MadAdn33

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I am borned with extremely brutal and horrific desires. I start to feel these things when my age nearly 14-15 years old. At the begning i were not accept it due to different reasons and i then i tried to stop these feeling by different way(specially reading religeous books) for nearly 10 years. But finally the result was opposite and my desires and feeling reach too extreme level and so i decided to accept the reality then to follow each and everything and achieve it. Starting from this time my ultimate goal and my ultimate dream is only to achieve this strange desire. Due to its complexity and its dangereousity my dream will need strong commitment and sacrification. And i am commited and happy to do and to be all necessary. My dreams are different and consecutive ordered. These are
a) To be owmed by others(my owner either male or female). Absolutely i want to be owmed like property and where ever it is and whenever it is i need the right owner who will excited amd fantasize by doing these strange things listed below on me. Also by any means i have to be dehumanized and degraded extremely till my mind switched off. Also i have to live absolutely isolated life being visited by my owmer only in small cage or small room or small home the whole my life.
b) Then after being i am owned then want to be tortured my limbs and my dick brutally and extremely in different methods using different materials. Among these torturing
1) to be tied extremely by rhin and strong wires till the wire enter to my flesh always. But the tying/torturing is not to kill the nerve system and to cut circulation system and teen to kill limbs. Becaus all my limbs and my dick should live with me till their time of removal comes to them.
2) To be tortured by differemt needles and nails by piercing, nailing down on fleshy parts of my body.
3) To be mummified extremely by effective mummifier chemicals
4) to be burried below my neck in ground for days or weeks. My owner burry me and then will give me food at least once a day and will make me to stay burried for weeks till my skin start decoloured.
5) to be stumped by latex or rubber suit for days or weeks. Then live like dog crawling by stumped limbs.
6) more and more torturing methods with more torturing materials. But the torturing not including, hungry and thrust, hitting(slabing, box, stick, flog, spank, etc), not include penetrating my ass and my mouth by anything, not include my torso parts(only my limbs and my dick), not include my bone(i have to be tortured only my fleshy part or my meaty part), not include the torturing by severe pain or by disease, etc. But the necessary torturing will continue the whole my life.
C) the third thing i were dreaming was to be amputated my limbs. Being bilateral above knee leg amputee and bilateral above elbow arm amputee and then live the rest of my life crawling by four short stumps like little dog. To be amputee and to see my limbs amputated is the most exciting thing for me. Due to this i would like if i amputated many times and i want to live different types of amputee life. So if possible i would be happy if each limbs amputated atleast four times.
Under absolute control of my owner i have to live being limbless slave or being limbless toy for my owner's fantasy. My amputation will be by any way my owner want. If my owner want can cut my limb by fast cutter device by themselves(the only thing i want is to be cut off by fast cutting and to be healed from the wound only other wise i dont care about else). Or if my owners excite and fatasize by cutting me and they get pleasure by cutting me, they will never worry about it and they will do it. The only thing should be worried is how? The answer will be so simple and the answer is they sould give me some drugs that makes the severe pain feeling into exciting feeling or stop the sever pain when they cutting me. After they give me this drug they can cut my limbs as they want.
D) the last thing i were dreaming is the life of the extreme difficult and challenged life. This life is the longets life i want to live and the last chapter of my life. This last chaper of my life will be the composed of three extreme parts. The first extreme is the life being an object/property(absolutely dettached from my humanity) and completely with shutdown human mind, the second extreme will be the life without limbs and no help of others and the third extreme is the life with daily routine brutal torture. On the last chapter of my life 1) My owner should make me to to live the rest of my life by doing things by myself without limbs and enjoy and fantasise by watching my challenges. I must eat dring, crawl, climb, step down, jump, escape, struggle, etc without limbs and also without any help of others.
2)Also for my owner's fantasy and enjoyement the extreme torturing will be daily routine of my life. My owner deserve to excite and get fantasy by torturing me brutally and horriffically. In addition to torturing types mentioned in point "B"
1) i will be embeded on ground in my four stumps by concrete or by cement for weeks like monument.
2)I should be thrown in super glue to struggle to get out from the glue(to stuck there)
3) to be tortured my dick. My dick would by tortured from the first phase of my dream upto the last phatlse of my life(till it completely removed). The torturing will be extremely tied, piercing, nailing down on board, sewing, cutting, eating by worms and insects, etc. Also like my limbs i would like if my dick is reduced gradually till it removed completely with the ball from its base and become flat. Finally i dont want to have dick and ball. These and others not mentioned here are my ultimate dream and my ultimate goal i want to achieve. If my owner interested on me and excited by doing these things and enjoyed, then i will be the most lucky person ever. Then as i am his property and as i am not human even not animal(i have life but i am an object) he can make me whatever he want (but never penetrate my ass and my mouth). He can use me for any thing he interested. Because i get all my dreams and nothing left from my goals and my dreams. So my owner can use me for his ultimate fantasy by making me whatever he want till my end of life. Also can remove any parts of my body(there is nothing exception)

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