NuttinmyButt

This is an interesting topic.  I’ve seen some interesting comments, some of which really resonate. My attraction hasn’t really changed although my standards have somewhat slipped with age LOL.  Just like when I was 17 I am attracted sexually to 18 - 25 or so smooth twink tops with decent dicks.  It hasn’t changed tjroughout the years and now I am almost 64.  

What has changed is that I spent a lot of time in therapy and I know myself better.  I still love getting fucked but I’m not horny 24/7 and don’t need it all the time.  That means that unless it is someone that really turns me on I won’t go out of my way for sex. 

The other thing that has changed is that I have grown to like myself I want more than sex, I want intimacy   

 I have met some wonderful young men when they were just legal.  Some I have played with, some I ended up not playing with.    

Maybe I care too much, but unless it is a completely anonymous encounter I don’t want to do something that isn’t in their best interest   I find young guys are often using sex in their search for something other than sex   If they are looking oking for a friend, a mentor, someone to validate them, I don’t want to have sex with them, I would rather try to give them what they are really looking for    

The other piece of the puzzle is that while my mind says I want to get gang fucked by hung young guys 24/7, the reality is I like sex, but at this stage I like one on one intimacy even more   

Like the origimator of the thread I find it somewhat frustrating that the age of the guys I generally find attractive to me mostly don’t have their heads in the space I am in   I find they are looking for sex and not connection   I have met some wonderful young guys over the years and I won’t give it up  

there are some who want sex with intimacy  

Found a little unexpected free time. Heading to east side club. Will Be Butt up and blindfolded taking loads. HMU for room #

Actually today was a great day.  It wasn’t my last load. It was my last 6 loads.  I hit the East Side Club in NYC. I was there for 5 hours and got fucked by 7 guys. 1 didn’t want to get off yet so I took 6 loads.  The problem with getting loads is that they are addictive.  I am already thinking about going back tomorrow. 

I hate when I go to the baths and lose fucks cause I won’t let them fuck me with a condom.  I am thinking of taking a syringe and baby oil (which I believe weakems a condom) and injecting some baby oil into the condom packet.  Do you think it will work?  How long will it take to weaken the condom enough so that it will break?

I have a few:

taking anonymous loads in dark places

gwtting my nipples roughed up

being tied up

castration

I hate when I get to the point that I am desperately horny for loads. Standards go out the window which is I guess why they call it NO LOAD REFUSED.

I prefer anyone who wants to fuck an anonymous load into me

And our gain !

I’ll take any size as long as it is raw.  I have taken thicker than a beercan and I love those. I also once made an exception to my no condom only rule. It was the only way I could get the guy with 13.5 to fuck me.  Wish he had done me raw. 

If I have a choice I’ll always go for the biggest and/or thickest. 

I can’t host

There is an obsession with bath houses. Some men are just more reserved. For some bath houses are a great fantasy but finding one man to date and play with works better.  I’ve done both. I rarely bathhouse anymore but I find the intimacy and one on one connections are better for me 

Married Neg Bttm - love getting anonymous loads when I can get away. Love dark places, bath houses and putting my ass up against glory holes.  Take all cummers. HMU to set something up.  NLR

Definitely cum in my ass.  Anyone.  Anytime 

Interesting conversation. I don't know what age I put in my profile, But I'm about to turn 61. I started barebacking in the late 70s in New York City where I live. I took loads at the old St. Mark's baths, I took loads at the Adonis theater ( Google  A night at the Adonis if you want to see what it was like), the ramrod, 55th St., Playhouse and virtually every other porn place and back room there was.  I also did some traveling, and when I did I would spend at least one night in the bath house in whatever city I was in, I  made repeated visits to P house in Orlando.    Every once in a blue moon I would let someone screw me with a condom, and every once in a while I would ask status, but from the 70s until now I pretty much exclusively barebacked and I've had more than 1000 sex partners.  I keep saying that by all rights I should be dead, and yet here I am negative and now on prep. Yeah, there are guys who barebacked through the entire aids epidemic and emerge negative. I'm living proof.

I've stumbled across this thread and had a lot of feelings about it. First, a little about me.  I'm 60 and I have taken thousands of loads since before anyone even knew there was such a thing as HIV or AIDS.  I go back to the real bathhouses, dark rooms and porn theaters, like the Adonis, in NYC. My feelings have changed over the years.  There were periods I refused to get tested. There were periods I ask about status and periods where I didn't and periods where I actively took poz guys loads because it was hot.  

At this point in my life I have very many thoughts that I think came to me as a result of age.

I am fortunate I guess to still be negative. I also have a bit of survivors guilt because by all rights I should have died of AIDS back in the early 80s. I don't really know why me, but I guess I feel whatever the reason I was meant not to convert. About two years ago I went on prep after wavering. There is apparently a small group of people from Eastern European descent that are supposedly immune.  I wondered whether I was one of them and whether going on prep would affect that, but I decided to go ahead. 

I no longer get the quantity of loads I used to. It has become less important although I still crave them and don't turn them down. I know barebackinf was my way of searching for intimacy. I'm glad that over time I have discovered emotional intimacy as well. 

Maybe im jaded by feeling I should be poz, but it breaks my heart when I hear that neg guys shy away from dating poz guys. I find poz guys as open if not more so than neg guys. In some ways I'd rather date or sleep with a poz guy. They seem to be able to be more intimate in some ways. I feel worse for the neg guys who don't date or play with poz guys because they miss out on some very special men. 

Dude, as a top you likely are neg.  many guys are actually versatile and that's likely how "tops" got poz. 

Anything is possible.  By all rights I should be dead. 

I wont used condoms, and although I have been on prep for about a year or so, I have taken thousands of loads since the 70s including some I actually knew were poz. I am addicted to cum in my ass. 

Funny thing, after bottoming bare for thousands of guys including in the early 80s when there was nothing to keep HIV under control, I am still Neg. 

out of fear I didn't test for years.  If I am neg, you easily can be too

On August 5, 2012 at 2:03 PM, rawTOP said:

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It happens often. I had a kid come up to me in a bar. He was over 6 foot, broad shoulders. I assumed if he was drinking he was 18. He was a 15 year old run away. Being in NYC I got him to an agency that works with gay youth. I stayed in touch with him over the years. I met up with him once or twice over the years when I had occasion to be in St. Louis where he was from. He had been pozzed by the time I met him. He died about 2 years ago. He was a great guy and I miss him.

sublondon, it is my understanding that banding is one of the most painful and dangerous days to have it done. It may work on animals, but for humans it can be a short-term play thing, it really isn't the solution for castration. The best solution is cutting.

Bear, I understand all that stuff. As it is I am on testosterone for other reasons anyway. And while it is difficult to get it done, there are cutters out there.

If anyone in NY...well it is something I have been looking for

For that reason I love backroom sex. I just wanna know about a guy's dick. I don't care about the rest. I often will only hook up and go to a guy's place if they will make the place real dark so that I can't really see them. I just walk in and drop my pants right inside the door, bend over, take their load and leave. Sometimes I see the guy afterwards, but I prefer not to. I find it extremely hot never seeing the guy. The problem is that I also have a romantic side and after the hot anonymous sex in the dark, every once in a while I feel like I really would like to make out, but seeing the guy ruins the scene for me and once I see a guy, I won't do them again.

It is different if I am dating and looking to meet the man of my dreams, but for hot sex I don't wanna see him.

Call me a fool, but besides being a slut, I am also a romantic and love a good love story. Can this one end with "happily ever after?"

I can't wait to be listed on cumdump. Yes, I am in NYC, w60s off b'way. I saw your post on rawtop about sex with friends that said "So the moral of the story is, if you want to be my fuck buddy, just stick to sex – be a hole for me and nothing more. Or, if you really want to get to know me, that’s fine – just realize the sexual part will probably die." I thought to myself, how cool, if it can be friends, I can get to meet someone I think is interesting and never have to worry about any of the physical stuff. It takes all the pressure out of it. Sometimes there are people you just think you want to get to know.

By the way, is the cumdump operational ? And, I'd love to buy you a drink sometime. I really would love to meet you.