[Closet Bi] line in the sand?

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Welcome to another week. Hope all are well.

This blog post is still concerned with events from the weekend but I didn't have time to blog them yesterday evening.

Firstly, having felt a little "disconnected" from the missus the last week or so (probably because of how much time I spent secretly on Grindr in her presence) it was good to spend the weekend with her. We had an early night on Friday and, yes, we had sex. Because it had been a while since we last fucked, I came far too quickly for her but she was very good about it. Saturday morning, however, I woke up quite early and was back on Grindr whilst still lying in bed having a horny chat with a guy I chat to a bit on there. The missus then started waking up by putting her legs over me. I couldn't help but finger her and fuck me she was wet down there and it wasn't all my cum from a few hours earlier either. When she's that wet it really turns me on as I know (a) she's well horny ( it feels great fucking a wet cunt and © because she's so wet there's reduced friction on my cock so I have better control. Anyways, I think I made up for my short performance on Friday night as I fucked her through a few uncontrollable shakes on the bed! And then as another was building she quickly adjusted her position and had me fuck her in the ass too which is where I eventually spunked. Hot. Majorly hot. So yeah, from that point of view I had a big grin on my face all weekend. She even picked up on it and teased me about it.

I do have other good news from the weekend too. The guy that messaged me in the early hours on Saturday morning when we were due to meet up at 11am at this place, seems real genuine. He did have a shift at work offered to him very late and he needed the money so couldn't turn it down. I felt a bit of a cunt as I'd had a bit of a go at him via Grindr saying if he didn't like me he should have said so. But he reassured me he's genuine and we've had quite a bit of chat since.

Remember, this is the guy who hit me up as he's well into older, stocky, bi guys. He's not a scally or chav or anything like that but he looked younger than his 29 years. He also isn't overly athletic in build or anything and has a bit of a small pouch going on but from his pic he just looks gorgeous.

He's also a cum whore and been taken raw loads since 15. A real submissive bottom who loves spunk.

Regular readers may recall I have a massive thing for bareback sex. 99% of my porn collection is guys fucking raw. Love watching it. Does it for me everytime. Hate watching men in rubbers. And as a result I've got such an urge to have raw sex.

To his great credit, this lad has reminded me he takes 6-11 raw loads a week, was last tested two years ago and was surprised he was negative, has a partner who also fucks around raw too and both are of the opinion what will be will be. He says back when he was 15, HIV wasn't known about, wasnt explained to him in school and having done it raw, it's too addictive to go back now.

Initially I told him I have a missus and we agreed I'd fuck him rubbered, pull out, cum on his hole, re-rubber and fuck it back into him safely. He gets his wish for spunk in his ass, I get to play safe.

But over the last 72 hours or so I've had a complete change of opinion.

I've come to the conclusion I want raw sex so much, it's gonna happen sometime I might as well do it with a guy who I find a massive turn on, hasn't pressured me into it etc. Normally my brain would be ringing out telling me he takes 6-11 raw loads a week and hasn't been tested for 2 years. But it's not. I'm cool, calm, collected. I've wanted to fuck a hot guy raw for so long, to feel his moist warm hole against my nob and shaft, that I'm not prepared to throw away this opportunity. I fully appreciate what I'm exposing myself to and I dont consider myself a chaser at all. I just want to experience raw sex between two guys really into each other without worrying about where to cum, or wearing condoms because someone said we should.

And I've been careful not to let the "hotness" of the occasion rule my head either.

If I catch anything than (a) it would be unlucky from a single fuck but yeah I agree he's higher risk than most due to his spunk whore nature and ( I'd have to deal with it and at least I'd stop worrying about it then and could have more raw sex!

But everything about this guy is just a massive turn on. He's been really great, not pressurising me and now he knows my views, Saturday is gonna be so fucking hot. I've told him I want him to spunk in him 2-3 times, piss in his hole too and see him cum on my cock, then sit down on me and fuck his own cum up his hole using my dick!

I'm hard just thinking about it.

I just hope the cool, calm way arrived at this decision remains with me this week otherwise I may have another clash of conscience before we're due to meet on Saturday morning.

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