Hello! I'm new here and I'd like to ask you about some opinion, points of view concerning master-slave ideology(?).
I'm 18yo and not experienced, just had rough sex with boyfriend (rougher anal and oral, spanking, tying, pulling hair..nothing extremal). I fantasize about something harder like spitting, verbal abuse, slapping, spitting, just being abused..
But I don't want to have sex with strangers, it's worthless to me. So my dream is to have a boyfriend who is normally caring, kind and thoughtful but in the bed he's really aggressive, brutal and absolute (maybe with some manifestation of mildness). Such a guy would be one who becomes violent on the strength of horniness. I wonder if I can find someone like this.
The man would also want me to be scared of him (while having sex of course) and make me crying because he loves me when suffering for him. He'd like to trick me, e.g. by kissing, being kind and suddenly changing to brutal man.
I'm quite shy, calm and skinny boy and I reflect if there is someone who gets off on innocent-looking/behaving boys.
Maybe here is such a man? Maybe someone <30yo? What do you think about the topic?
