ) As I was laying in bed feeling AMAZING and starting to come down my grindr notification goes off not 1, 2 but 3x from guy who was less than 100 ft away. He must have been staying there too or gambling. He sent me a dick pic but no face pic bc he needed to be discreet. Sometimes that works... this time it did. He sent me a nice big uncut slightly tanned dick with full balls. He exclaimed that he need to breed ass bc he hasn't cum in a week and his GF is back home blah blah. I send him my room number and I swear he must have ran lol. I barely had time to piss and drink water! Opening the door I was surprised to see a late 30's handsome white guy with 5 o'clock shadow in my door way. He was just as tall as the black guy from earlier. He wasted no time and stuck his rough middle finger in my VERY wet, open and lubed hole while leading me to the bed. He asks if I suck dick and my reply was dropping to my knees lol. He notices my 420 pen and asks can he take a few hits... Be my guest lol. I swear when he unzipped and dropped his jeans time stopped ( or maybe it was the molly again lol ) his cock was so pretty and well kept. Manscaping is so important fellas! I begin working on his monster dick which smelled like he just left the gym... pretty hot. He grabs my jaw and tells me to hold out my tongue as he slaps his dick on it. He then blew my mind when he spit into my mouth! I was surprised but turned the fuck on lol. I took 2 deep hits of poppers and offered them to him which he partook in thankfully. Turns me on when a top can handle poppers! He tells me to lay on my back and puts my legs on his shoulders. He spits in his hang and lubes up his dick... he sank into me balls deep and just stopped moving. I went to adjust myself and he begged me not to move or he would cum... I couldn't help it and tried not to move but I guess my hole twitched and he yelled FUCCCCK and I felt the veins on his cock expand. He grabbed the back of my neck and roughly I might add. He tells me that's a week's worth of cum in there and apologized for cumming so quick. I was not complaining. 4 loads in the span of 4.5 hours.. shit I was in PIG heaven. He got dressed and left. As soon as I laid down I felt my asshole soaking wet. I used the cum from my ass to jerk my ROCK hard dick. After a long hit of poppers I felt myself getting extremely close. And just like that I shot all the way up to my neck. Couldn't have had a better night ! Fucking on molly is THE BEST!