Fuck - why did I wait so long !

[Aborne]

I’ve always known that I am a cumdump at heart. Maybe not in so many words but it’s always been clear. I love to think about cocks and balls and those fucking awesome swimmers. I can edge for days without touching myself and just lose myself drooling over the idea of that sperm and pulsating cocks shooting into hungry holes. 
 

I’ve always been an enthusiastic cum swallower. There’s never been any question in a hook up that I don’t want to see those tadpoles seeing open air. But despite being on prep, I’ve somehow never been able to take the plunge. 
 

Then last night I hit it off on Grindr with the guy working the front desk at my hotel. I don’t know what was different. But instead of leading him on or dragging things out I ended being super direct saying I really thought he was hot and it would make me deliriously happy if he could fuck me raw and cum in me balls deep. 
 

He said he couldn’t leave his post but that there was a bathroom in the lobby and he could sneak away and fuck me there. Again, so not like me. Sex in public. Meeting someone. I know this probably sounds pretty basic to most of you on here. But it’s something I’ve always talked myself out of. But jerking off hasn’t been cutting it. Not scratching my itch. 
 

So I did it. I walked straight into that lobby bathroom without looking in his direction. It was late and there was no one else there.  I went to the furthest stall and just dropped my pants and briefs with my back to the door. I fired off a final text that I was ready and wanted his load so bad. 
 

I heard the door open and suddenly he was in the stall behind me. I didn’t even bother to turn around. That’s the thing I didn’t really give a fuck what he looked like. I just cared that he needed to cum.

With my head pressed against the conrete wall looking down all I could see was his tattooed legs. Then he was inside me. Then we were fucking. And I realized that this strangers bare cock was inside me. That he was horny and hard and my hole was getting him off. I felt … euphoric. Knowing that my hole would be wrapped around that cock when his orgasm came. The power of that fucking orgasm inside me. And then he’d blast his load, his fucking sperm into me. I felt..right. It felt right.

And when he did blast his load, I was in heaven. Knowing those swimmers were burrowing their way inside me. This guy who I didn’t fucking know. Didn’t know his name or face but his dna was already owning me. That I had given him that pleasure and release, that the deflating cock and shuddering male breathing heavily behind me were a result of me - felt so simple and purposeful. 
 

I got back to my room with his load still in me. I don’t think I imagined that my mood changed. I felt calm and satisfied. Almost high. 
 

And now I’m just thinking about how this has been accessible to me this whole time. I’ve just been too scared to indulge. No more. Enough time and opportunity wasted. 
 

Honestly it’s cause of this board that I finally worked up the courage to be true to myself and grow past my own insecurities. I’m so happy I did. I’m already on Grindr see who I can find to continue this new chapter without hesitation.