Being a father, but prioritising my dick

[SamBedManc]

Hope anyone reading this is well, if anybody wants to message privately about this issue then they’re more than welcome.

 

im a secretly bi (mainly straight) but bi male married to a woman from the uk and i have 3 kids with her, all boys.

ive got a good sex relationship with my wife but she works away a lot and im pretty much a dad full time working from home.

 

im a great dad, adore my kids, and I’ve got a circle of two best mates in similar circumstances to me.

Recently my sex drive is just off the scale. Doing anything I can to think about sex, watch porn or anything I can do. I even invite my mates round just to talk about sex, their wives, which I disguise in a joking way..  but when I’m on own if looking after them I just keep going to my room, closing the door, jerking off, playing with myself, whatever I can do. 
or when downstairs rather than focused on anything or playing focusing on being a dad I’m hiding the fact I’ve just cum in my pants thinking about sex, arse or anything.

im even inviting the odd stranger to the house or when out in the car stopping off at public toilets to jerk or whatever else.

 

im being a bit cautious i suppose in how im describing my behaviour at the moment… but why do I want to keep going like this? Because right now being a dad is a hindrance to wanting to just live life the way i want to.

 

any guidance?