subchubfag

I didn't have a choice, the stranger I lost my virginity to at 13 in that public bathroom basically just turned me around, lowered my pants, fucked me and bred me all in complete silence. I loved it! The whole afternoon I could feel how my moist asshole slowly dripped semen onto my underwear and down my leg. I felt so grateful to finally have received a man's seed deep inside me. I had finally been knocked up with that delicious liquid that I had swallowed so many times before. I was so happy. And after that first time, it was whatever my tops wanted. Almost all got carried away and bred me, mostly cruising strangers. Some others said they'd wear a condom and ended up "forgetting" in the end. A few outright wanted to use me and forced themselves on me, knocking me up because of my submissive nature. 3 of my 5 rapes so far have been bareback. Even those tops who have used condoms with me have eventually ended up fucking me bareback, at least once, some on the very second time at the same night. After that, I myself have started to seek getting bred and even sometimes I have begged. I still don't consider myself a cum dump, although I'd like to be one. I just think there are bottoms whose lives are dictated by the men they encounter. In any case, I feel there's nothing more exciting that to receive you man's cum inside. I feel it creates an unbreakable bond that lasts forever, even if you don't know the guy, even if you never see him again. You're forever his. I like that.

I agree with BoatmanLA, strangers can't really help you get to know yourself better. I appreciate the need to define yourself, your tribe and find where you belong, but in my experience, it's never a perfect/precise/ideal fit, so maybe just explore, try and see for yourself?

Black top and white bottom.

On 7/15/2013 at 2:45 AM, Bbikercub said:

In a way I feel like this is a way of me kind of trying to accept the inevitable. When I've been out clubbing and had a few drinks and there's a hot guy who wants to fuck me, if he rubs his bare cock against my hole I'll let him push in raw. I will always make sure he wears a rubber for a fuck but that first push in I let him have.

I want raw cock, I want loads I already know that. Maybe I'm just on the last stage of accepting that if I go down this route then there are risks.

I can relate to this soooo much. I always ask for a rubber (when/if asked)... but that initial push during foreplay? Man, I love it! Usually, it's the top fishing around to see if I'm game, but it's also a tactic to see if the top gets carried away.