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Making the Decision to Commit and Live Openly
jonaspnw replied to jonaspnw's topic in Making The Decision To Bareback
Hey guys, I thought I’d give an update. Around the new year I went to Las Vegas for a “fun” vacation and to get away. I wanted to use it as an excuse to see how it felt embracing myself as a bareback bottom. I created profiles online (like bbrt) and apps that my friends back home wouldn’t see, finally posted my face on them and was honest for the first time in my life stating I’m a total bareback bottom. It felt so liberating receiving messages from tops who respected me, my decision, my identity. I just felt so free to be myself. I’m still not sure what I’ll do at home yet, and suffer from anxiety attacks. But at least I know when so travel I can do this and how good it feels to be honest. -
Making the Decision to Commit and Live Openly
jonaspnw replied to jonaspnw's topic in Making The Decision To Bareback
I love this. It looks so great on you. I hope I can get the courage to do something similar soon. -
Making the Decision to Commit and Live Openly
jonaspnw replied to jonaspnw's topic in Making The Decision To Bareback
I like that a lot. I’ve also thought of getting a tattoo on my ass that makes clear I’m a bottom but I’m not there yet. I still get nervous. I hope I can do it soon though. I want to be proud of my position. -
Making the Decision to Commit and Live Openly
jonaspnw replied to jonaspnw's topic in Making The Decision To Bareback
Thank you. Yes I’m sure this is the right path for me. I’m a raw bottom and that will never change. This xmas I actually feel a sense of relief that I know this and I’m now living as a true and complete raw bottom. Shame has held me back for a while but each day gets easier. -
Making the Decision to Commit and Live Openly
jonaspnw replied to jonaspnw's topic in Making The Decision To Bareback
Thank you for the kind words and encouragement. It was nice to see I’m not alone on this path of self-acceptance. -
So I’m getting a late start on this. I’m in my early 40s and have struggled with issues of shame and inadequacy my whole life. I’ve thought a lot over the last year about what exactly I want in life and how I want to live and have made the decision that I’m a total bareback bottom and I’m ready to commit and live as one. I threw away all condoms I had last month and am on prep now. This may be a somewhat strange question but one of the fears I still have is living openly and proudly. In particular, updating my profiles on hookup or dating apps to reflect my true identity since I know my gay friends will see it and say something. Has anyone else dealt with this, and how did you get past the fear of showing your face on those sites and openly embracing being a bareback bottom? Did you have any tough conversations with gay friends because of it? Sorry for the long post. I would love some advice especially if someone was willing to just text or call to discuss if you dealt with something similar. Thanks!
