marcoPolo

Same here, I will definetly ask my ID doc to put me on med

You guys know me so well..all day I was thinking about the future. I will let all that worry go and concentrate about the present. It looks like you guys have managed your life well so I'll try to do the same

The only thing I can say is, don't panic. You're still in good shape, right? Nothing has changed that overnight. You're still you; just gotta take care of it, go to your appointments and follow their recommendations. Personally, I've acted crazy yesterday, I went through the same 'shaky hands' and regretful phase for about a week. Take it one day at a time. You have another appointment to confirm your test results. Until then, keep doing what you're supposed to do every day (work, activities, going out etc). Continue to eat well and sleep. If you don't feel well (depressed, no sleep, etc) go see a family doctor in the meantime. You'll be fine.

You're right, I should just relax and just follow the regiments. I'm scheduled to see my ID doc tomorrow

I've been reading the comments here and I knew my day will come too. Thanks to this forum I can actually feel calm but my hands are still shaky. I'm a little bit disappointed and regretful. I'm going for a second test at the CDC clinic. What are the chances my second test will return positive? Also, is the CDC gone control my life now?

I think in the eyes of straight people, which I'm assuming your trying to dignify, they see both your type of gay and this type of gay the same.

I don't want to sound naive but I don't think 'most' guys would lie about their status. I do ask a head of time-I don't wait until I get in bed- pretty much before even meeting him. If they're hot, the case most of the time, we just do something else.

I know most poz guys are the hottest and roughest but I'm too broke and lazy to face hiv. I probably will just die if I get infected.

I had a 3sum at a dog park..at night of course, but one dog came to pick up his toy ball that landed near us. The dog gave me a weired look and run back to his owner or someone.

Your doctor gave the same advice that the first two doctors I saw did. It makes me think he is not up to date. All the new research and articles indicate that there is no advantage to waiting and every advantage to starting at the earliest possible time. I was 5 months into it when I started. I've been undetectable for a year this month. I realize a lot of guys fantasize about bug chasing and gift giving but the reality is it's your body and this virus is working against you right now. It is trying to kill you. Why on earth would wait to fight back? I think you should see another doctor, and be sure he is an Infectious Disease Specialist. Nothing hot about dying.

True, but you don't want to kill or destroy all the weak hiv virus population and be left with the Spartans of hiv.

i agree with bobbie.

a straight guy? i wonder why you came to this website (no offence met) and not another gay website. are you really straight?

I disagree because I consider my self gay with no intention of being with a women. However. There are times where I I see a girl with a nice body and think of fucking her. The feeling is short lived and I haven't act up on it

In lames terms, monogamy is a commitment to starve together, which builds a strong emotional not physical bonding. The question is are you willing to starve physically?

If you look at some animals for example some birds mate for life but some just fuck and leave. So I personally like fucking around but part of me seeks monogamy. I like the idea of giving everything to one person.

I think this thread should win an award cause you guys are very honest-- with a little bragging but all in all very unique. At this point, I'm really exhausted living a double life, too much pretending. My friends, my family and coworkers have no idea what I do before work and after work. I usually get up 3hrs early to get on with one of my fbs. But it does have some sort of adrenaline rush which is why im having doubts about coming out.

I've was a virgin for 23 years so I payed my dues.

Wow nice topic man, same here. I mean blow jobs are just headaches to me cause I can stay hard for 45min without cumming. The poor guy's jaw can get sore. However, there are two things that's been working for me: one thing is stop watching PORN and try to jerk off by utilizing your mind. They said you should see improvements in less than 3 weeks. Also, try pre jerking ahead of time so you can meet him half-way.

I love young guys, its just something about their skin and baby face and when they cum. Every time im with an older guy I feel like im getting molested.

Definitely. I've been on both side and I really get off from inflicting pain. It just gives me a boost on my ability. So, when I bottom, there are times were I just fake pain to turn the dude. I just stretch and grab the bed sheet, or hold on to something. It really gets off guy off.