michinnc

Thanks i69.

Please let me know if i need to put this post somewhere else.

I wanted to introduce myself and share more about me on my tumblr site and my Master's site if anyone wants to know more.......

I am the owned slave wife, used for the sexual gratifcation for my MAN and Master, Mstr42srv - http://mstr4u2srv.tumblr.com/

My name is Michael and i am 45 years old. i am divorced and i am now a fagwife to my Master. i am not with him yet but He is preparing me to be His slave and faggot wife. http://owndfagwife.tumblr.com/

thank you all bunches and look forward to being part of this community.

michael

Yes, i was confusing there. It's both. But sometimes what a person believes they want isn't what they really wanted, they just talked themselves into it. Other times, those cravings, and desires are real, and thedriving motivator behind ones actions. The line can be blurred at times. I do believe being addicted to bareback to be a case where the person talks themself into believing that is what they must have. Reading stories, and fantasizing over the type of bonding taking place, can cause that blur. Sort of like asking a christian, muslim, and buddhist why their belief is right. They typically can't disconnect themselves to examine their beliefs objectively, to say anything more than, because it is, or they just know.

If you examine your own motives, behind a desire, and figure out what makes you want that desire, then you can know if it's just something you talked yourself into believing, or truely what you need to be happy. My ex believed the only way he could have fun was to be drunk, and that those bottles had what he needed. His body knew that drinking would make him drunk, so he acted accordingly. But he had a good time without a single real drop of alcohol that night. He never could disconnect to see if what he believed he needed was in fact real, or if he had convinced himself he needed it. And he never believed any of us at the party that night when they told him nobody in fact had a real drink that night.

Knowing your own motives makes the difference. Did I make myself any clearer than mud?

yep........pretty damn muddy lol.

Thanks Bunches!

No this is not awful, you want to be with him so much, you'd be ok with being pozed by him if it happened. You've thought about the issues, and you know those feelings are real. I am actually envious, this sound like love. And love is one of those confusing emotional things that can never be strange. I just hope he feels the same kind of bond with you, and that you remain together for the rest if your lives. I've known many couples, gay, and straight that have lasted a lifetime. It makes me happy to see such relationships last. I would think everyone wants that, and some search for it , and never find it, or lose it,. I wish everyone could find such a relationship. Its unfortunate, I can't grant my own wishes. LOL

First off...thanks for replying strawcowboy! means alot to be understood by someone that does.

Since meeting Him i have had to question many things......i have never as happy as i do since meeting Him. I know He wants the same bond with me and wants me to be His. i know i am lucky.

i am also glad that the way i feel is ok and not something weird.

Thanks Bunches!

Personally, I think it is a fantasy. Most people can talk themselves into believing anything. I've had a few raw loads over the years, and still prefer to top. And I will wear a condom if requested, even though I prefer bareback. But I would also guess if you have an addictive personality, it could happen. Mean trick I once played on an ex, who drank way to much all the . I switched the rum, and vodka and gin for water. He still got drunk on coke and water. The mind is a powerful influence if you believe something to be true, or possible.

Ok...just kinda confused here.....you said that you think it is fantasy yet at the end of your comment...you said this:

The mind is a powerful influence if you believe something to be true, or possible

Where do our desires and cravings come from? If the mind and the idea or thought of something or even the experience of something (which would be over intense more than likely)......Turns us on....i mean really turn us on....to where we sit and watch videos...read stories....read forums while......just thinking about what it would be like to really become bonded to someone that deeply.......

is that just a fantasy or is it who and what we really are and just coming to see it is true?

Thanks Bunches!

straycowboy,

i am willing.......i want to be together with Him. i have been thinking about it and think there is no risk really. If He breeds me then it just gives me what turns me on so much all the time. To be together with Him.

i don't mean to get weird or strange.....i have not really been able to talk about my feelings much and i hope i can express things here and not be thought as awful.

I have read here and other places that once you go bareback there is no turning back because you will crave and addict it so much your frenzy just gets more intense and feeling so very wonderful.....is that true or just a hopeless fantasy?

Thanks Bunches!

What if the Master you are with has HIV and you don't?