So, it’s been a pretty interesting couple of weeks. Was partying quite a bit on the weekends with that guy I met the day after the gang bang with rawTOP. He is such a sexy guy and he encourages my corruption very well, the small inner voice inside me pales in comparison to my desire to please him when we are together. So, there were two weekend days where it was just the two of us, him getting me spun out and taking his cock and loads in my hole. One younger guy (than me) came by and my Top bud fucked him and then the new guy topped me and bred my hole. He had to take off for a wedding or something. I have never seen anyone puff a cloud like this guy; a sign that wow these guys are probably really hooked. He was Latino and pretty sexy. Then the following week just before I arrived to the house I get a message saying he had someone else over, "just to give me a heads up", I got there and it was just my buddy, lying on the bed clothed and reading a book, an Ethel Waters biography if I am not mistaken... So I asked where the guy was and he said he wasn't sure but should be on his way. Now, I guess he assumed the guy would arrive first, but that is the first thing that happened that night that sort of made me do a double take. I asked if it was the black guy the Latino guy mentioned the previous week. Latino boy told me "He has a huge cock and will destroy your hole", which honestly didn't sound that entirely appealing if it was meant to be taken literally, which is typically how I take things. Never been very good at assuming people are speaking figuratively. Anyways, TopBud (the poz white pnp guy from previous blog) said yep, and I said OK. We smoked and finally the BlackGuy showed up. As he started undressing, TopBud asked if he brought the "green", and BlackGuy said something about the "white", which I then said "Green? Oh you mean like pot?" They laughed at my ignorance and the partying and playing began.

As BlackGuy was pumping my raw hole, I told him he was my first black top. He told me he was actually only half black, other part of him is Israeli. Ok, but either way he was my first big black cock, even if it’s diluted. It’s not that I don't find some black guys attractive; it’s just more or less the fact that I am naturally attracted to other white men typically. I am getting better at switching off that preference but really for me there is nothing better than a nice big white cock (or cocks)! Unfortunately, TopBud was sort of being left out, I wanted him and BlackGuy to take turns breeding me but he was off on the other side of the room eyes into his book. I think in hindsight there was more than meets the eye going on there, but I don't know and at this point it doesn't matter anymore, but I will get to that soon enough.

BlackGuy pumped a load into me, then TopBud gave me one and then shortly after that he says he has another guy coming over. I thought he meant another top, which would have been awesome, but nope, it was this 30 year old annoying tweeky dude. TopGuy had mentioned something about a gag, jokingly, and when the 30y/o got there I was completely in agreement. He was talkative, needy, smoked like a fucking chimney, and was confrontational towards me being he was another bottom. It went from a fun mindless fucking session with two tops that wanted to cum into my hole to an awkward experience for everyone except maybe BlackGuy.

TopBud, seemed distraught for some reason after a while, and I couldn't get a straight answer out of him in any way about what was bothering him beyond a few statements about hosting and supplying favors to people and hitting a brick wall. He then said he was going to just "shut down the party" soon. I was kind feeling badly for him and decided maybe it would be best to just take off and let him have his space, obviously to switch out the present company for some other guys, I may be naive but I am not stupid. I think he was kind of pissed off about that. I got the impression when I left that he might've intended for me to stay while he wanted to get rid of the one or both of the other two guys.

I went to another friends place, the same guy I met a month before that got me into the pnp scene and who I’ve been seeing every weekend after partying with TopBud. He had “quit” partying the same weekend I started to, which I really didn’t entirely believe but maybe it’s true. I kind of got the impression he just was partying in the bathroom for whatever reason. It seems like everyone I’ve met that parties actually has a connection to each other, which is something I’d rather not even get into honestly. It is what it is, I always respect honesty and they’d get a lot further with me if they just said outright what their goals or motivations are, but whatever, I can put it all together on my own eventually.