latin69

You need to do what makes you happy which is clearly putting out bareback. Enjoy!

...feels good while its happening.. doesnt always feel good afterwards..

Sometimes get feelings of guilt.. I dont know, hard to explain.

Its like doing something all over again that got me into trouble to begin with..

But then I think of the experience and think I'm already Poz and just feel maybe I should let go and spread my legs like a good boi again..

Hey guys, browsed the forums for a couple weeks and decided to post and join the action here. Let me start off by saying I have been out of the game for a while. I am 33 and poz, have know for a few years and have been trying hard over the past couple years to "play it safe" and do the "right thing" but I find myself always thinking about hot bareback sex and just taking a nice dick. Even when I was out there having a good time, I was always cautious and tried to play safe when I would begin to play with a guy, always trying to convince them and myself that a condom had to be used. Needless to say once a cock was in my mouth or even when I started being fucked with a condom, after a few minutes I would lose myself in the moment and the guy(s) could pretty much have their way with me, including pulling out and going back in raw with little objection. I guess that's what sex does to you.

So it has been a few years and I am undect and have been trying to stay clean and out of the madness of random sex, but I can't help to jagg off thinking of bottoming out and just taking a dick up my ass and in my throat. I cumm hard while talking on the phone with barebackers (tops and btms) and talking about the experience and it feels liberating to talk to others about something that is considered so "taboo."

So, after reading so many posts on here, I have decided to post and talk to many of my own kind and have you guys advise me on what I should do. Should I keep this route and stay out of the game or should I just cave in to the craving and start putting this mouth and hole out on the market and let guys take their turn on it? Sometimes I feel I shouldn't , while other times I think I am already tainted and might as well take more.. Your thoughts?