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I am making my way down to South Melbourne Market today, heading to Chef Hat. I’m planning to buy some plates, the ones with raised circular edges. I’m following Apple Maps on my phone, and it’s leading me down a direction I don’t usually take, but I get to my destination nonetheless. It’s on the other side of the market, and I make a few turns here and there, searching for parking. I find a spot—30 minutes only. I turn off the engine, park, and step out. I make my way toward the shop, confident I know the way, a podcast playing in my ears as I navigate through the crowd, until … I realize I’m on the opposite side of the market. I know where I am—I’ve been here before—but I was so sure I’d made the right turn. And now? The world feels like it’s spinning. My sense of direction has completely vanished. Worst of all, I don’t know where my car is. I think I parked near some apartment buildings? I look at my watch. Only five minutes have passed. I try to backtrack. I think I crossed two crossways, or was it one? Did I pass this coffee shop on my way here? I want to retrace my steps, but I can’t remember a thing. I wasn’t paying attention to my surroundings at all. A flicker of panic rises in my chest, but I keep it hidden, making sure I don’t look lost to anyone watching. I’ve always been good with directions, so why does it feel like a part of my memory has been erased, no matter how hard I try to recall I think about the fine I’ll get if I don’t move my car in time. I think about how, if my partner were here, this might not have happened—another set of eyes, another brain to remember. I catch myself breathing a little faster now as I wander from street to street. There are so many people. Too many. Then, somewhere off in the distance, I spot it. My car. The little blue Jazz I’ve had for 14 years now, parked neatly by the curb outside someone’s house. Relief floods over me as I realize it’s only two minutes away from the shop. If only I’d paid more attention. As I walk back to my car, it hits me: life now is just one person—me. It used to be my partner and me, doing everything together. There were advantages to that. It felt like we could accomplish anything together. Now? It’s just me, and I’m still learning to do things on my own. It feels jarring at times, disorienting, like today. Traveling was another thing he helped me with. I was never confident to travel on my own; the thought terrified me. I always worried about being lost in another country where I didn’t know anyone or couldn’t speak the language. I still don’t think I have the courage to do it on my own, if ever. I bet the world would spin just like it did today if I found myself lost and alone. But when I’m with someone, I can bounce ideas off them if we ever get into trouble. I’ll never feel truly alone, even when we’re lost. It’s something I’m realizing about myself today—I don’t fear being lost as much as I fear being lost alone. I know I’ll have to come to terms with this feeling until I can stand on my own two feet again. It’s going to take time. I’ll probably stumble a few more times along the way, but life demands it. Life demands us to keep moving, to adapt, to keep going.

Harvey was a tease. I met him when he was 18. My friend was trying to get with one of Harvey’s friends and we ended up going back to their place. My friend ended up hooking up with the other guy in one of the bedrooms and I sat talking with Harvey on the couch in the living room. He was a slender, blonde twink with soft features and great lips. I found out he was a total bottom. He straddled me on the couch and ground his ass on my crotch. “I bet you wanna fuck me,” he said. “Of course I do,” I replied. “Unfortunately that won’t be happening tonight,” he said. He didn’t say why but I told him it was cool. Then he leaned down and gently kissed me. His lips were perfection. The kiss was soft and gentle, he didn’t use his tongue for the first minutes, but then slowly introduced it. I have never gotten closer to cumming from just a kiss. We must have kissed for nearly 30 minutes before my friend came out from the bedroom and we left. I saw Harvey every couple months over the next year or two and he would always throw his arms around my neck and give me those incredible soft kisses. I was so ready to fuck this twink but he always had some excuse for not going back to my place. One night I was walking from one bar to another when I saw him approaching from the other direction. “I was hoping to see you tonight,” he said. “Why’s that?” I asked. He pulled a condom out of his pocket and showed it to me. He grabbed me by the hand and led me to a parking lot in the next block. We went behind a van that blocked us from the street and he started kissing me. He unbuckled my belt and opened my pants and took out my rock hard cock. “Wow, I should’ve let you fuck me a long time ago with this thing,” he said before using those gorgeous lips to suck me. He did that for about 30 seconds and then took the condom out and rolled it onto me. He stood up, turned around and started to undo his pants. And then his phone rang. He looked at it and said he had to take it. It was one of his friends needing to leave. He said he had to go and I told him I could be quick. He smiled, gave me a kiss and squeezed my cock and walked off, leaving me with a condom wrapped cock poking out into the night. I pulled it off, zipped up, and went on to the bar. A couple years later it was my last night living in my apartment downtown. I decided to make one more trip to the bars. After a couple of drinks I was ready to leave and I ran into Harvey. He gave me one of those soft kisses and asked where I was going. I told him I was going home for the night and he asked if he could walk me. I said yes and we went back to my place. I invited him up. My place was empty except for my mattress and a couple boxes that I had moved out to the living room. We sat on the mattress and he kissed me some more. “How come you never fucked me?” He asked. I was incredulous. “You never wanted me to,” I shot back. “Guess you never tried that hard,” he teased. “Well I’m going to tonight,” I told him. He stood up. I figured he was going to walk out being the tease he is, but he turned to me and started unbuttoning his shirt. He did a slow strip tease for me, finally pulling down his pants to reveal a tiny jock strap covering his cock. He pulled me to my feet and stripped off my shirt and pulled my pants and underwear off in one go. Those gorgeous lips wrapped around my cock and he sucked me for a few minutes before laying down on his back on the mattress. I got on top of him and we started kissing, my cock sliding over his jock strap. As we kissed I pulled my hips back enough to let my cock fall between his legs and down to his crack. I started gently thrusting as I lifted his legs slightly so my cock would come in contact with his hole. I started to push inside but he squeezed his legs tight around me to stop me moving. “You have to rim me before you fuck me,” he told me. I flipped him face down and spread his cheeks apart and dove in. I ate him out for nearly 5 minutes, getting his hole wet and loose. I moved up his body so my cock nestled in his ass crack and started slowly sliding the head of my dick across his asshole as I kissed his neck. After a couple strokes I let it settle at his entrance and started to push in, only the spit from my rim job and my precum providing any lubrication. I felt the head slip through his sphincter and then felt him clench hard. “You have a condom,” he asked. “I don’t think so,” I replied. “Too bad,” he said, bucking his hips slightly so I slid out of him. “Listen up you little cock tease,” I snapped in his ear. “I’ve been waiting to fuck this ass for years and if the only way I’m doing that tonight is bareback, then I’m lubing my cock with spit and fucking you raw until I cum deep in your ass. Then you’re gonna wait on your hands and knees while I watch my load drip out of your hole.” I was mostly joking of course in my own teasing way, of course I’d only fuck someone bare if they wanted it, but then I heard: “yes daddy.” I moved up to his head, put my cock at his lips and grabbed his hair. “Get me wet,” I ordered. He spent a few moments slobbering on my cock occasionally encouraging me to hold his head as far down on my cock as I could. I was a bit surprised as he’s always so tender when we kissed, I didn’t realize he liked it so rough. I pulled him off my cock and he looked at me and said “fuck me, and don’t be gentle.” I took my soaked cock back to his hole, put one hand on the small of his back, the other on the side of his head pressing him down into the mattress and slid balls deep into him. He moaned in pleasure. I started pounding him ruthlessly with my bare cock. He kept telling to go harder and I kept increasing my thrusting. Suddenly I stopped with my cock deep in him and started tonguing his ear. He started bucking his hips trying to get some movement going. “Beg for it,” I ordered. “Breed me daddy,” he moaned. “Fuck me until you cum.” I pulled out of him and flipped him over on his back. I put his legs on my shoulders and sank my uncovered cock back into him and started my relentless fucking again. He took my hands and put them at his throat, not really my thing but you gotta make your bottoms happy. I had him almost folded in half as I choked him and kissed him. I was quickly running out of stamina from fucking so hard, but I could feel my orgasm approaching. A few more thrust sent me over the edge, my semen flooded into him. I collapsed down on to him. “Fuck I love being bred,” he said. “I love breeding,” I told him. “Now get on your hands and knees.” I pulled out of him with a squelch and he got on all fours with his gaping ass pointing at me. I spread his cheeks apart as he flexed his hole. After a few seconds I saw the white of my sperm appear at his hole, followed shortly by a blob of it sliding out and down his ballsack. Fucking hot. I smacked him on the ass and cuddled him to my chest. We spent the next 30 minutes gently kissing. He left after that.

This year, my focus is on the mind, body, and spirit—three pillars that I believe make life whole. The body is physical strength. I go to the gym three times a week, maybe six if I’m motivated, for at least 30 minutes a session. I want to build muscle, look better, and feel more confident. The mind is intellect. I read, I write, I consume knowledge. With AI, I can turn books into audiobooks and listen anywhere, maximizing my time. I’ve also learned to let go of books that don’t interest me, no matter how praised they are. Life is too short to spend on things that don’t bring joy. The spirit is connection. Connecting with myself through yoga, meditation, solitude. Connecting with others by strengthening bonds with friends and family. And connecting with the universe, finding my place in it, no matter how small or insignificant I may be. Each day, I try to take a small step forward in one of these areas, knowing that over time, those steps will lead somewhere meaningful, somewhere better.

I think it was just after midnight at the bar. I should've stayed home after getting back from my friends, but once I've had a certain amount of alcohol, I get pretty horny and wanted to get laid. I saw him from across the room, he was pretty average looking but looked like he had a pretty great body. I just remember saying hi to him, and the next thing I know we're making out in the corner of the bar. He's a great kisser and he's got one his hands on my ass. His crotch is thrusting into me. My cock is straining against my clothes. The next thing I know we're walking. I'm a little bit tipsy but I try walking as straight as I can without straying too much. I might've stumbled a couple times. I don't even remember getting to my apartment, but I'm sitting on my couch completely naked. He's moved my coffee table aside and is in between my legs, his mouth moving up and down my six and a half inch cock. He looks up at me and I smile it him, it feels amazing. His clothes are still on. Suddenly I'm on my back in my bed, I probably shouldn't have had that last drink. He's kneeling in between my legs again, but he's completely naked now. Great body with sculpted shoulders and abs. He's lubing up a gorgeous cock with my lube. He looks at me as he scoots closer and starts to line up his cock with my hole. "Let me grab a condom," I tell him, and reach into my bedside table. His hands are covered in lube so I have to open the packet. I roll it on his cock and he adds more lube. He puts the head at my hole and slowly pushes in. I'm a bit tight and it takes a minute for him to work completely in, I wasn't expecting to get fucked tonight, I was planning on topping. As he starts to pull back out I can feel the condom move against my skin. It feels clinical, like I'm getting an exam, but it's safe. Two strokes of his cock, he leans down to kiss me, and suddenly I'm face down. Did I just pass out? I feel a tongue on my hole. I look back and he's rimming me. I put my face back down on the pillow and feel him move up and lay his body on mine, his cock nestling in my ass crack. He kisses and licks my ear (did I tell him I love that?) as I feel his cock head touch my hole again. I let out an involuntary moan as he slides back into me. He bottoms out and rotates his hips before starting to piston in and out of me. It feels incredible, he's hitting my g-spot on every thrust and it feels more intimate than when I was on my back. He pulls out a little too far and his cock slips out and slides up my crack. I reach back and grab it and as I put it back to my hole. As it's slipping back I realize, the condom is gone, a raw dick is sliding deep in my unprotected ass. "What happened to the condom?" I ask. "It was making me go soft," he explained, "and I wanted to keep fucking you. You want me to stop?" I tell him no and he wraps his arms around me and starts to fuck me. I wonder if I should tell him to pull out before he cums. I'm on my back again, how much did I drink? My legs are wrapped around his back as he's thrusting his bare cock into my naked ass. I'm jerking off my cock and he leans forward to kiss me. It's electric and my orgasm comes almost immediately. I shoot across my stomach and chest as he continues to bareback me. I should tell him to stop before he breeds me. It's light out. I check my phone, it's 8am. He's on his side sleeping, his muscular back moving slightly as he breathes. I have that have to poop feeling that comes from getting railed so I go the bathroom, do my business, and give myself a quick cleaning. I brush my teeth quickly to get rid of any morning breath. I go back in my bedroom and climb into bed. He rolls over and smiles at me. "Last night was hot," he says and I kiss him. "I actually don't remember much of it," I say. "You didn't seem that drunk," he replied. "Probably why I asked you to wear a condom," I said. "Sorry about taking it off. I just can't stay hard with a condom on," he said. I move my hand down under the blankets to his cock. He's rock hard now. I start to slowly stroke him. "That's okay," I tell him. "Did you cum inside me?" "Yeah, I asked you if you wanted me to pull out but you just wrapped your legs around me and I when I told you I was cumming you pulled me into you," he said. "Damn," I replied. "I wish I could remember seeing your face as you bred me." His hips are thrusting to meet my stroking. I move the blankets back and grab the lube and grease up his cock. I straddle him, holding his cock vertically as I take him bare into me one more time. "Guess you'll have to just do it again," I tell him. He grins at me and as I rise up a little bit he takes over and starts thrusting his raw cock into me again. "I'm so horny in the mornings I'm probably not going to last long," he says. "That's okay, as long as you're filling me with your cum," I tell him. I start jacking my cock and a couple minutes later I feel his tempo speed up. He tells me he's about to cum and I feel my own orgasm approaching. He thrusts up one last time into me and holds it there as I start shooting across his abs and chest. 30 seconds later I slide forward off him and I feel his cum slipping out of my ass. I lay down on his chest in my own cum and we stay like that for a while.

I was visiting Waikiki for a week and was sitting at one of the local gay bars one week night when I got talking to a really cute flight attendant and his friend. He was about 5'7" with a bubble butt and a cherubic face with awesome dick-sucking lips. He was wearing a tank top and short shorts so you could just see the straps of a jockstrap hugging his ass. We hit it off and had a few drinks while chatting and eventually I invited him back to my hotel room. His friend handed him a condom and told us to go have fun. As always I prefer fucking bare, and this trip that was my goal, but I'll always wrap it up if someone asks me to. It was a beautiful, warm Hawaiian night as we walked back to my hotel. He put his arm around my waist and I put mine on his ass. "Oh, I know what you want!" He exclaimed. "Yeah, of course. Your ass is perfect!" I told him. "Thanks," he said, turning in to me and kissing me softly on the lips. I pushed him to a little alcove in a building we were by and started kissing him some more, my tongue probing into his mouth finding his own tongue. He was an excellent kisser. I massaged his ass with both hands, my right feeling just up under his shorts and pressing against his pucker. "Oh fuck," he moaned. My other hand went around to his front and I felt a sizable bulge. "Wow, how big are you?" I asked. "Seven inches," he said proudly. "You?" "Six," I replied. "Perfect," he said. " Let's get back to your place so I can see it." We made it back to my hotel and I instantly took his shirt off and he stripped me out of mine. I pushed him back on the bed and started french-kissing him again. I loved feeling him squirm under me as we made out. I kissed down his neck and chest and briefly sucked each of his nipples before kissing down his stomach to a cute treasure trail. I undid the button and fly of his shorts and pulled them down, revealing a colorful jockstrap. I noticed the edge of the condom wrapper peeking out of one of the pockets as I pulled off the shorts and threw them on the ground. His seven inch cock was held tightly by the fabric of the jock. I kissed his cock through the fabric and he moaned with pleasure. I pushed his legs back, lifting his ass in the air, exposing his shaved hole to me. I gave it a quick lick and he moaned even more. Lowering his legs down I shifted the fabric of his jockstrap, freeing his cut cock. I started licking around the head before taking the whole thing in my mouth, swallowing the whole thing into my throat. "Holy shit," he said. "Don't do that too much or I'll cum before you get to fuck me." I pulled off his cock and he pushed me down on my back on to the bed, kissing me like I did to him, working his way down my neck, chest, and stomach until he got to my shorts which he pulled off in one go with my underwear. He dove down on my six inch cut cock and started sucking me. After a few minutes he came up for air. "Fuck, I can't wait to have that inside of me," he said. He got on this hands and knees beside m and I quickly rolled over and drove my tongue into his hole. I rimmed his clean ass for a few minutes until he looked back at me. "Do you have lube?" He asked. I grabbed a sachet from the bedside table and he took it from me. He ripped it open and put some on his hand and started lubing up his hole. He put some more on his hand and started lubing up my cock. He wiggled his ass at me. "Fuck me." "Do you want me to use the condom?" I asked. "You can if you want," he replied. "But I'd prefer your raw cock sliding into my unprotected hole." My cock got even harder from him asking for my bareback cock and the way he said it was so dirty so I quickly put the head of my dick at his hole and started to push. I felt the bare head pop past his sphincter and I paused to check if he was okay. He said go for it, so I pushed the rest of my cock in until I was balls deep. I slowly pulled back until I was nearly out then thrust back in, slowly fucking his raw ass with the length of my dick. I slid in and out of him doggy style for a few minutes until he pulled off my and got on his back. I put his toned legs up on my shoulders and slid my naked dick back in his ass. "You're ass in fantastic," I told him. "I was a bit bummed when your friend handed you the condom." "She means well," he said. "But I'm to much of a cum whore to use it." "I know what you mean," I replied. "It just feels too good to coat the inside of a hot guy with my load." I fucked him for a minute with his legs on my shoulders, then I lowered them so I could lean down and kiss him as we were fucking. For almost five minutes I fucked him, briefly jerking him off but he pushed my hand away, saying that he would cum too fast. Then he asked. if we could stop for a minute because it was starting to hurt him. I rolled over beside him and slowly jerked my cock. "Do you bottom?" He asked me." "Yes," I said. "I'm vers, especially for gorgeous cocks like yours." "Awesome," he said. "Do you want me to pull out before I cum?" "No way, breed me." He grabbed the lube and lubed himself up and knelt between my legs, smearing some lube on my hole as well. His seven inch cut cock curved slightly upward and he put the head of it at my hole and pushed. At first there was a bit of resistance, but then I felt the head slip past my sphincter. I was so turned on by this gorgeous guy sliding his unprotected cock seven inches into my ass. He wrapped his arms around my and started kissing me, our tongues dueling as he thrust his raw dick in and out of my hole. He set a pretty good pace and I could tell he was going for his orgasm. After a few minutes he stopped kissing me and looked me in the eyes. "Oh fuck," he said. "I'm gonna breed that ass." "Give me that cum," I told him. I kissed him as his load exploded into me. He gave a few thrusts then buried his cock as deep as he could and then collapsed on my chest. "Holy fuck, that was intense," he breathed. "That was fucking hot," I said. He slowly pulled out of me and rolled over next to me. I started jerking myself off. "I don't think I can get fucked much more, but if you want, you can shoot your load in me," he said. I of course agreed and he straddled me with his hole just above the head of my dick. I jerked my cock, every once in a while the head brushed against his hole. After a couple minute I felt my orgasm building and I told him. He pushed down on my cock and I felt the bare head just slid inside when I started shooting my load inside him. I felt several pumps inside him as he slid down the entire length of my cock until I was bottomed out in him. He gave me a quick kiss then pulled off me and laid down beside me and cuddled up. He stayed for about an hour then he went back to his place, my cum still inside him.

In Oregon, strippers can be as young as 18 to work in bars. I was watching a cute one one night, he was short, maybe 5’2” maybe 105lbs. He kept making eye contact with me and I tipped him a couple times. At the end of the night as the bar was closing I left and saw him standing out on the street in a t-shirt, short shorts and sandals. “Good show” I told him. “You liked it?” He asked. “Made me wanna take you home,” I replied. “So take me home daddy,” he said coyly. We walked back to my apartment and as soon as we got inside he stripped down to just a skimpy little jock strap and went to sit on my couch. I stripped down to my boxer briefs and went over and started kissing him. He wrapped his legs around me and started thrusting his ass against me. I kissed my way down his front and over his jock covered cock until I got to his tiny little hole. I pushed his legs back to his shoulders and started eating him out, my tongue going deeper and deeper into his hole. “That feels so good daddy,” he moaned. “Gonna feel even better when my cock is in there,” I told him. “You can only fuck me if you carry me into your bedroom,” he said. He was so small it wasn’t a problem. I picked him up and carried him into my room and put him down on my bed. I rolled him over until he was face down and went back to rimming him. After a few moments I got the lube from my bedside table and lubed myself up. As I started pushing my bare cock into him he started moaning. “Fuck that feels amazing!” He exclaimed. “That’s because I’m in you bareback,” I told him. “You are?” he asked. “Are you going to breed me?” “Do you want me to?” I asked him. “Fuck yes,” he said as I started to pump in and out of him. He kept telling me to fuck him harder. For almost 5 minutes I fucked him senseless, finally shooting my load deep into his tiny ass. I pulled out of him and rolled over on my back. He cuddled up on me and as we were kissing, I could feel my load dripping out of him onto my stomach. In the morning, as soon as he woke up he spooned up to me and slid my cock in him again and I fucked another load into him.