Lookin4afreak
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Hooking Up With Poz Guys
Lookin4afreak replied to twink-hearts-loads's topic in HIV/AIDS & Sexual Health Issues
I can honestly say, I took my first known POZ load two weeks ago. I've always done it BB. ALWAYS. I took his word for it that he was POZ. I weeded out other potentials, because they were on meds and undetectable, that's what I DIDN'T WANT. While I was being fucked I begged for it, I wanted it. It made my top a lil uncomfortable, because I was the first one he encountered that wanted it. This guy swears he wasn't on meds. I can't say why I am fixated on the bug. I don't understand the feelings. I know I want it, and will get it. It makes no sense. I'm 28 years old. I have a life ahead of me... but I want it. I can't shake the feeling. I feel like, well I can't even put a word to it, except to say I want it. I feel like it will free me and confine me. Those that have been reading this message board for any length of time may understand. I still don't. I'm confused. My primary issue is I know I won't fuck with a condom.... so eventually I'm bound to get unlucky. I LOVE CUM. So now I just seek it out. Easier to just seek it out that get it and not know right? I know my logic is flawed. I'm confused. Help me guys.
