All of a sudden all I can think about day and night is getting as many raw loads in my as possible from as many guys as possible.
Despite the fact that I have a loving and stable (and non sexually adventurous) boyfriend of 5 years at home.
I cheat on him regularly but I try to keep it as safe as possible, but I'm starting to lose my grip on my self control. I've been sucking off guys, any guys, whenever I can and drinking their loads, every single drop. I'm desperate to get fucked constantly and have loads in me all day. I love the thrill of not knowing if a guy in poz, even though I actively don't want HIV.
I desperately want to get high all the time. I've yet to try T or X but I would in a second. Even heroin or coke, I really don't care.
Should I give in? Is life worth living if I dont? Or should I try and find some help?
Young guy here. I have a bright future ahead, I know a do... but that feeling when you're high and a load is finally shot into you... that little vibration in your ass... there's nothing in the world like it. Nothing.
