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part 2: This went on for quite some tiime... and I got stiff from being bent over so I asked him if he would mind if we could go around the corner - where behind another rubber curtain there was a bench I could lie on with my leggs propped up and feet against the wall. There he continued for another - what seemed like a very long time. Some old daddies came looking in and I made it clear that I wanted more loads in my ass, so that the rimming guy could suck it out. He clearly loved the idea, and started to coach the daddies - sucking their cocks up to some hardness so they could fuck me. I don't think we did get much cummers. Suddenly the cleaning lights came on and we moved to another private cubicle... He kept rimming me expertly and I asked him to try to fist me. With a lot of sucking and me pushing my inside out, my hole was already pretty loose, and with some extra lubrication it didn't take long for his fist to slide right in... Soon he was able to slide in and out my hole and I must say I was quite surprised myself. His hands were pretty small but I haven't been fisted for a very long time. It felt very good though. After a while he wanted to go back to rimming and sucking my ass out... his tongue wentt extremely deep and I was in heaven. But after a while it was getting late and I had to get back to the hostel I was staying. I said my goodbyes to what turned out an old guy from Liverpool. I asked him if he was Poz but he said he was still negative. He asked me the same question but I told him I was recently tested negative as well. It seemed we both like to talk poz dirty but make believe. So no harm done, though still a very good time for both of us. A very good afternoon time well spend in the NZ Sauna in Amsterdam.

I just couldn't help my self. I was so horny and I wanted desperately some cock and cum. So in the afternoon I took the tram to the last stop before Central Station and quickly walked into the alley where NZ Sauna had its entrance. Paid my fee, and got buzzed inside. Quickly undressed and found a toilet to clean out. The sauna sells plastic tubes but most people leave them in the bin, and since I'm not squeemish, I just one left behind. Did a quick deep clean, then took a hot shower and first did my rounds in the steam room. At the showers I already spotted some excellent hard meat and some nice fat cocks, that I would loved inside of me. Inside of the steamroom I already heard the slapping of two boddies - a tell tale of some fucking going on. I sat next to the couple and when one of the guys shot his load, he moved away, but the bottom wanted to come too, so whe I started stroking his cock, it was obvious he wanted to dump, so I offered him my ass... and very soon he was done and I felt the sticky substance already oozing out of my hole. I quickly took another shower but being careful that I didn't clean my ass out. I wanted the lubrication for other tops to plow my hole. I one darkroom i spotted one bottom on the bench and when I got a 'feel' I noticed a nice thick semi hard cock, who needed special attention. So I started sucking and made sure that I was heard and my ass was up for possible tops. But no takers, so when I got the cock in my mouth hard enough I turned around to show the top where I wanted it. To my frustration he moved away. Damn... So I walked away and started towards another section where there are gloryholes. In the back behind a rubber curtian I heard some moaning. In the dark I could feel a bottom bend over, but to my susprise he wasn't getting fucked but rimmed. The guy came screaming and when he came he moved away. I saw my chance, and offered my still cummy ass to the rimming guy and to my and his delight he loved the cum in my ass and started sucking hard on my asshole.

I agree with those without regret... I have no regrets either but while stretching, I also trained my muscle to contract again... So serious squeezing is involved. So when I can handle an regular mans' fist, I can also squeeze my hole very quickly to a closed state... If I over stretch and also for longer periods of time I have to be careful with farting. Diarreah is always a problem but then I wear a male diaper for a couuple of days.

I really can't remember anymore. Such a long time ago. I do believe my first time was not a sauna but a video booth in Sydney where I got sucked off... But I think my first bathhouse / sauna experience... Yes I am pretty sure I got fucked nicely. Mind you that I visited cruising areas before that and gaining enough experience and confidence.

69 me on top or 96 me on the bottom... or bend down in front of him and hoping someone will plow my ass.

I will be back in AMsterdam afternoon 22nd until night of 23rd

Sorry. Just see your reply. Was in NZ sauna on Thursday night.

Was intermittenly on Prep for years but as a Nomad it has to get a prescription and when the need was too high, I would just take the loads without protection... It is so fucking addicted - so far after years and years of being a 6, I'm still negative. I'm also bisexual although for sex I sometimes prefer gay sex. For love and affection I prefer women. Since 5 months now I have found a beautiful woman and we fell in love. Planning to life together. She is very sexual but doesn't know about my gay life. Have been gay celibate since I know her. My problem as a bottom is that I can't get it up or not for very long and can't orgasm with her. In a couple of days I go to Amsterdam and the addiction is high to go to NZ Sauna and take loads up my ass, but I don't really want to jeopardize my relation.

I am passing by Amsterdam Thursday evening until Saturday night... Would love some fisting, toys and or cock. Age >40 top or versa.... Me: 64, bottom, kinky Of course I could go to NZ Sauna, but some private action could be fun too... Staying near Vondelpark but can't receive. I've got no transport so only use of tram in the City. Send me a DM.

What do you crave most? Cock or loads deep in you? I need those loads deep, deep, deep inside me. But in a pinch, cock, anyway will do. The key is that no load should ever go to waste Do you ever feel satisfied or are the cravings insatiable? Insatiable. The more loads, the greater the need for still more loads How many loads does it take to turn you into an “any cock, any hole, any load” guy? Depends on the circumstances. Generally, if there is a group (like at a party) after about 2-3 loads, i am in "any cock, any hole, any load" mode How old were you when you first realized it was about your hole/pussy/cunt and not your cock? Was it innate and there from the beginning or did you learn it over time? As a young kid I was always fascinated with my asshole... The older I got and when I started to travel and backpacking, I started to focus on gay men as well as girls, but gay men being more accessable, the choice to bottom became more prevalent. The hottest opening line I ever heard was, “I don’t care about my cock.” Do you even think about cumming? Do you have a need to? Yes cumming is important to me but since getting hard is a problem, I preffer to leave it for last. When you are home alone, do you play with your hole or your dick? My cock but occassionaly I play with my hole too... in the shower more... Are you afraid of how deep your cravings are and the levels you will submit to in an effort to satisfy them? I am not sure that this is a fear. Rather, it is life's challenge -- to see just what I will do to satisfy this need. I'm now even at the point to accept unmedicated loads. Do you tell your friends about your cumdump desires or are those separate and secret? My life is a secret double life. What would you choose…sucking a hot guy’s huge dick or taking a taking a heavy-set Daddy’s load up your ass? In my ass please... Anonymous sesssions or do you prefer to see who is fucking you? I love dark rooms and group sessions... I don't really need to know or see the person. But if so desired I look him in the eye.

And I for one would love to take on your cock to slide right inside of my ass...

Yep that's how it goes... First it is a bit of bare touching, then oeps, he's inside and then you just can't resist let him fuck you and should he come out? No way, it feels too good... Should he shoot his load in your ass? Hell yes... Then there is a bit of a scary after thought... Maybe you ask if they are negative or undetectable... but who are you kidding? People lie or just don't know. And finally it happens more and more and you stop worrying because it feels so good.

Oh very lucky couple... a dream come true.

Too much?

Yes when I left my country when I was 21... take the sexual oportunities that were presented to you with a lot more kinky confidence, never go back home... keep traveling and buy all the BTC in 2010/11

What does this look like?

Yup... Forget the 12 step program...

Lovely Swiss private pilot, poz undet. cock unloading in me.

Well I would love to be HIV resistant... I did take Prep for a while but only just before I would have unprotected sex until a few days after and then stop. The reason was that it was extremely hard for me to obtain Prep as a nomad traveler. Sometimes when I would run out, I would just take the risk. So far I have been lucky I guess.

I don't understand... how can you be diagnosed with HIV as a positive if he is always undetectable. Aren't you basically an HIV- person if you are undetectable or rather if you have never been diagnosed HIV+ you are HIV- What I am trying to say: I have been fucked bare so much and irregulare tested. My last test was last year and I have remained negative. I did contract several other STD's and often had flu like sympthoms after a sauna visit which I always thought were caused by maybe flu virusses in the air of bad steamrooms and jacuzzis or taking a load by someone with the flu. So if I did became HIV+ but tested negative, I could be positive. Since you are writing:

Your first name (or a name you'll respond to): ffWhole Your cell number (for texts and voice calls): Whatsapp +31 645425339 [mention "seeking ffWhole" in your first message] A location (be at least as specific as a zip code): Madeira, Portugal Times you're generally not available: ANYTIME Age: 64 Height: 1.70 m Weight: 80 kg something Ethnicity: White

I always collect full condoms to unload them in my ass... Feels real good not knowing what it contains... poz or other.

I think I prefer a sling but getting fucked ass up on my knees works quite well for me too. The later is really good for getting plowed real deep and receive a load deep inside without having to be afraid the load escaping your gaping ass.

Being introvert isn't your problem... neither is being bisexual. I am both but with gay sex as a bottom I become a cumslut whore. It's in your head and you're just not ready. It's a mental proces and with some it takes longer... Once you get the mood right and let go of all the mental brakes, you will get the hang for it. No advice or anything written will really help you. You have to get it straightened out in your head and you alone can do that. Keep watching porn and by all means keep going to the sauna. It will either get to you - if not ... well then stick to what you are doing with 1-1 hookups and/or female.

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