kotcas

my neg one, narrow, willing to be breed,  and no prep ever

happened to me several.times, I could stop as said, just the tip or few strokes. It seems I have a good self control

at 7 i was annoying my 12 yo bro who was studying locked in his room. He opened the door all.at sudden,  pulled me in and forced me to suck his hard dick for a minute or so. No cum, just a submission game. I.was so angry that i told mom afterwards, but atm I was feeling too embarassed to finish the sentence, and mom pretended not to understand.

On 11/15/2023 at 11:55 AM, breedingstall said:

Thats not a sound method at all,  I ejaculate half my load before  my orgasm starts.  Be prepared to take the load  or stick to condoms.  once you go bareback, theres no going back.

half of load? cool! actually cum or precum? 

On 11/13/2023 at 4:47 PM, Madrid-undectable said:

Same here...I precum a lot...and even more when horny

dunno why, but the thought of an anon dick that oozez a lot makes me lose all.inhibitions

16 hours ago, JimInWisc said:

@kotcas What are you looking to accomplish with counseling?

to feel in no need to ruin myself

11 hours ago, BootmanLA said:

I would suggest that if you had bad results with counseling, try other counselors with the specific request that they be sex-positive.

If the problem was that you were counseled to look more into why you deliberately run risks and you didn't want to examine that, well, agreed, counseling isn't going to help you.

Because the point of counseling isn't to tell you what to do, nor is it (in general) to support you in whatever you choose. It's to help you learn how to examine behaviors and figure out what's going on. If you don't want that, then yeah, counseling isn't for you. If you do, but you weren't succeeding, it sounds more like a mismatch between counselor and patient - which can be rectified.

tried out 4 counselors with different approaches. The sole outcome is that I am feeling even worser and depressed. I know well what is counselor's task. It turned out that a mix of deviant behaviors are due to some past and present social stress/ptsd that, even explicated, won't help to overcome them.

I cannot say how much of disfunctionality I am aware of. Maybe there is much disfunctionality still buried somewhere that drives me to gel sleazy, or, subconsciously, I refuse to accept some bullshit psychologists say. I.e. they can't tell me: you're done for. They will tell me: you are always worth something, even if objectively it is not true.

On 10/3/2023 at 10:16 PM, norefusal said:

have u thought about discussing your attraction to risky sex w a counselor? 

i've had plenty of risky sex over the years and it's usually a in-the-moment decision and i then have to live w the possible results after. if it starts to repeat i change my behavior. 

but even your description is salacious: why do u gotta bb w a sleezy older guy? it seems like you're obviously turned on by the chance of gettin pozzed - hello, that's why most of us are here, so no judgement - but personally, the gambling w my own life wasn't sustainable. low risk is still risk. 

good luck w your personal journey but it would help to understand motivation imho 

your is by far the most conscious answer! thank you! I am being adviced by counselors for years with no avail so i shut them off

Damn! so interesting posting and links!

Thank you guys!

I am now on prep and so willing to test on cruising if guys will actually pull out as promised 😋

expecially if young boys with curly carrot red hairs and pale skin are priceless.

I often put some adv searching for money any young guy with carrot red hairs and pubic hair but with no avail

On 5/9/2023 at 6:12 PM, kotcas said:

With random I mean fast and uncomplicate sex, including also darkrooms and the like.

I am unsure among Amsterdam, Berlin, Barcelona or Paris. 

Or greek islands, or Mallorca, Canarias? 

I'd prefer young guys, the younger the better 

Any clue,? 

Thank you guys

 

and any places where twinks shows of or twinks fuck show? I'd love to watch 

thank you!  any clue about places to go?

With random I mean fast and uncomplicate sex, including also darkrooms and the like.

I am unsure among Amsterdam, Berlin, Barcelona or Paris. 

Or greek islands, or Mallorca, Canarias? 

I'd prefer young guys, the younger the better 

Any clue,? 

Thank you guys

On 4/3/2023 at 6:23 PM, PigBoyDallas said:

I started sucking off classmates when I was 13 and it soon moved beyond to getting fucked. One guy joked I was the town bicycle...everyone gets to ride it. Most everyone knew I was gay and willing to suck cock and it stayed that way through high school. I was pretty much a full on slut and open about it. And I wasn't the only guy who was. I loved nothing more than upper classmen wanting to give me a ride home in their car knowing it would end with me me taking their cock and loads.

I am so jelaous!!

On 3/22/2023 at 8:19 PM, ellentonboy said:

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On 3/22/2023 at 8:19 PM, ellentonboy said:

I started in 7th grade at an all boys Catholic school, nothing too serious at first.  Senior year of high school I played high school and would hang out in the locker room, which was shared by guys who played all sports.  Again, just giving head when no one was around.  After graduating the summer before I started college I took some courses at the University I attended and that gave me access to guys who had dorm rooms that were upper classman that were taking summer courses.  It was a great way to have privacy, get to bottom and by the time classes started for me officially in the fall I had a number of guys I could count on who  would want some head or a piece of ass.

High school and college were a blast for me.

so damn hot

On 3/22/2023 at 11:18 PM, Tsjul said:

That's me, I had to hide my transitioning and budding breasts back then, I was quite feminine، so I guess you can imagine the bullying and harassments I had been through all those years. 

 

I am sorry for what's happened to you.however i see on you profile that you like being an object for others. but at the time, how did you perceive the fact of being harassed by HS boys?

On 3/23/2023 at 7:28 PM, backdoorjimmy said:

I used to get hit up by "straight" guys all through high school, but it wasn't a lot of them. It was the same 4-5 guys every year, with a few exceptions. The older I got, the fewer the guys because the older ones would graduate and move on. I'm not convinced any of them were straight, and know for a fact that 2 of them were gay since they married other men.

so bad! sucking guys at school would have been a frat secret

2 hours ago, Nagato20 said:

I got started my freshman year of HS and by senior year I was definitely a full on slut. Sucking fucking getting fucked all of it with people from school and outside of it. College only made things better I fucked with my roommate an hour after moving into the dorm.

I bet that lately sex among students is much more easier than in the past, you are born on 1999 so actually far from my generation. nice telling!

sounds very interesting and sincere! nice that at least you had fun!

2 hours ago, blkboibtm said:

Was throat goat in HS LOL, didn't start fucking until was getting ready to go off to college. In HS while I having a sexual awakening but still to nervous to go through with getting my cherry popped it was a great outlet.  guys no matter what they say ain't turning down head man or woman especially if swallowing.  it started off with one guy, then some how it got around to other guys that I gave good brain, and had a good number of guys that were in the rotation, and pretty sure if I was ready I could got a few to try fucking.  Of course no one was admitting it, cause they all were straight and most either had girls, were popular with the girls, played sports etc. I wasn't out but I wasn't pretending either, but like always i keep my mouth shut.  In hind sight it wasn't hard to figure out who I was serving but they were the ones not feeding into the rumors afraid I would tell people about them.  In college it was a fairly regular thing to either suck off or fuck a classmate.  Guys are always looking for a hole to fuck, or drop their nut in, especially super horny teens that can use alcohol, or drugs to mask their hidden sexual desires.  

were you outed? did you choose who to suck or were you used to whomever it may concern?

I mean, I've heard that every high school/college has its gay boy who are pointed out as fag and would suck straight guys in the toilets or somewhere.

So bad that I hadn't heard about when I was studying, I was more straight but secretely I was looking for some fun like that.

Have you heard of something like that, or were you pointed out, please tell us.

please add me @c_robertsson

Agree. Young, fast fuck & bare load. If it would happen to me it would be hottest thing I could get

13 hours ago, cumbottom4use said:

This past weekend was Pride weekend in Atlanta.  So I felt obligated to offer my slut ass up, especially for the out of town boys.  I went to my favorite gay club Friday night that also has a darkroom.  I lubed up my slut hole and headed in wearing a pair of pink lace panties showing my ass cheeks, crop top, chain collar and arm sleeves.

I looked and felt real slutty, had a couple drinks, shaked my ass on the dance floor before heading to the darkroom.  Didn’t take long before guys started taking turns fucking and breeding my cumdump hole.  I sort of have a reputation there and collected 6 loads before leaving for the sex club.

My ass is pretty well known at the sex club as someone who takes all cocks and loads.  I was already filled with 6 loads and seeking more guys to fuck and breed me!  I went to the darkroom and climbed onto the fuck horse and spread my ass apart exposing my sloppy hole.  
 

I ended up taking 10 more cocks and a collection of toxic, bugged filled loads in my charged up slut hole 💦☣️🦂😈!!  My ass was totally wrecked but felt awesome.  Can’t wait to do it again!

so you have a good reputation as load taker. Good,you look also hot in picture. How come that so many guys at club are so eager to fuck  poz toxic hole? Usually chasers are very rare to.find.