A man named Bill Wolf introduced me to BDSM, S&M and FF and woud tie me naked to his 4 poster bed, finger my hole

with some crystal meth and use me sexually for a

few hours before his friends would arrive, then

he'd let them have me for a couple of hours.

sometimes 4 or 5 men would have me and the Tina

always made me crave more. Bill would experiment

on me trying new things. Bill offered to collar

and own me but wanted me to stop bareback anal.

when I said I didn't think I couldn't stop even

if I wanted, he said he wanted me castrated to make

me more submissive and obedient. I told him I

could not agree to total castration but would

agree to having one testicle removed. He agreed

and has my right testicle in a jar of vodka on

his trophy shelf. every time I shower, I reach down

to my scrotum and touching my empty sack (the

remaining testicle has shrunk quite small). My

remaining testicle became absorbed into my

abdomen and disappeared, then my scrotum became very

small. My testosterone declined, my tits grew

much larger and I began to feel like a nymphomaniac

who craved cock, cum and wanted to be fucked by every

cock I saw and wanted bareback more than ever.

Bill caught me fucking one of his friends

bareback and punished me after they left. we both realized

I was masochistic when the more I was punished,

the more aroused I became. He would stand on my

cock wearing boots, slap me, fist me, and apply

CBT in various forms. The more he did to me the

more I wanted to experiment and went online

trying to understand my cravings which led me to demonic

and *****ic sites which captured my attention. I

am a born again christian and believe god, *****

and demons are real, and the thought of giving

myself over in sexual ways has gripped my soul

for a long time. One of the dark cravings I usually

don't mention is being fucked by demons and

impregnated with demon seed and used for *****ic

ritual sex. Your alternate screen name brought

that back to mind and I can't get it off my

mind.

I'd be delighted to CRAVE your body and

follow you. I'm already very attracted to the way

you think about cock, cum, seed and breeding men

like me. I like when others are in control of me.

It usually scares me, but some vodka beforehand

usually removes my remaining inhibitions.