terminallyCapricious

I've never cum once, I suppose I should be masturbating during sex but in that case I might as well do it on my own. It just tickles when the guy ontop jacks me off.

My family doesn't know I'm gay, much less that I've had sex - and I don't want them to know as Im very ashamed about it. Shame is what I mostly feel after sex.

I haven't had sex many times (3 since I was 17 and took it up the ass only once) yet I always felt remorse and guilt afterwards. Am I the only one?

If you alreadgy know that you are gay, do not get forced into a straight marriage because that's what your family expects. Generally that plays out this way. You will end up cheating on your wife with guys, feel horribly guilty about it every time, swear off it, the urge comes back, and the cycle repeats. Eventually come out in your 40's, which usually results in a nasty divorce.

Don't worry, I wouldn't get forced into a straight marriage - celibacy is quite fine with me. And when I do get these urges, I simply jack off and they leave. I really don't find sex that great - every time I had sex there were rarely any moments I wasn't wanting to be home doing something else.

Plus, I'm rather tiny and not particularly strong, so if I have sex with bigger guys (as I tend to) they can easily overpower me and make me do things I don't to do.

I doubt you will stop having sex with guys and I'm sure that one day you'll be horny again and you will crave bareback sex. You are 19 and fooling around heavy with guys since you were 17.

No, as I said I'm quite done, the risk and the effort simply aren't worth the trouble. I'm still in the closet and part of a very conservative family and as far as they know I'm still a heterosexual virgin, which makes me feel fairly guilty.

I would honestly very much stick to my hand.

It isn't my only sexual encounter (I did have BB sex with two guys a year or two back), but I never came down with anything (other than crabs, I think, though it likely is just jock itch), and the fact that I tested neg proves whatever I may have gotten isn't there.

Still, I believe sex is way too dangerous. A condom could easily burst, and to be honest I didn't enjoy it that much - I'd rather stick to masturbation.

But thanks for the replies, I suppose I'm simply a hypochondriac with heartburn. That seems far more likely than me having HIV.

I'm 19 and I performed oral on a guy back in November. When he shot his load in my mouth, I was very worried, spit it out, and made myself puke. He informed me he was clean and that he wouldn't have had sex with me if he were seropostice.

In January - February I went and got tested at a LGBT center, which receives health workers every week from the local hospital to conduct quick HIV tests. Luckily they came back negative, on HIV as well as a plethora of other STDs.

However, a week after getting tested I caught a cold - which I think must have been due to the shit weather. My only problem is that ever since I gave oral I've had some sort of heartburn though this may be due to my making myself vomit + my diet of sandwiches.

I am very done with gay sex (and sex in general) but I was wondering if there is any likelihood of me having HIV?