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That guy is an MD who had been trained in the US (I live in Europe). We work in the same hospital. It's not easy to say who is "higher" in the so called hierarchy. We have a collab but we have different roles, I'd say we're more or less equal on that matter. But him being in the US has made him snobbish I presume. I was very shy on approaching him. I had to for professional reasons. That dude (I believe he's around 10 years odler tha me, he must be 40 or 39 not sure) was stone cold. But for some reason I'm so into him. He's a cute guy but my heart was set aflame. I liked him from the first time I saw him. I always thought that we would never even talk (different sections, it's just that things turned out that we collab unexpectedly). And even if we did he would be either straight or not interested. I do have the feeling that he's both hard to approach and he's not too comfortable around people. When he saw me a little later than that (some hours he greeted me) and the next day we had a little chat. That could sound like he's trying to be a little more friendly. Of course it says nothing about him being into me I understand that. But my feelings are so strong. Why would they be for someone who is almost a stranger? Just looking at me makes me happy. When he talked me I felt what "being high" means. He makes my heart beat fast. I know that it's hard to get any closer but even thinking of him radiates happiness. At the same time I admire him. He went to the US to train, that is so tough. It makes me thing that I too shouldn't be afraid. I have many "talents" but I'm hesitant in many things. I'm scared of training abroad. I'm equally qualified in many things and yet never tried to make this cloud of narcissism around me. It makes me think that I'm too quiet for my own good. I wanna penetrate that coldness around him, delve deeper to his world. The other day he grabbed my shoulder and told me something. It felt so intense. Sometimes we're bored watching porn with the dick in our hands. And he barely touched me while I was fully dressed in my shoulder and that was so much more intense. Am I overanalysing? Do I stand a chance? And how can I get closer without overdoing it?

I'm really curious about when this started. And when did it become to be known? Now many people will not like fisting but most gays will know what it is. I'm also curious about when people and how start to practice fisting. I think that mostly older people are seen to be fisted in porn and "quite recently" you can see younger people get fisted. I;d love to be fisted too but it seems to be rare in my region. I'm also curious if it somehow changes the guts.

It's a bit long, hope you don't die from boredom 🙂 He's 34yo m, I'm 31yo. We're both doctors, we met during a training we had. Our contact then was about 2 months long. At some point he was going to give a lecture to us and I was sent to ask him when we would start so that's when we talked for the first time. I had a small crush on him from the moment I saw him the first day. We got along from our first little chat. Just when the lecture was about to start, I could see clearly that he was ehm. I'm not sure which word to use. Something between "okay guys you're more than I can take in a single classroom and I'm a bit scare of people" and "okay I'm nervous, I can't even connect the projector with the laptop". So I helped him connect etc etc and he started. Most of us (if not all of us) could not follow; topic was too specific. But he would stare at me half of the time. He would even ask questions but he got few answers. When the lecture ended he thanked me and gave me his card and asked me to mail him if I have any questions. Truth is, I didn't have any questions because everything felt Chinese to me. But I did mail him. We exchanged many emails. And I mean, many many emails. From a point on, we started talking about more general topics. The following day I was resilient to mail him anew. But he mailed me. That was something that really made me happy. Plus, I think mailing gives an extra touch of romanticism. We would be getting out for a beer. Funnily enough, we don't like beer. So we went for a dessert. We kept on mailing but at some point we moved to Viber. He's IG is mostly for business and none of us is a fun of IG. He invited me to his house for dinner yesterday. It was lovely, we had fun we watched a movie together. And here is where my confusion starts. I don't know where all this is heading to. Is he gay? Or to put it more clear now that there are many orientations out there, is he interested in men? Does he just need a friend? I can't just ask him, I believe it will be too uncomfortable for him. Should I take the wait n see approach? I'm afraid that he will have a panic attack If I get "closer". He blushes too much. Yesterday I told him that his shirt matches with his eyes and he went pepper red in a second and smiled. I can't understand how a person who is a doctor and has babies delivered, he performs surgeries could be so shy. In medicine you meet dozens of people (colleagues, nurses, patients, relatives of patients).. he is a good doctor from what I've seen and heard. Him being shy does not make him being not fucntional. But in his personal life, in my eyes at least, he seems fragile and shy. Which of course drives me crazy, it makes me want to protect him. I'm definitely fallin for him. How should I approach all these?

I have a friend who is 45yo (I'm 30). We know each other for 6-7 years but we came way closer after the loss of a friend of mine. He is the guy that would make me nervous. Loves to be in suit, he's a surgeon and professor, he knows so many things. He helped me throughout my sexuality by giving me advice which is rare for a straight guy. Technically he's married, although his wife is a university professor in the USA (so they're an ocean apart, it's almost poetic). I really don't think he cares. Neither for her, nor for anyone else. I know he has fucked around occasionally however he doesn't seem to feel horny that often. He needs affection though. We spent quite some time together. I love him as a friend, but can't help but wonder. Why is he not with his wife or with someone else? All my senses tell me that love is what he craves. I don't really think he is into me, but on the other hand he loves me too much. I don't wanna sound without confidence, but I don't know why it's me. From my experience, other guys don't really matters to str8 guys. Moreover, that guy makes me feel that he had too much of bad experiences and he doesn't trust people. But he seems to trust me. Once, after a bad day for all of us he had cried and asked me to never leave him alone. If he was gay he had many opportunities to approach me. So I think that him being gay is not a possible scenario. But I don't know why all these.

I'm a ginger guy and I've heard that a lot, even though I think it's a rather new thing. People didn't care about gingers before I think. It was always a black vs blond thing.

I guess you are right. I woudn't ask him to undress though, that would be too much. I was thinking about a portrait actually. When it comes to the sexual part, I don't agree. It's not a fantasy. It's a desire. That could work as the fuel behind a work of art as it has always worked. I didn't catch the mirror part, what do you mean? I would like to have someone work as my model, but I'm not sure how this can be done. I've tried photos from the web but I need something three dimensional as the models we use in our classes. But I wanna be me the one who will chose the position and surroundings. But I think it would be too cringe to ask someone that. And I'd like a volunteer for that.

The past year I've been very passionate about art. It helped me detouch from my "reality", get lost in the world of art and somehow that removed negativity from my life. I was good at my job, I would work out regularly and a great portion of my time was about drawing. I picked drawing classes with charcoal for a year and completed the class. Now I'm taking more advanced classes. Somehow, drawing men gives me pleasure. My teacher, how is about 35yo is a guy that I really admire and I also find very attractive. I had lots of wet dreams about him. Do you think it would sound rude, intrusive or anything like that if I'd ask him to pose for me?

Sometimes it happens that I have a crash on such characters. Most notably with Flynn Rider from Tangled, Elsa's father from Frozen and most recently, Balister from Nimona (you must watch it, it's a beautiful animation with two gay central characters). This attraction has led me to be passionate about drawing. It feels so erotic. It does not include any kind of sexual activity but the act of drawing feels so passionate.

I always liked fisting. From when I started watching porn, a couple of years later I found out that I loved watching fisting. I always had hard time to find fisting though (regardless of position). In my country, in a dating app (sex oriented), I would use fisting as a filter but very few results returned. These people were hard to reach bcz they always wanted someone experienced or they were not my type (but still very few people). I'm curious, it it gaining/losing popularity? From those who practice it, do you notice any changes in your gut? Does it feel better than fucking? how long does an ideal session last for you? How deep you like it? I've seen some porn with deep fisting and loved it, I wanna fist deep someone to the furthest of his gut possible. I also suspect that despite it's "hardcore" label it has a deep emotional impact, is this true? What about prolapse? Is it a thing that goes with fisting? (personally i like it)

I'm sorry for not answering earlier. It's just that sometimes it hurts too much. I'm not the religious guy so i wont look for answers there. I always thought that the souls reside in the blue sky, that's where i wanna think he is. If I am to think as the ancient greeks did, he is in a place called Elysium. The place of an endless spring, the equivalent of heaven. I am so sorry for your loss. There's not. In my country after 3 years they unbury the dead so as to put a more recent one. The remains are destroyed with chemicals or preserved in a special box. I can't take revenge, I don't believe in that. Even the person who did that. I pity him. Not knowing love, being on the wrong side, losing his freedom. That's a fate worse than death. I know he's not sorry. I wish he understood the pain he inflicted. I know he won't. That's the sweetest thing I've heard for a long time. I tend to think of him as the wind against my skin when i walk. thank your for your kind words. About being gay I don't know. I don't even care to have sex atm. it was different with him. I liked his smile and his scent. He felt like a brother from day 1. i know he was heterosexual yet he wouldn't mind sleep in my arms. When he died, I felt really surprised that all his friends supported me in a way that made me believed they thought i was in the worst place. that's so kind to say. even small steps feel hard at this point.

Thank you all for your kind words:) he was the victim of an attack. He was in the wrong place, the wrong time. All this hurts so much. Silly to say, but I can't help but wonder "where my friend is". Is he on his grave? Is he everywhere? I need to talk to him. I talk to him on my mind believing he listens. I can't visit his grave, it breaks my heart. As for the person who did that I don't know how should I feel. I'm usually the annoying guy who can't hold a grudge against anyone. Revenge won't help anything (not to mention that it isn't possible). I so wish this had never happened.

Hello everyone, I know this may not be the place to share my thoughts since it's not about barebacking but maybe someone could hear them out? I believe there are very few fora that you can just say your thoughts. Anyway.. I'm 29 yo. I don't know if I'm gay or not, I consider myself as a gay person. I've never had sex with anyone (female or male) but I jerk off watching gay porn. I was always quite a lonely person. It's quite funny. I know lots of people but I can't say I have close friends. I like talking and going out for dinner but somehow I'm not social. I had a friend that I met when I was 25. He was very cute. We had studied in the same university the same degree (MD) but had very different paths. We were very dfferent. He was social, flirty and (at times) a bit full of himself. But we had lots of fun together. I felt alive when I was with him. We never had sex, I don't think I even wanted that. We had crossed some borders though. We would kiss and hug daily. In the end we stayed together (for a year and a half). We were cooking together and doing the laundry. Our common friends said we had a bromance (but i really didnt know what that was). We loved each other. But the worst happened; he died. It's been a year now. My mood changes between sadness and anger. I'm angry for the person who did it, my blood boils. At the same time I'm thinking of him in weird ways. Or maybe I dream of him. I keep on thinking him how he looks like a corpse, I have nightmares of him screaming, I see blood. And this is just so sad and traumatizing.