Under Control (quick story and a question)

[jd13]

I went to Basement sauna in Manchester (UK) on Sunday – from midday to about 6pm on Sunday is the busiest time with over a hundred guys in, mixed crowd up for it etc. The short version is I walked out of there with 8 or 9 loads in my ass, and pretty much got railed, fucked and pounded in the dark rooms, private cubicles and public areas for much of the afternoon.

One of my first tasks when I arrive in a sauna is to try to get myself fucked publicly, partly because I love an audience, but also to let the crowd know I am a total bareback bottom. Been told repeatedly that I often give off ‘top vibes’ (whatever the hell that means), so it’s best to correct any misconceptions by giving my ass away to the first guy that wants it. Any guy. I don’t care who fucks me. It just has to be seen.

I spent a lot of time in the dark room, getting spit roasted over the circular fuck table by random guys. At one point two of us bottoms were getting fucked, and we kissed before I straightened up to lick his back, work my way down to his ass, and tried to get my tongue down there while he was being fucked. Tasted cum on the guy’s cock as it slipped past the tip of my tongue.

Another guy in a private cubicle asked if I wanted him to knock me up just before he shot his load into me. Of course it was yes. He thrusted deep into me, bowed his head, and with each cumshot into me kinda collapsed onto my chest. It was beautiful!

Anyway, the question I wanted to ask is this…

It’s been nearly three days since the last guy shot inside me, and no cum has made its way back out. That’s by choice: I always aim for full absorption, I’ve got good pelvic floor control to keep it all in, and when I get home I’ll lie face down ass up for an hour to keep the cum inside me.

…but those other guys’ DNA inside me, their testosterone and other hormones. It’s like I can feel them. I’ve shot my own load about five times since Sunday and I’m still horny, still wired, still ramrod hard (of body and cock). I’ve been to the gym twice, both for full-on, two-to-three hour sessions, and still ready for more.

I feel, very subtly, under control… like as the semen gets through into my bloodstream, leaking DNA and hormones into my blood and brain, it puts me under a gentle, but unmistakably firm control. A bit unhinged, a bit reckless and yeah: wired and ready for more.

Happens every time, and is something beyond the idea of the immediate jizzjoy, that 20min high after a guy cums in me. My temples tingle, my body shimmers with it, sometimes for days after. Sometimes I even catch myself moving in different ways, ways I don't necessarily recognise, just a for a few days until the effect wears off. I lean into these moments completely, and I love this sense of being under control that I do encourage it to intensify where I can.

Do other bottom guys get this after a multiple load event, or is it just me… or is it just psychosomatic? Does this read in a kind of insane way? Is it a circular thing, where I want to feel under control so I use the cum inside me as the excuse to drive a self-generated thing?

I’d ask: what the fuck is this sense of ‘semen control’… but I love it so much I honestly don’t even care if it’s not real…

Do other bareback bottom guys get this?