psubigman

[Overly confrontational post removed.]

OK...so I've got a question. On sites like this or BBRT or any of the others, what does "versatile" actually mean? Does it mean "I can top or bottom equally well" or does it carry within it an implicit connotation that "We must flip flop in any encounter"? I realize that "versatile bottom" really means "I really only want to bottom but if I have to top you to get your dick in me I'll do it" but the plain "versatile" is unclear to me.

I'm going to be staying overnight in Madison, WI on Wednesday, September 30 and would really like to "entertain" some tops. Will be bringing my blindfold, but no condoms. Please cum meat me!

I think my fave is Brian Hawks a.k.a. Shawn McIvan. I know he's a vintage porn star, not current, but I love his blond surfer stud looks, his big dick, and his entire tattoo-free body!

Why? Because I'm fat, always have been, and to get a guy, particularly a gay guy, to even touch me, I had to make certain compromises.

It's preferable to think all the authors are sociopaths wanting to kill? Really?

I don't think he barebacks (or at least I've never seen a clip of him doing so), but I'd love to see Connor Maguire seeding a lucky bottom. Hell...I'd love to BE that lucky bottom!

Two nights ago I finally felt well enough to get fucked.  I hadn't actually set out to find a top; instead, I was, as usual, just looking on the various sites.  On A4A, a fellow started chatting with me, and eventually he suggested my favorite, a quick pump and dump.  Well, he persuaded me to get ready for my first fuck in four months.

As agreed, I left the front light on, the door unlocked, and the lights off in the apartment and waited on all fours on my ottoman.  Eventually the door opened and my breeder walked in.  I heard him removing his clothing, and I also heard his slow approach my upturned ass.  I felt his hands spreading my cheeks as he aimed his seven to eight inch cock at my hole.  I had pre-lubed, but he needed lube up several more times to get inside.  As I said, I hadn't been 'had' in four months!

He worked his way deeper and deeper and until finally he got all the way in, all the time remaining completely silent. Occasionally, he'd tap me on my thigh, indicating I should move my legs in one direction or another, but he didn't utter a word.  

I heard him spray something and then put a paper towel next to my nose.  I assumed he was offering me poppers of some sort, so I took a huff.  

The mystery man kept thrusting and eventually I could tell he was getting close because he asked "You want my poz load?"  He asked the question several times, and each time I groaned "Yes."

He filled me with his six-day load, pulled out, dressed, and left.  Hot scene!

Has it struck anyone else as odd in porn, particularly in what I'll loosely call "fetish porn," that after the "actors" get naked, they go back and put their boots back on? Seems non-sensical, even for porn!

Some of you on HIV meds may recognize this particular quandary. My cocktail of meds for "IT" are epivir, norvir, atazanavir, and zidovudine, one of which warns about constipation while the others warn against diarrhea. Constipation has won out consistently. While I take the necessary inducements (colasce or miralax), I seldom feel comfortable, let alone empty.

Assuming I could find a top and actually feel like getting fucked (the discomfort frequently takes away that desire, btw), I have a question that I can't really ask my female GP.  Where does the blockage generally occur? That is, how long a cock could I take without him hitting something unfortunate? (I realize that everyone's body is different, but in general). I would still do my best to clean out, of course, but some thoughts would be welcome. (Especially as I'm heading East in mid-August for a function and would like to make good use my expensive hotel room!)

I've got to say that your "daddy" sounds like a complete and utter asshole.

I normally wouldn't write one of the "yeah, me too" notes, but I'd love to read about the Cobra and Batman again...when Batman brings the Cobra his mask

Connor Maguire

Sounds like not just the cumdumps are afflicted with "selfishness," actually.

From your description, he does seem a bit schizophrenic about things. I could understand wanting to keep a purer thing going on if he (and you) were really committed to each other. But since you're both slutting around, the whole "Madonna and the Whore" thing doesn't really work. I'd say your only real course of action is to sit down and talk about it up front and openly.

Well...reading your stories on here, I understand why I could never catch a load from you when I lived in PA

I noticed, upon reflection, that as I got closer to having to go to the hospital where they did "the test," I was having trouble getting it up and could only manage it every fourth day or so. There used to be days where I'd wank (I like the British term!) 4-6 times. I think I've had one orgasm since mid-March. No matter how horny, the hydraulics don't work. [i'm on metoporol too, borderline diabetic, and on 4 different meds for IT] I kind of wish I could at least jack off, but nothing that involves getting a substance out of my body is working right. #1, #2, or cum.

Not exactly this, but the rapid expulsion has happened to me. I drank and drank and drank. (The guy must have had a bladder the size of a melon!) I left and could barely get home before all of that piss came out of my ass in a rushing torrent. All that acid must "get to" a drinker.

I prefer short sessions as getting fucked hurts me. I seem only to do it for the intimacy (of a sort). I was under a guy once for well over an hour and just couldn't take it any more. I figured he must have cum a couple of times already and thought that was enough. He said he hadn't yet and went for another 10 minutes. It felt like my bladder had been bruised. Maybe if poppers didn't give me a migraine the only time I've tried them, they'd help.

Damn, Sleazy Brit Boy...could you be any hotter?!

I would bet a small camera case might work for this. They usually have a strap and are small.

Neither of the posted links seem to work and I can't find it in whatever group it's been placed.

I'm already poz (on meds). A hot young guy I've chatted with is unmedicated with a high VL. He wants to pump a couple loads into me to "give me his strain." Aside from the fact that he's young (20) and built, he's very confident in the toxicity of his cum. I'm wondering what this will do to me. Please no erotic stuff or the praising of evil or the fetish impacts...how will that add to my difficulties dealing with HIV (persistent lung infection that is making it difficult to go anywhere)?

I'm going to staying in Columbus OH on the nights of the 17th and 18th of May. Anyone who would like to breed me in my hotel room, give me a shout. Hope we can "meat" up!

They can be fun to read about (even if a bit pathological), but the reality isn't so hot. I don't know if this experience counts, but here goes.

Over a decade ago, I was a grad student and used the faculty member's office to chat online (gay.com) and to hook up. Well at some point, some guy got pissed at me. He told me he knew who I was, what I was doing, and going to blackmail me to teach a lesson. Desperate to stay in grad school, I complied. The money was "only" $75, but he came to the office and skullfucked me (I have a easily triggered gag reflex at the best of times and a great fear about suffocation). He then made me lie on the floor while he pissed on and in me. While he didn't fuck me, it was still very traumatic.