Btm!

Do you have a gay-friendly doc or are you with a doctor that you feel comfortable with?

My advice, drop the atripla. Go to a gay friendly doc and tell him that you were likely exposed to HIV, in fact you're certain that you were exposed and ask for real pep.

A good gay doctor will be understanding and welcoming. Tell him that you were scared of becoming poz and took the Atripla because it was given to you. I think it is very important to tell a doc about atripla. He will need to know. But dont be afraid.

Gay doctors see this stuff commonly. Gay men(me included) are known to do some pretty crazy stuff from time to time. Don't let that discourage you.

Find a doc or call your local gay orgs. They will help you find a good fag doctor.

My doc is a flaming fag. I love him dearly. He takes great care of his patients.

Also, you may have some symptoms of depression too. Please find a doc. Keep us updated and feel free to chat here..

Thanks, but I don't have any Doctor. That would have been my first source for help. I'm not living in my native country right now, nor do I have medical insurance. In short, I'm alone save for an internet connection.

I can only hope for whatever insights might be shared on here. I know I was stupid to put myself in danger but I felt safe, and didn't expect this. The situation isn't good and I just don't know whether to give up now or endure it for as long as I can.

Thanks for your responses guys. I was stupid enough to take drugs at a party which made me more than a little hazy. I knew there were barebacker guys there. I'd told them their attitude was fun, but was clear that I don't actually do it myself. I was happy to watch, maybe even play a little, but that was it. Nothing bare. No fucking.

I felt really funny after a while and later learned that while I was slumped and hazy, I'd been injected with crystal meth.

Things are still a little hazy, but I know that two guys fucked me, one more than once, and were using words like "breeding" "poz" etc etc.

I was barely conscious, but I know that much happened for sure.

I am now back where I'm living in a non-English speaking area, not in my native country and with no Dr./health insurance etc. and don't know where else to turn for advice here.

I can take Atripla for PEP that somebody has given to me, but I'm having a massively difficult time with the side effects.

Long story short, I don't see how I can last 4 weeks. I'm in shock over what has happened, and on the pills (I'm 7 days in already) I am very rarely even lucid, never mind able to take care of myself. I think the more immediate danger is of me - in the hazier moments - jumping off the roof or something.

I keep thinking if I can just try and tough it out for even another week, perhaps I'll have reduced my risk of infection enough that I can just stop and get a little sanity/perspective back. I just cannot find any studies or information that talks about anything other than 4 weeks of treatment.

I wonder, if I can't last 4 weeks, am I just wasting time and pissing against the wind already, or is 2 weeks better than none?

Will spare details on this but I've been exposed to HIV and I am taking ATRIPLA as PEP.

I am having an extremely difficult time with the side effects, don't have Dr.'s or anyone to talk to where I am currently living (I was lucky enough to get the PEP in the first place) but for various reasons I don't think I will be able to take it for 4 weeks.

I have been about a week already, started about 16 hours after the exposure(s).

I cannot find any information on statistics etc for people who have been exposed but taken less than 4 weeks' of PEP.

Does anybody have any information/guidance? Can 2 weeks' PEP still reduce the risk of infection, or is it kind of all-or-nothing?

Apart from the obvious benefits of bloody flow, stamina etc - one thing not brought up is how you see yourself. If a person is carrying a few extra pounds but is physically very confident and feels good, then surely that will show itself physically against someone who is perhaps fitter but less body-confident.

Oh, and coincidently, RAWtop's favourite position happens to be one of mine, too!

He's never discussed it, so if he were then it seems he would keep that private. It seems a bit unfair to second guess and speculate on his health, especially just by judging a few pictures. He might be tired, stressed or they just happen to be less flattering pictures than others.

Nor do I think that HIV men necessarily look unhealthy anyway. You really can't expect to tell just from looking.

It might make an interesting album to share some of your favourite pictures on here?

I hope whatever study uses this site for examples and observation notes that this is a website which depicts an extreme fetish. The men here are sharing ideals of the most extreme taboo and fantasy - and that this is not at all exclusive to gay men , nor is it representative of "typical" gay men.

I'm uneasy with the idea that anyone who doesn't use a condom is a bugchaser, or that most gay men want STD's and AIDS and are into stealthing, that somebody might get from this site. This site is less about barebacking, and more about the most extreme taboo fetish.

I also believe that - for quite a number of people on here - what they write about, and how they feel/behave in reality, is very very different.

It got me in the next street..... Spitting distance - very accurate!

Just honest and direct. It doesn't necessarily have to be some guy showing his open arse like the channel tunnel, but a face picture works just as good.

Likewise, whatever he's looking for - just needs to be clear, direct and honest! I'm always baffled by guys I see posting poetry, pictures of clouds or Lady Gaga lyrics etc etc. What an earth is that going to achieve!?

I love the control that you would have in this scenario. I find it very hot!

I've got a t-shirt that says "Bareback" in binary. It takes a true geek to figure that one out! The idea of a T-shirt with a black light biohazard symbol sounds pretty cool.

That's fun. I would never wear something that screamed "BAREBACK", but written in binary sounds interesting (particularily in a dark room! )

Obviously, most people here a group of cum-crazed whores! But when you can't get any/have to fuck safe/masturbating etc etc , does anyone here like using Spunk lube? Like genuinely enjoy the texture/feel of spunk too?

I think any kind of relationship - 'open' or otherwise - can work, so long as it is honest. You need to try and get over this and just be honest right away. Constantly lying to him and then changing your mind about what the truth is - especially when there is no reason to lie - is going to grow very tiresome, very quickly.

He will end up not trusting you at all, even when you are telling the truth, and that would be a real shame.

Sounds fun to an extent. Playing around with the concept of 'blackmail' is just another part of control play, which can be very hot if done right...

I doubt you're alone in this!

I wonder if you're giving it time to heal properly. I had an anal fissure once which left me devastated (probably from being too rough, not enough lube etc) and it just kept tearing and opening up. I appreciate your pain!

All I did was use some lube for when using the toilet and gave it PLENTY of time to heal. Probably months. Start very slowly again, think of it as losing your virginity again! It will be galling, but you need to heal properly...

Sounds an incredibly hot idea, but how long exactly would you be tied/left for at a time? How long is the trip? You are going to need water, food and 'cleaning' at some given point!

Brilliant idea though!

That's sad. He's cute but a hypocrite.

I know I'm getting off topic here, but presumably they're both tested and in an exclusive relationship here. I don't consider that scenario (assuming that is the case) to be the same as men going out there deliberately having unprotected sex with strangers and even trying to get diseases.

Never heard of this fella before, but I feel kinda bad for him. He was only trying to do good (in his mind) and it seems like a private moment in his relationship is being publicised and used against him.

21-32, especially 24-28. I do like older guys too but get a bit more picky with them. Pink boyhole at 21 and up is pretty much irresistible to me (and probably many other tops), especially once the very youthful "baby" look blooms off and the cock hunger sets in more seriously. Luckily I've found that many bottoms this age understand innately they are in their anal prime and devote themselves almost exclusively to bottoming at this age, often for older tops.

Very true!

Horribly fake. Nick dick though.

There are plenty of professional porn stars who are genuinely big shooters.

The only way the Catholic Church will take a step forward is if the new Pope takes a big step forward off the balcony. SPLAT!

I suppose, if nothing else, you can take heart in his "anti-condom" message...

I've thought about this a lot. Has anyone had rape charges filed against them for not pulling out? I imagine a case like that could go either way and would be heavily dependent on jury selection.

I do not believe anybody could press any kind of charger - rape or otherwise - if it came down to a simple point of "I asked him to pull out". If you've willingly offered your hole to someone - particularily in some sleazy circumstances - how on earth could you prove that a} you asked them to "pull out", b} He heard, understood and agreed to pull out or c} that he intentionally didn't pull out.

Frankly, playing so intimately with strangers or playing raw just relies on trust (or throwing caution to the wind). Once you've let someone in or put yourself in that situation - it's pretty much down to your partner what he does with it.

I agree that having anonymous, unsafe sex with strangers is not very responsible or going to encourage any poz guys to volunteer their status.... but am I totally naive for believing guys who have online profiles - such as bbrt - and declare themselves as neg?

I just really don't imagine it's very common at all for guys to lie about it when they're barebacking. There are so many guys who are poz or don't care about status, I cannot see there being much benefit to a poz guy knowingly lying and pretending to be neg. Am I being naive in thinking that?

Paul Stag. Anybody know his status? He makes references to "converting" holes when advertising - but obviously his job is to provide fantasy for people, & I don't know if he's ever spoken about HIV or anything publically.

He's an incredibly hot fucker either way!

www . ukscallylads.com

I've always held that there is a massive difference between two people who are in a loving relationship together, and two people who are simply stuffing body parts into one another.

You have your relationship and your love, and that isn't going away - but can enjoy the random, meaningless sex too.... Great! I'd guess that after fucking a FB for so long, you're starting to feel a little off-put by it's regularity. Perhaps it almost feels like you're blurring the FB/relationship distinction if it goes on too long.

I don't think that this is weird at all. You're just keeping the random, meaningless fucks... well, random and meaningless!!