Greetings all...new user just joined. Divorced a few years and have always considered myself bi. I love women and topping them however also love bottoming for men. I have no interest in topping men at all and the idea of it doesn't get me hard. About six months ago I ventured into the realm of gay saunas and love the erotic atmosphere it provides. Love the hot action in the steam room, sauna, and even laying face down on my bed in a room with the door open. Nothing hotter than hearing someone walk by the open door and hear them stop...knowing they're checking out the goods so to speak and then feeling myself being pulled to the edge of the bed or them climbing on top of me. However my latest vice is the dark room fuck bench. I absolutely love being in a dark or dimly lit room, naked, bent over, ass up offering up my ass to anyone who wants it. The only sauna I've been to so far is The Works in Indy and love it there. Been going about six months and always have a good time. Sometimes it can be hit or miss on the action but usually when I get one "customer" others will hear the action and then come in and join although it seems there are too many bottoms and not enough tops lol. I struggle with the fine line between enjoying the fuck bench so much I find myself thinking about it daily and looking forward to my next visit, however I'm currently neg and plan to stay that way although I haven't gotten on prep yet since I am reluctant to share this with my doctor who thinks I'm straight although it seems a whole new world will open up once I'm on prep since I much prefer bottoming raw. I also struggle with the guilt of being turned on and getting fucked then after the guy has bred me I feel like I've crossed a line I shouldn't have risk-wise. I know the obvious answer is to get on prep and get fucked hard and often lol but that initial doctor visit is one I dread. Are there any places online that offer a video or text consultation to get prep? I have good insurance so cost won't be an issue and I'm assuming my doctor won't have access to any meds informatipn not prescribed by him and don't want any red flags by the prep being paid for by my insurance company then my doctor finding out. Long winded post I know but just wanted to see who else loves the fuck bench as much as I do and anyone who frequents The Works who wants to meet up sometime would be cool too!