Erinbot

Thanks for all the great reactions, i love this community! I actually went ahead and made an appointment to get on prep, i cant wait to get it. Last night i woke up dreaming about it, i think i am finally at a point where i am ready to become a slut.

This happened 2 years ago but i really want to share it because i cant keep my mind off it. Ever since i can remember i have been playing with my hole, many household items, toys and fingers have passed through but never a real cock. I tried multiple times by going to cruising zones and parks but everytime someone would aproach me a gigantic feeling of anxiety would come over me and i would bail on it. The night in question was no different, i already spend 2 hours driving around to various area's. Getting out of my car only dressed in a jockstrap hiding my chastity cage and a t-shirt. But everytime someone would react to me i would just bolt out of there and drive away. Getting annoyed with myself i decided to go to one of the best known cruising spots next to the highway, normally there is like 10 people there at anytime. But by now it was 4AM so there were only 2 cars there. I figured this is it, i would walk into the woods, wait a minute or 2 and if noone shows up i was gonna go home. I get out of the car and walk into the woods with a tiny blanket, put it on the ground just in the treeline but right next to a path and got down doggystyle with my ass pointing towards the path. First nothing happened, my heart was racing, but i was counting down in my mind, keeping myself there till i got to 2 minutes. In the last 15 seconds i hear footsteps behind me. My heart drops, but i use everything in my might to just stay put, wiggle my ass around a bit and seconds later i feel a hand on me... No words said, he unzips and puts his bare cock in my hole, my entire mind is screaming at me to get out of there, but my body just pushes backwards taking him in completely. About half a minute of being fucked later i can feel him fill me up, and he gets up and leaves. About half a minute after him i get up and run back to my car and speed away. Ever since then i have not been able to get myself to go through with it again, my anxiety is still through the roof, but i cant stop thinking about being used and filled up by him.

As the title says, i am looking for someone to be my master and use and abuse me as a no limits bttm cumslut. Region Breda.

Taking the plunge and finally become the cumdump i so desperately want to be. If only this damn anxiety would calm down...

My hole after years of just playing with toys, now im trying to finally take the step to real cocks.

Wow, i guess maybe all the porn and stories i've read made me think everyone was completely confident. Thanks for all the great reply's. It doesnt fully take my feeling away but it already makes it feel alot more ''normal'' i guess to say. This friday i have some time off, ill give it another chance and think of you guys when i arrive!

Hello everyone, My lifelongdream has been to be a cumdump at a cruisingspot. Im on prep and ready to go, but whenever i actually arrive at a spot my heart just drops, anxiety sets in, i feel like i am not good enough and no-one would ever do me, and i just spend the next 2 hours in my car trying to get myself to go out and do what i so dearly want. It always ends up with me just going home, thinking about another opportunity lost and hating myself for it. Is there anything i can do about this, some ritual to clear my mind or set me up in the right mood?