I've had a profile on this site for a while, going from peaks and valleys of activity. On January 1st, 2012 I wrote, posted, and deleted this blog post:

I'm a virgin who is scared of STDs. When I found this forum it was by accident when I was investigating bug chasers. The idea that people would be into that terrified me. Why would I want to get a disease that could kill me? All you need to do to protect yourself is wear a condom, what's the big deal? To my surprise when I read a story about a guy going to a party to purposely be infected, I loved every word. He was stupid, reckless, and a total pig. I didn't want to chase and I still don't, but I want to be a slut. The desire to take loads and thank a top for his precious seed grew every time I would stalk this forum, which has been pretty much everyday since the end of May.

I don't want to be dominated and used as a cumdump, I NEED to be. I don't know how this happened, but the idea of taking loads is too seductive to ignore forever. Am I going to bend over for a line of tops to use and abuse my hole tomorrow? No, I can honestly say that's not going to happen. But in a few months? A year? As shocked as the me from before this summer would be, I generally hope it isn't long before I feel my first dick go up my ass as a hot daddy has his way with me and I take my first load.

I'm not a virgin anymore, but I'm not a cum dump either. I still need to be though. Its all I think about. Whenever I think about sex, I think about being shared with men I've never met before as my boyfriend pimps me out. I fantasize about pushing my ass up against a gloryhole, and getting fucked by the tenth anonymous dick that night. And I want men to rape my hole as they tell me what a whore I am for poz cum. In short, I'm becoming a bug chaser.

I haven't been bred yet because I'm still scared of STDs. I understand the consequences involved with trying to get pozzed and don't plan on acting out on this fetish until and unless I feel I could completely handle them. But somehow I've gotten to the point where I'm willing to say yes, I am a bug chaser. It helps that this site provides a forum that allows men like me to talk about this turn on and being able to hear from others who understand. Maybe I'll end up chasing, or maybe I'll just try end up being a cum dump. Only time will tell.