So recently my sex drive has returned with a vengeance, after about a year of basically low-to-no libido I thought my sex drive would never be at 30 what it was in my mid 20's, even though I know plenty of older guys with higher sex drives than younger friends I thought that's how it would work for me. I entered a relationship and was happy with love over lust. My interest in older men tapered to an interest in slightly older men, comparatively (Mid 30's to mid 40's/50) 

Over the Summer I had one or two disappointing hook-ups, one with a guy who turned out to be a tweaker. And those experiences where with me as top. I was in need of a fuck. So I got talking to a guy from BBRT, French, 38 6'3" shaved head, dark beard, good looking slim face  good body, hairy chest and shaved head. We'll call him Mika. Mika was into many of the same kinks I was, rough sex, ws, bb, etc. He seemed nice, sane, with a twisted side, the perfect meet, but for whatever reason we couldn't get in sync. He contacted me over Christmas but I wasn't feeling great about myself, not enough to fuck, and we fell out of touch for a few months. 

Midweek I was feeling horny and got ready for a random hook-up, something easy or vanilla to break me in. I remember being out of "fuck shape" one time before I went to Berlin, hooked up three times over there and every time it was painful(I prefer to bottom) However, in the past few weeks I had been prepping for it so I could actually enjoy a meeting and not just fuck to make porn for my future brain to masturbate to. If that makes sense. Anyway, not having a date turned out to be a problem because I was all dressed up with nowhere to go. I got on Grindr and wandered the local gay spots(all three of them) but nothing matched. I just about gave up when I remembered Mika, and hit him up on WhatsApp. He got back right away saying he had work to do and friends were coming to visit in the morning, but he'd try to get his work done quickly so that he could have a few hours "to get to know" me. I got excited, what would he want to cover in the few hours we had together, what was he like, what was he going to do? I remembered his profile on bbrt, it didn't say too much but his Recon profile gave me this to work with...

== Results from bdsmtest.org ==
100% Degrader
96% Voyeur
93% Exhibitionist
91% Owner
89% Primal (Hunter)
79% Experimentalist
72% Sadist
72% Rigger
64% Master/Mistress
59% Switch
57% Ageplayer
55% Dominant
 

Just over an hour had past and he replied with his location, a ten minute walk from my apartment, perfect! I head out to his place and wait outside a set of large black gates. He comes down wearing a hoodie and tracksuit bottoms, white socks and trainers, he looks French, sleazy, hot! I'm a little nervous, we head up to his place making small talk. He offers me a beer, his apartment is cozy, tidy, nicely decorated and super clean. We sit on a leather two seater couch and chat for about 20 minutes. Just chill talk, getting to know each other, good eye contact, not once mentioning sex.

Then he asks "So you like kinky sex?", "sure" I answer, only remembering we hadn't spoken in a while, that he'd probably forgotten much of our conversation. "And you're submissive?" "yep" "Good because I'm mostly dominant, I have a little bit of a submissive side but I like to top mostly" He gives me a flirty look with his eyes then inquires "Limits?... obviously no extreme pain, no blood, no shit" I nod "Sure. Other than that I'm up for whatever, I like to experiment so whatever you'd like to try on me, I like to get you off"  "Great" he says with a smile. He has the heating turned up, I mention that I'm warm and he tells me to take my clothes off.  I strip down to my boxers and we start to kiss, he's playful and dominant with his kissing,  sometimes pulling away, sometimes sticking his tongue far down my throat, getting me to suck his tongue and biting my bottom lip. We kiss for a few minutes. He puts my hand on bulge, I stroke his dick and feel him flex it. It's a nice girth. Mika puts his hands on my neck and pushes my head down to groin, so I put my mouth around the bulge and jerk him slowly, he then pulls his dick out, it's larger than average with a big thick head. He slowly strokes his from the base upwards until I drop of precum forms on the tip.  "Open your mouth and stick out your tongue" he says calmly, I comply. He starts smacking my tongue with his dick, and sliding the tip into my mouth.  I'm getting super turned on at this point, his pants and shirt come off, I strip. I start giving him a blowjob, he lets out moans that let me know I'm doing a good job, I try to take him all the way down my throat but the angle is slightly off, his dick curves to the left slightly. Before I have time to adjust, Mika grabs my head and forces his dick into me. It pushes himself hard against the back of my throat which hurts a bit, his cock eventually folds and, with what feels like a pop, goes down my throat, he lets out a loud moan, that's where he wants it. He starts to fuck, and I gag almost immediately. I pull away and flop forward, he then pushes my head to the floor, squeezing it between his warm socked feet.

"Fuck" I think. In all the time prepping to get fucked I never worked on my gag reflex. It took me back to New York and the first guy to properly fuck my throat, and how hard it was the first few times. I needed to push through, he hands me down some poppers to loosen me up and slaps my ass a few times as I change position between his legs. I take his cock down and the same thing happens, hits my throat, he applies pressure until it slides down deep and he fucks my face hard. What happens next is a mystery but after some rough throat fucking I gag but stay down on his dick. He holds me there until I get comfortable(as comfortable as you can get in that position) then starts to fuck again, slowly at first, then picking picks up the pace until he's pounding my face. I gag hard and stop with his dick still in my mouth, I feel my nose running, I look down and there are drops of blood on his dick and pubic area. My nose is bleed, there's also spit on his cock with blood through it too. "Shit what happened?" "Sorry, my nose is bleeding" "Oh, hang on"  Mika heads to the kitchen and comes back with paper towels "Here" I wipe the blood from my nose, it stops bleeding, I take a drink and get back to working his dick. He doesn't force me down, he lets me work it for a moment then he grabs both of my nipples and squeezes "Look at me"  I look at him, he stares into my  eyes as he increases the pressure, "Hmmm" , he pinches even harder, my nipples aren't sensitive at all so the pain was mild. He smiles then kisses me, leaning me back onto a towel he placed on the floor moments before. His cock head is pressed against my hole. He grabs both my feet in one hand holding my legs in the air and spits on the tip of his dick. I have a massive erection, I wonder if it will make it hurt more. He slides in, his cock feels super hot. He slides just a few inches of his dick in and out of my hole to wet the tip, before plunging all the way down. I'm surprised at how  deep it's hitting me, I start breathing heavily, he starts to fuck me. Before long it feels amazing, he puts his hand around my neck "Yes!" I think to myself; "I'm in for it now" but Mika doesn't apply pressure. I try squirming a little under his hand but his grip wont tighten. He seems hesitant to choke but every once in a which he'll grab my neck like he's about to. It's a real dick tease.

I'm flipped onto my front and fucked hard on the warm wood floor for a few minutes straight, his stamina is amazing. My knees and elbows are really feeling the strain, he fucks me doggy style before mounting me and pushing my face down to the floor, his hands pressing down on my head and back, really loosening my hole with his dick. I'm moaning like hell(I do this from time to time, I don't realise I'm doing it then get stupidly self conscious about it) He pulls out and stands over me stroking his cock "Come up". I raise to my knees, My cheekbone hurts where it was pressed to the ground, I open my mouth and starts to fuck my face again. It goes down a lot easier this time, I push through the gagging, we both snort more poppers and enjoy each other. Then Mika tells me he wants my ass, I assume he means he wants to fuck again, instead he lays on the floor, and instructs me to sit over his face and deep throat his dick. He slides his tongue in and out of my asshole. It feels incredible, he eats my ass good as I work his dick down to the root. After some deep throat fucking I come up for air. My face are pushed into Mika's balls, They dangle quite like mine do, but his are fatter. I slurp and suck them before he moves me to his asshole. His hole looks a little loose, as I start to eat his ass and make him feel good, he lifts his face from my hole to moan loudly, I think it's the first time he came for air since he start eating me out. I lap away, harder and deeper. 

We change positions I lay on the couch on my stomach, legs hanging over the edge, he starts fucking me again. He really speeds up and pounds it, I think he's going to come soon. We both let moan and groan, I feel cold drops on the small of my back. Sweat is dripping off Mika's forehead he looks like he's really enjoying fucking hard and relentless. I'm so comfortable by now that it doesn't hurt at all, and feels great. He licks the sweat from the  small of my back to the nape of my neck before sucking on my neck like a vampire, hugging me from behind. His dick stays deep for a while, as we kiss, he then pulls out and we take a little break. As we listen to music, and smoke some weed, he asks me what my experience with piss was? "I've tried it before, depends on the guy though. With you? Sure!" He drinks more of his beer, sips some and feeds it to me but slowly trickling it into my open mouth. Then Mika stands up in front of my, his dick hanging by my face, I go to suck it "Don't suck it yet, just open it?" I open my mouth and wait a few seconds. He wiggles his dick inside my mouth and hot piss gushes out rapidly. He fills my mouth, then holds his piss for a second to allow me to swallow. After three big gulps of mild beer piss, he pisses continuously into my mouth. I try to keep up with drinking and swallowing with my mouth open and only manage to spill a bit of it down my body. He's thrilled with my drinking abilities.  Reaching for the rubber ring on the table, Mika separates his balls and dick, and pushes his balls into my mouth. Forcing them deep until I gag, his balls really are a mouthful. After a moment, I start sucking his dick hard. I'm pushed down to all fours and he starts to fuck me again. Slowly, then stopping Mika asks "Do you feel that?" "Feel what?" I think, then I feel the warms and pressure. He's filling me with his piss "I had to get past that second ring"  It feels like douching, but deeper and much sexier. His dick feels hard to me, even as he's pissing. He fucks again, slowly at first, letting out moans like "That feels amazing" and "I love your ass" picking up the pace until he's pound my piss-filled hole. It's the weirdest sensation, I can feel and hear the pissing sloshing around inside me with each thrust. It's surreal and hot at the same time. Here I was thinking I'd find a nice vanilla lay, not being piss fucked by a sexy French guy who is a ten minute walk away. I felt like my ass was getting full, and I didn't want to flush piss out onto his floor, so I ask to use the  bathroom. I push out some of the piss but realise that most of it is too far inside to push out. I return to more piss, this time he gets me to drink it, he lets go, and I try to drink up. "Don't swallow, let it fill your mouth"  His piss soon over flows out of my mouth and down my chest and body. I guess that's what the towel was for.

As I'm kneeling there with  a mouth full of hot piss, Mika puts one hand behind my head and the other under my chin, sucks the piss from my mouth into his, then spits it back into my mouth. This is new to me. The piss hits the back of my throat and I swallow some of it "Don't swallow it yet" he tells me, and repeats this process another two times before getting me to gargle and swallow down the saliva and piss. Mika starts to fuck my throat again, I could tell by the way he was doing it that he wanted me to throw up the piss, I didn't exactly feel like throwing up on his living room floor though, so I held it in and came up for air every time I felt I had to spew. Mika lays me on the couch with my legs on his shoulders and fucks me deep. I get that sloshing sound and feeling in my abdomen again. He's fucks for a while then slows down. This is where the sex tapered off. Neither one of us came, he couldn't and I wasn't trying really. I felt we covered a  lot of ground for a quick meeting. Oh quick. I look at my phone and 3 hours have passed, I needed to get home. We finished our joint and drink and chat about threesomes, his love for cum play and cum swapping. I told him about choking, he seemed intrigued but tentative, he also didn't seem to know the right place to press for a blood choke. I tried to show him, the closest  he came to choking me out was when he pushed his two heels either side of my Adam's apple(it's quite pronounced) and choked me with his feet, unique I thought. We kissed a little more, then I asked if  I could use his shower before I left. Afterwards he led me down to the big gate, kissing a little more in the elevator, and saw me out. I felt truly fucked. And satisfied.

The next day my throat felt raped, and swallowing was difficult, my lips were bruised from my teeth, but the text I received made me happy.

"Having flashbacks from last night all day today Really enjoyed to finally meet you and how everything was so smooth but so hot at the same time Let’s definitely do it again soon"

I think we'll meet again 🙂