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For me it definitely does. If I know he’s out getting loaded up, I’d be intrigued to do the same. Although I’d also just get off on the idea that he’s doing what he’s doing and getting his sweet ass fucked behind my back. He’s very selective on when we have sex, so it’s not often we do. Which does bother me that I can’t use his hole whenever I want. But the dirty cuck inside of me hopes his hole is getting creamed even if I’m not the one doing it

The other day, I found a prescription bottle for prep in my bf’s car. We’re currently monogamous and he’s against the idea of cheating, as he’s been cheated on with previous partners. The prescription was filled within the past couple months. My heart kinda sank a bit, wondering why he has it. The idea of him being with others sexually doesn’t bother me much, but I still felt that initial shock of hurt and jealousy. I unscrewed to top to reveal it was still sealed and unopened. A small bit of relief overcame the anxiety I felt. But then another feeling started to arise, or rather a mix of feelings. It was equal parts arousal, and disappointment. See, I’m in the category of guys who finds the idea of cheating incredibly hot and extremely exciting. Whether I’m the one sneaking around getting loaded up behind his back and without his knowledge, or if I’m the one who’s clueless as to what and who is going inside of my boy’s beautiful hole. The entire situation can be intoxicating. Which is why I kinda want my boyfriend to be fucking around on me. I secretly scroll Grindr when he’s out of town and I try to look in the area he’s staying and sincerely hoping I find a profile that looks like it could be him. The idea of him in a hotel scrolling Grindr, looking for another cock to fill him up is something that gets me hard like nothing else. I’ve told him before im open to the idea of him hooking up with other’s. I just want to know about it so I can enjoy it too. However it’s really the idea of me catching him that’s the most intriguing. So I’m not sure if an “open relationship” is what I’m looking for with him or what. But I’d love to have him come home after his trips and I find some cummy underwear in his suitcase that’s not his. Or some other indication that he’s fucking around on me. It’s a guilty pleasure of mine. My ultimate fantasy right now. 😈

To be or not to be a (cheating) cum dump. I am in my early 30's and I have recently found myself in a relationship with someone who I met on grindr. I met him at a time in my life where I was just starting to get comfortable hooking up promiscuously with others and taking loads more often. However we hit it off immediately after the first night and became "exclusive" after a while. We currently have a pretty decent relationship, however there's a problem that I have. The sex at first was very hot and very frequent. Yet as of lately, it has pretty much dried up, other than the occasional session that I almost always initiate. And most of the time when I do try to initiate it, he's not in the mood. I know he's not cheating on me, and quite frankly if he was I'd be pretty turned on and I've expressed that to him before that he's welcome to hook up with others. However he's not interested in that currently, or any sexual encounter for that matter. And he's been clear that he is monogamous and doesn't want me to hook up with other people. I've joked with him before that if he doesn't give me sex that I'm gonna go find it with someone else but he doesn't seem to understand that I'm kinda serious. He's out of town right now as he goes on work trips often. I've been on grindr looking for hookups and I'm torn on what I'm gonna do. A huge part of me wants to go be a cheating slut and go let someone breed me like I'm seriously craving and missing, but I'm also rational enough to know that it's technically wrong in multiple ways in terms of a committed relationship. Part of me thinks that I should just live my life and do what I want and what makes me happy, which in this case would be to go get my hole filled up with warm cum. I hadn't regretted any loads I had taken prior to meeting him, in fact I am happy with myself for having the courage to fulfill that desire in the past. But with him in the picture now, should I give up that primal desire just on the possibility that he might find out, and give up these opportunities while I'm still kinda young? Or do I give in to my urges to secretly get my hole sloppily filled with cum by someone else?