I couldn't help but think of this in terms of myself, my sexual prowess and my friendships with a few people half my age.
My doctor just told me, as he's done before, that it's nothing to be alarmed about, it's the aging process. This time he was talking about my vertebrae. My recent CT scan showed further spinal degeneration from the scan I had this summer.
So I'm shrinking, the basis for a hideous metaphor. I was 6ft tall with a stunning body and handsome face. And God knows I made use of it. I was part of the tits and ass tyranny. This helped get the attention, the men I wanted. It helped my career. It wasn't exactly a crutch as I was always well educated, smart, witty and ambitious. Those things got me further. And I depend on these things now as I am pudgy snd shrinking. Shrinking.
I prepared for this time when I wasn't the it boy and I try to prepare my younger friends. I am passing the baton. I am getting to know and like myself all over again. I immerse myself in a life of thought, of creativity, of lntellect. And I can still get laid. Thank God for small mercies. I'm glad to be something, someone other than shallow. But as my therapist said, "the loss of that power has to be duly mourned."