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Part 11 is going to be slightly delayed. I keep editing it and re-editing, largely because the principles I establish above. The challenge I'm having is this - what happens next is the first of the nightly parties. By now it's clear that Day 1 is focused on football and general prep of my hole. If you're not in to piss, you probably won't care about the delay. The challenge I'm having is - the experience for the Dominants was way different than my experience. The Dominants, I later found out, had made these parties strictly invite only (again, I have no idea how they found the guys, but they had to be invited), and they targeted between 5-7 guests each night - a manageable number given the space. While they would make this abundantly clear for the subsequent nights, it was not clear to two of the invitees on Day 1. Two of the guys ended up knowing each other, did not understand it was "invite only", and in addition to themselves, brought 3-5 people each. So, and I'm guessing, the number skyrocketed from 5-7 to 11-17. According to the Dominants, another guest at some point left to use his phone in his car and also invited some friends, but Jacob realized he had done so and told him to call them off. From what I could hear, there were quite a few people, and it could have been easily near 20 people. Because there were established start-stop times for the party, this influx of people happened very quickly. This was the first of these parties, so I didn't know that anything was out of the ordinary, but I was a bit overwhelmed with how many people I felt were there - but still trusting the Doms and the process. (I'll talk about how I was being occupied in the story itself). I only learned this after the 6 days, but Alex stayed near me to make sure I was doing good (they never let me be alone or out of site during these parties), and Ethan and Jacob apparently pulled the two invitees aside to clarify it was "invite only" event and guests were not allowed. Fortunately, there were multiple cars involved, so the two invited guests stayed (along with one each of their friends), and the remainder left. From my perspective, however, I could sense a shift in the room. I was occupied (more on that in the story), but it got much quieter (not quiet) and the area felt less full. It was definitely something I could perceive, but I was otherwise occupied, but it did distract me for the remainder of the party, because I wondered what had happened - was I not attractive enough, were they grossed out by the fact that I was this submissive dude in this kink/football experience, did they think I was ugly? I went to bed thinking this and woke up the next day having let go of all that thinking, but it did influence the evening. So why all the editing - I realized that I had written the experience both from my perspective and the Doms perspective for the first time in a chapter. The reality is - I didn't know this was all happening until a conversation I had with Ethan 2 days after the 6-days, and then at the dinner we had about a week later. Writing it that way broke the principle of this being a 1st-person narrative, and the way it read was confusing. I couldn't quite figure out why I was confused reading it...then I realized I hadn't stuck to my writing approach. This might seem insignificant, but I did feel it read in a very confusing way. I've rewritten the whole thing over the last three days and now I'm doing final edit. I'll hopefully publish today, perhaps tomorrow.