ZonovX

Love my fat ass used as a urinal. Reminds me of what pig I truly am. Haven't taken chem piss yet. Would love to try it.

Anyone taken ChemPiss??  Would love to know how much hotter that is!!

ZonovX my double entendres were not meant to kill anyone, you may have had a higher learning to use such big words but they really are not necessary on a sex site. An addiction is something serious, in my opinion at least and I took it as such, stopping cold turkey never having had the appreciation for the natural herb colloquially refered to as '420' so stick that in your double entendres and smoke it.........LOL

Ok, I think my higher learning has done gone and let me.  I didnt understand a word of this. LOL 

Good to hear! as for the treatment, keep up with it for now.  I know more than a few people who have fought cancer before and chemo wrecks your body.  I can only imagine what its like while going through immune system reconstruction at the same time.  It may take years for you to feel normal again after chemo, but stick with it.  Things will improve, and glad to hear the treatment went well!

Luckily(?) I couldn't tell the difference between the cancer treatment and the HIV treatment or if I was sick at any one time which was causing it. As for now, my white's are still low, but seems to be getting better. Very slowly, but better none the less.

Wood,

Thanks for your support!!  As of about a month ago, I am CANCER FREE!!  However, back in december they found an issue with my bone marrow and it not producing the cells, mainly neutrophils, that I need to fight infection on my own.  I have been having near weekly injections to boost these numbers. Neither my cancer or ID physicians know what is causing this and say it is 'probably' due to the chemo. Regardless, it doesnt seem to be getting any better, so I keep getting the shot and keep on keeping on. :-)

That's the kind of fun I like!!!

No because there is a vaccine for Hep A and B. Go get them both if you don't already have it. Hep C is the one we have to worry about. I had a potential hook up who was poz who told me was Hep C positive as well and allowed me to decide. When he told me his meds weren't working and that is viral load had shot up without explanation, I had to tell him I appreciate his honesty, but I will have to pass. That was a classy guy in my book. He didn't have to tell me.

Please do not assume you will not get HepB because you have taken the vaccine.  I took the vaccine, as well as the booster they are now recommending, and I still got HepB.

I use and have had good success with trimix injections.  You inject the compound directly into the penis (much easier to do than it sounds and almost painless) and gets your dick hard as a rock in about 20 minutes and stays hard for several hours depending on the dosage.  It does require a prescription but unlike viagara and other ed drugs, works only on your dick and doesn't have all the side effects of many of the other ed drugs.  I read an article not long ago where AARP reccomended it.  You can get it from one of Dr. Hornsby mens clinic but is pricey.  I'm going to try my urologist and see if I can get it cheaper.  Here is one link you may be interested in: http://trimixinjection.com/

and another link: http://www.excelmale.com/showthread.php?402-Penis-Injections-for-Hard-Erections-TRIMIX

Thanks, DudeLiquor.  I will check them out!

I agree with Jamie85!!  I'd be too afraid they would pull out, and that would definitely ruin the whole damn thing!!!!

Awesome story!!

Great story, bud!!

Wow. Great to know I am not the only one who feels this way. I couldnt care less if a top touched me or did anything at all to me while we play. I want it to all be about pleasing him.  I much prefer to get his cum in my mouth or ass and then slowly jackoff later after I(he) has left.  Much hotter that way, to me.

Have had ED for years. Before my diagnosis, it was no trouble getting a script from the doc. Now due to all the meds, they won't give me any. I really would like to feel a firm hard erection again. 45 is to damn young not to have some good boners!!! anyone know of good alternatives that work?

Well, something I have just recently found that helps me with clean out is apples. I am sure it goes to the fiber aspect. I usually eat one to two apples a day. I Notice diarrhea is much less frequent and that when I evacuate it is firm, all comes out, and other than a very small amount just to get any stragglers, that's it.

I also just saw a few articles online saying douching was not a good idea. So I try to use as little as possible now.

Just switched to Triuveq about a month ago from Truvada and Isentress. I had a few evenings of some mild upset stomach, then it was gone. Very happy with it.

Seaguy,

Personally, I think there is enough hate and negativity in the gay community in general, and the poz gay community specifically, that we don't need to call others 'nasty obese troll'. I am not judgemental by nature, and personally I like it 'nasty', I am 'obese', however I am not a 'troll'. If you don't care for 'nasty obese trolls' then don't play with them. But why add hate and name calling? Personally, you are not my type. But you don't see me calling you 'skinny boy bitch' or the like.  Just think before you label someone, cause I guarantee either now or in the future, others will consider you as 'nasty' and a 'troll' if not 'obese' as well.

Whorepig, your double entendres are killing me!!  LOL.

TigerMilner, you are a hottie. Even hotter now that you quit. I stopped 15 years ago, two weeks prior to Easter. I was a four pack a-day smoker. I smoked the last one in the pack/carton and have never had another one since.  However, since diagnosis, and recovery, I have found an appreciation for the natural herb coloquially refered to as '420'.

I think for me getting hit with cancer and HIV at the same time made it totally different for me. Growing up, it was always 'the C-word' that got people. HIV wasnt prevalent or even discussed. I almost exclusively barebacked, so I dont guess the HIV diagnosis really surprised me. The cancer, however, did.  I have attempted suicide twice. Once just prior to diagnosis and once in January. Both times, I was sick of being sick. I am much better now, on my ARV's and antidepressives religiously. I am not out of the woods yet, but each day is visibly better and healthier.

Bbsaft,

I hope this finds you with us still. I am not as knowledgeable as a lot of the men on here. I am simply living with HIV and can only relate to you and others my story. The choice to go on meds is yours. Just as the choice to bareback or have unsafe sex was.  Please consider though that you are infecting others and contributing to the medical problems you do not want to be part of. I was diagnosed in May of 2014. Up to that point, i occasionally thought about becoming 'poz' but never really gave a shit one way or the other. For most of 2014 up to diagnosis, i was having hot and cold spells, night sweats, tired, just didnt feel good. My first and only HIV test to that point in my life had been at 17 for the military.  On a Saturday, i ran to town and made 2 quick stops. When I got back home, I felft like I couldn't catch my breath. After an hour, I went to the ER where they started treating me for a possible heart attack. I was 44 yo. In running all their tests, they found three masses in my liver. They transfered me that day to a bigger medical center where I was diagnosed with Lymphoma, cancer. I stayed there for about 5 days before they found that the cancer was also in my spine, hips, femurs, lymph nodes, stomach.  With it in my spine, they could not treat me. I was very fortunate, as one of the premier medical institutions in the world was less than two hours drive away. Mayo Clinic.

Once I got to Mayo, they did their own thing with testing prior to starting me on chemo for the cancer. When they did, they found I was positive for Hep. B. At some point in the past, I had had at least one HepB outbreak and didnt even know it or get treatment for it.  That caused them to do the HIV testing and I was positive. In less than a week I was diagnosed with Cancer and HIV. What a load to get hit by.

My initial testing showed that I had a CD4 count of 16 and a VL of 109,000. They immediately put me on Truvada and Isentress and started my chemo. From then until a month or two ago, I spent more time in the hospital sick than I did out. My VL went down quickly on the meds, but my CD4 stayed where it was. More than once in this time, my family did not think I would live, nor did I.

However, I am still here, and it is solely because of the medical community and the great physicians who cared for me. I would not be here writing this had it not been for them.  I have no clue how long I was positive prior to finding out. I would guess a while. Prior to being diagnosed, I had been in the hospital over 10 times for surgeries, rehabs, etc not related at all to HIV.  I would gladly take all of them rolled into one than go throught the last year of my life again.

Since the initial test, I have been diagnosed with VRE, CMV, Hep. B, MAC, HSV1 and multiple fractures of my spine. I do not work now, rarely leave the house, and survive on disability. While HIV may kill you in the long run, without meds, it will be something far more mundane that does you in. My original ID doctor told me that as long as I took my meds daily, my diabetes would kill me well before HIV did.

As of tonight, I am on Triumeq once a day. I feel good, I am no longer sick daily, and I have had ZERO side effects from any of the three ARV's. I do still suffer from depression and other non-HIV related diseases. My CD4 was just tested and it was 266. Second month in a row greater than 200. I have also been undetectable VL for 6 months or so.

Bbsaft, if you are adamant about not taking meds, please give my condolensces to your family. It will not be a pleasurable experience for either of you, and you will lose the fight. Or non-fight in your case. Also, please have the decency to inform your partners ahead of time of your status. Let them make an informed choice, whatever that may be for them. No judgements from me.

I would never wish this disease on another person. Since diagnosis I have not been with anyone that has not known well prior to any sex that I was positive. Some have chosen to have sex, some have ignored me from then on. That's fine. At least I know that since diagnosis, every partner has been given a chance to decide for themselves.

I pray you are still with us, and started your treatment long ago.

For those who read this that are debating treatment, don't. Get the meds!!