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I had a British guy eat out my ass for roughly an hour or so...
Sometimes a top would come by to see what's happening and he would suck their cock hard and then direct the cock into my ass to unload so he could suck out the cum...
In the end he even was able to fist my very sloppy and gaped hole...
Best time I had in NZ Sauna in Amsterdam for a long time.

Good and expert rimmers are hard to come by.
When you find one, you have to give them your all as long as they want it.

On 10/22/2016 at 1:13 PM, Guest ff-whole said:

I have been suffering from heavy depressions all my life...

I think that the destructive behavior could be very well part in it. It probably does with me.

I am not really a bug chaser, but I am still having extreme risky sex.

Like jumping out of a building and being asked half way down how am I doing...

"So far - so good..."

 

I take Cannabis Oil with THC and for the last couple of months I finally found some rest in my head. FINALLY....

However now that I am hooked on barebacking and taking anonymous loads, so I doubt if I'll stop this way of having sex.

This was me years ago...
I can say now that with taking high THC cannabis oil - all my depressions are completely gone.
However, I still take bareback cock and loads without asking ...
After a year or so taking Prep, I lost fear completely, but getting Prep is hard so now I basically are completely taking bare loads - period.
The fear is turned into adrenalin and I love the sexual high. Mind you - I like the THC high as well.

Sauna The Cube in Sevilla has a piss pit...
Haven't seen used when I was there though.

On 4/1/2024 at 8:20 PM, Indynudeguy said:

Love this story.  I truly caputures the feel, smell, sights, and sounds of my local bath house.  I'm an older guy, but you could call me "Timmy".  I go to the baths and I'm naked for my entire visit.  Walking around naked with my hole lubed and ready to take any load.  Everyone knows I'm available.  While some visits are busier than others, I know that I am a public fuck hole available for anyone to use.   Nothing like getting fucked with an audience, feeling the cum dripping down my leg.  Poz men and poz loads to the front of the line.

I would love to join you in your local bath house and help you guide all those hot cocks in your ass while I suck on your cock.
You can lie on top of me 69 and suck mine if you want and guide cocks into my hot asshole...

part 2:
This went on for quite some tiime... and I got stiff from being bent over so I asked him if he would mind if we could go around the corner - where behind another rubber curtain there was a bench I could lie on with my leggs propped up and feet against the wall.
There he continued for another - what seemed like a very long time.
Some old daddies came looking in and I made it clear that I wanted more loads in my ass, so that the rimming guy could suck it out.
He clearly loved the idea, and started to coach the daddies - sucking their cocks up to some hardness so they could fuck me.
I don't think we did get much cummers.
Suddenly the cleaning lights came on and we moved to another private cubicle...
He kept rimming me expertly and I asked him to try to fist me. With a lot of sucking and me pushing my inside out, my hole was already pretty loose, and with some extra lubrication it didn't take long for his fist to slide right in...
Soon he was able to slide in and out my hole and I must say I was quite surprised myself. His hands were pretty small but I haven't been fisted for a very long time.
It felt very good though.
After a while he wanted to go back to rimming and sucking my ass out... his tongue wentt extremely deep and I was in heaven.
But after a while it was getting late and I had to get back to the hostel I was staying. 
I said my goodbyes to what turned out an old guy from Liverpool. I asked him if he was Poz but he said he was still negative. He asked me the same question but I told him I was recently tested negative as well. It seemed we both like to talk poz dirty but make believe. So no harm done, though still a very good time for both of us.
A very good afternoon time well spend in the NZ Sauna in Amsterdam.

I just couldn't help my self. I was so horny and I wanted desperately some cock and cum.
So in the afternoon I took the tram to the last stop before Central Station and quickly walked into the alley where NZ Sauna had its entrance.
Paid my fee, and got buzzed inside.
Quickly undressed and found a toilet to clean out. The sauna sells plastic tubes but most people leave them in the bin, and since I'm not squeemish, I just one left behind. Did a quick deep clean, then took a hot shower and first did my rounds in the steam room. At the showers I already spotted some excellent hard meat and some nice fat cocks, that I would loved inside of me.
Inside of the steamroom I already heard the slapping of two boddies - a tell tale of some fucking going on.
I sat next to the couple and when one of the guys shot his load, he moved away, but the bottom wanted to come too, so whe I started stroking his cock, it was obvious he wanted to dump, so I offered him my ass... and very soon he was done and I felt the sticky substance already oozing out of my hole.
I quickly took another shower but being careful that I didn't clean my ass out.
I wanted the lubrication for other tops to plow my hole.
I one darkroom i spotted one bottom on the bench and when I got a 'feel' I noticed a nice thick semi hard cock, who needed special attention.
So I started sucking and made sure that I was heard and my ass was up for possible tops. But no takers, so when I got the cock in my mouth hard enough I turned around to show the top where I wanted it. To my frustration he moved away. Damn...
So I walked away and started towards another section where there are gloryholes. In the back behind a rubber curtian I heard some moaning. In the dark I could feel a bottom bend over, but to my susprise he wasn't getting fucked but rimmed. The guy came screaming and when he came he moved away.
I saw my chance, and offered my still cummy ass to the rimming guy and to my and his delight he loved the cum in my ass and started sucking hard on my asshole.

I agree with those without regret...
I have no regrets either but while stretching, I also trained my muscle to contract again... So serious squeezing is involved.
So when I can handle an regular mans' fist, I can also squeeze my hole very quickly to a closed state...
If I over stretch and also for longer periods of time I have to be careful with farting.
Diarreah is always a problem but then I wear a male diaper for a couuple of days.

I really can't remember anymore. Such a long time ago.
I do believe my first time was not a sauna but a video booth in Sydney where I got sucked off... 
But I think my first bathhouse / sauna experience... Yes I am pretty sure I got fucked nicely.
Mind you that I visited cruising areas before that and gaining enough experience and confidence.

69 me on top or 96 me on the bottom...

or bend down in front of him and hoping someone will plow my ass.

I will be back in AMsterdam afternoon 22nd until night of 23rd

Sorry.  Just see your reply. Was in NZ sauna on Thursday night. 

Was intermittenly on Prep for years but as a Nomad it has to get a prescription and when the need was too high, I would just take the loads without protection...
It is so fucking addicted - so far after years and years of being a 6, I'm still negative.
I'm also bisexual although for sex I sometimes prefer gay sex.
For love and affection I prefer women.
Since 5 months now I have found a beautiful woman and we fell in love. Planning to life together. She is very sexual but doesn't know about my gay life. Have been gay celibate since I know her. My problem as a bottom is that I can't get it up or not for very long and can't orgasm with her.
In a couple of days I go to Amsterdam and the addiction is high to go to NZ Sauna and take loads up my ass, but I don't really want to jeopardize my relation.

I am passing by Amsterdam Thursday evening until Saturday night...
Would love some fisting, toys and or cock.
Age >40 top or versa....
Me: 64, bottom, kinky
Of course I could go to NZ Sauna, but some private action could be fun too...
Staying near Vondelpark but can't receive. I've got no transport so only use of tram in the City.
Send me a DM.

What do you crave most? Cock or loads deep in you?

I need those loads deep, deep, deep inside me. But in a pinch, cock, anyway will do. The key is that no load should ever go to waste

Do you ever feel satisfied or are the cravings insatiable?

Insatiable. The more loads, the greater the need for still more loads

How many loads does it take to turn you into an “any cock, any hole, any load” guy?

Depends on the circumstances. Generally, if there is a group (like at a party) after about 2-3 loads, i am in "any cock, any hole, any load" mode

How old were you when you first realized it was about your hole/pussy/cunt and not your cock? Was it innate and there from the beginning or did you learn it over time?

As a young kid I was always fascinated with my asshole... The older I got and when I started to travel and backpacking, I started to focus on gay men as well as girls, but gay men being more accessable, the choice to bottom became more prevalent.

The hottest opening line I ever heard was, “I don’t care about my cock.” Do you even think about cumming? Do you have a need to?

Yes cumming is important to me but since getting hard is a problem, I preffer to leave it for last.

When you are home alone, do you play with your hole or your dick?

My cock but occassionaly I play with my hole too... in the shower more...

Are you afraid of how deep your cravings are and the levels you will submit to in an effort to satisfy them?

I am not sure that this is a fear. Rather, it is life's challenge -- to see just what I will do to satisfy this need. I'm now even at the point to accept unmedicated loads.

Do you tell your friends about your cumdump desires or are those separate and secret?

My life is a secret double life.

What would you choose…sucking a hot guy’s huge dick or taking a taking a heavy-set Daddy’s load up your ass?

In my ass please...

Anonymous sesssions or do you prefer to see who is fucking you?

I love dark rooms and group sessions...
I don't really need to know or see the person. But if so desired I look him in the eye.

On 3/9/2024 at 9:10 PM, descartes70817 said:

I only just found this forum and my cock was hard the whole time I was looking through all the pictures of your swollen lips. I would love to fuck each and every one of them.

And I for one would love to take on your cock to slide right inside of my ass...

On 11/20/2023 at 4:51 PM, Lostboy90 said:

I started having gay sex when PREP was not a thing. At least, not yet in Italy. So, I was always super careful and insisted on condoms-only. Stiill, I knew i liked bottoming, but it was never mind-blowing. I loved getting there, but then, when they pushed beyond my ring, it always was with more than a little discomfort, and I often ended up hoping to finish soon. 

Then, one day, back at my parents' town, I meet this super sexy man on Grindr. He is visiting his parents, too. We arrange for some carsex in the evening.

Get to pick him up, and he is even sexier than in pic. There is no discussion on safe sex, I assume it is condoms, as usual. We find our quiet spot, start making out, you know, the usual. In the end, he makes me lie doggy style on the front seat, while he takes care of my ass from the back seat. And he totally goes to town rimming my naive butt. And I love it. Juices are running. Then, like in a bad porn movie, he leans into me, bare cockhead pushing against my lubed hole, asking me if ha just can play a bit bare. Just a little bit. Of course, i am ways too horny to say no. Next thing I know he is balls deep in me, bare, and I am loving it. Of course, he then starts fucking me and, in the end, asks me if I wanted him to cum out. Of course I had him cum in me. 

That was the first time I really loved getting fucked. My dick stayed hard all along the shag, and kept producing precum. I was totally hooked. 

Of course, I felt super guilty, afterwards. But the seed was there. I would then meet a further couple of guys who finally taught me to stop worrying and just enjoy 

Yep that's how it goes...
First it is a bit of bare touching, then oeps, he's inside and then you just can't resist let him fuck you and should he come out? No way, it feels too good...
Should he shoot his load in your ass? Hell yes...
Then there is a bit of a scary after thought...
Maybe you ask if they are negative or undetectable... but who are you kidding? People lie or just don't know.
And finally it happens more and more and you stop worrying because it feels so good.

13 minutes ago, bbversapozzguy said:

i am lucky, she  likes it bare and poz 

Oh very lucky couple... a dream come true.

Too much?

Yes when I left my country when I was 21... take the sexual oportunities that were presented to you with a lot more kinky confidence, never go back home... keep traveling and buy all the BTC in 2010/11

What does this look like?

Yup...
Forget the 12 step program...

Lovely Swiss private pilot, poz undet. cock unloading in me.

Well I would love to be HIV resistant...
I did take Prep for a while but only just before I would have unprotected sex until a few days after and then stop. The reason was that it was extremely hard for me to obtain Prep as a nomad traveler.
Sometimes when I would run out, I would just take the risk.
So far I have been lucky I guess.

On 11/18/2023 at 8:11 PM, Incognito91 said:

Are you a long term non-progresser/elite controller? I am always curious about others. 

My ex who was diagnosed HIV+ in the late 80s (whom I lost touch with around 2014) never took meds, but he never progressed to AIDs. He wasn't undetectable, but always retained quite good levels of CD4 the entire time we were in touch. But his then partner in the late 80s, who was diagnosed the same time as him, passed away from AIDs related diseases. My ex's doctor kept telling him to get on meds and that it was unusual for it not to progress - so I believe this is quite uncommon.

My husband is HIV+ but remains undetectable without medication since his diagnosis more than 20 years ago. He often gets asked to donate blood for studies cuz of how unusual it is - so I believe this is extremely rare.

I don't understand... how can you be diagnosed with HIV as a positive if he is always undetectable.
Aren't you basically an HIV- person if you are undetectable or rather if you have never been diagnosed HIV+ you are HIV- 

What I am trying to say:
I have been fucked bare so much and irregulare tested. My last test was last year and I have remained negative.
I did contract several other STD's and often had flu like sympthoms after a sauna visit which I always thought were caused by maybe flu virusses in the air of bad steamrooms and jacuzzis or taking a load by someone with the flu.
So if I did became HIV+ but tested negative, I could be positive. Since you are writing:

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My husband is HIV+ but remains undetectable without medication

Your first name (or a name you'll respond to):  ffWhole

Your cell number (for texts and voice calls): Whatsapp +31 645425339 [mention "seeking ffWhole" in your first message]

A location (be at least as specific as a zip code):  Madeira, Portugal

Times you're generally not available:  ANYTIME

Age:  64

Height:  1.70 m

Weight:  80 kg something

Ethnicity: White