Used condoms

[keysquirt]

I love raw and its all I want RAW IS Law after all.  , I sometimes think of suggesting condoms not because I want the condom but in the hope they stealth me which is of course  no benefit to me but I’d love them to think they tricked me and gave full control with no respect for me. I also do my best to keep any condoms guys use on me so I can wear it , fingers and suck it after. The one vthing I wish I could find would be even one guy that would get off covering me with mantises and loaded rubbers as possible and film  me chewing , then sucking then , fingering them in my hole and making sure every one can see me spearing every drop of cum and rubber on myself from head to toe. 
surely there are tops that would like to see it happen and be able to show everyone the video on what they had me do.

but of course I could never find anyone close to interested. I hoped to find a man that would want to be seen as the one that had a fag do that as much as I crave to show an alpha how pathetic I can be.

RAW IS LAW but I love the headspace of being filty cum trash 

has anyone looked or found and Alpha like that or is my only option to source used condoms and do it to myself