Thank you for all who replied, it's given me a lot to consider and think about.
I'm not worried about getting addicted to bareback sex, I know it'll be hard to go back but I generally have a high level of self control and I wouldn't want to put myself in risky situations often,
But... I don't really want to put myself in risky situations at all. I know I get a little paranoid at safe sex and diseases, so I can't even imagine how I'd feel for 3 months if I did this. I'd be afraid until I knew for sure. So ultimately, I think I'll wait it out.
This is just difficult because It's something I think I should experience, and something I want to do, but alas the risk just isn't worth it for me. I'll have to wait and hopefully one day find the right person to do it with.